Ever since I saw his tiny smile, I knew that he'll be mine when I grow a little older. A little older it is, as the years past, we were inseparable, never leaving each other’s side, no matter how big the issue was, we would be by each other’s side, supporting wholeheartedly. When I turned 16, I realized that this feeling which I have been feeling since the day I met him, was called love. I got so used to this feeling that I didn’t take notice of it. He, too, loves me. He took our relationship to a whole new level when he proposed to me 3 years later; when we graduated from high school.

There was nothing on my mind then, because it felt like I was supposed to say yes, it felt like there wasn’t any other option, it felt as though ‘no’ ever existed for me. I nodded furiously before I threw myself into his arms, my cheekbones never relaxing as I was smiling the whole day. It was like this was supposed to happen the very day I was born, it was as if, we were born to be together, a straight route. God didn’t give us a different route; no, he led us straight into each other’s heart. We were soul mates. Daily, I looked at the ring on my third finger. He worked so hard for it and I am just happy that our destiny turned out this way. But sometimes I was too happy, that I started to have doubts. When I open my eyes, I wonder if this is just a dream, if this is the happiness that I’m allowed to have.

Why was I born like that though? To have a direct route to happiness when everybody around me is suffering from depression, rejection, one sided love. They say that if you’re happy for a long period of time, something bad is going to happen because in life, you can never be happy forever. There wasn’t such thing as ‘eternal happiness’, because to earn that happiness, you need pain. Despite my doubts, I just hope I’m lucky, I just hope that God has gifted me with this ‘eternal happiness’ that everyone doesn’t have, because if something happens to this perfect life, it’s going to be dreadful, devastating. At the same time, I’m curious. Curious as to why God didn’t give me unhappiness. My doubts, questions were answered when my happiness...finally faded away...