“Sukidesu”

That are the words that i want to tell you, but i can’t say it because i’m a girl and because of my pride.

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...IN THE COLD DAY ON AUTUMN...

10.09.2014

 

“Kanna!” Shout someone from behind me.

“Ah! Hisasiburi, Se-chan” i said to my tomodachi with a smile on my face.

“Did you see, Kise yet?” She said while grinning.

“Don’t talk about him in here. It’s his territorial you know” i said with a sigh.

“Well, it’s not his you know. Just because he is famous. That doesn’t mean this is his terri” She said while walking beside me.

That’s true, Kise is a famous person. He is smart, have a good looks, and kind to anybody.

“Did you know?” said Se-chan to me, and she stopped.

I stopped and have a glance at her, waiting her to continued her sentence.

“It happend today” She said while looking at me.

I waitted again for her continued her sentence. After a minute she didn't continued it, then just sighed and nod.

“I understand, it must be hard on you” I walk again trough the corridor.

Se-chan just followed me from behind with a teary eyes.

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13.09.2014

 

I walk trough the corridor alone, and coincidencely i met him, Kise.

He smiled at me, and called my name. I responded it just with a nod, and walk away before my face burst because of happiness.

After i done with my class, i walk out from the class. Se-chan today still didn't come to class, she still sad about his crush, midorima.

I walk trough the corridors until i reach the exit. I met Kise again at the exit door and like usual he smiled at me again, and again i just respond it with a nod. Such a fool, for other girls maybe they will, smile back or maybe call his name with a cute voice. But that is different with me. Because in the first place i don't think i'm cute.

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17.09.2014

 

Today i have an exam, and Se-chan already recovered even though not completely recov. She still silent not like her usual self. I can't help it, it must her own will to recov her self.

"Se-chan" I walk to her desk and smiled to her. She look at me and gave me a forced smile.

"Nande, Kanna?" She used that fake smile, to cover her sadness.

"Do you want to eat something? we still have class after this" I said to her, and don't mind her fake smile.

"No, i'm good" she said and looking at the window. I just let her have her time alone, and walk out from the class.

'It must be really painful, i didn't know that feeling because i never had it'

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20.09.2014

 

"Do you remember?" said Se-chan.

"Remember what?" i look at her with curiosity.

"I like midorima-san. When the first time i saw him?" She said with a sad smile.

"Y-yeah, how could i forget it" I said to her while looking at the floor.

"He is genious, has a good look, really good. D-demo... i like him not because of that.." She said then cries silently. I just tapped her back and said "You really have a good taste" I hugged her.

"It's okay to cry. Just cry, Se-chan" i said to her while still embraced her. And after a secon she scream and cries louder and louder. It's okay just for once, just cry like this. I tapped her back.

"Eh? Are? what are you guys doing?" Said someone behind me, i can tell he is a boy. And when i took a glance at him. My eyes open wided. It's Kise.

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20.10.2014

 

A month has passed and Se-chan is back like her usual self, even though i can still see her face gloomy when she look or met Midorima-san. As for today, Se-chan did not have any class. So i'm alone. I have other friends but it's not a real friends just like a someone-who-close-when-she-need-something-from-me.

I walk out from the class and hear some girls talking. At first i didn't notice them, until the said Kise name.

"Kise is handsome isn't?" said girl with a ponytail.

"Ofcourse he is, he was like our prince" said girl with a ribbon on her hair.

"He is kind, smart and dependable!" said girl with glasses.

"Yes, he is. But did you know? my friend was his classmate when he is in High School. And my friend said that Kise is a devil" Said girl with a ponytail

"D-devil? what do you mean?" asked girl with glasses.

"I don't know, he didn't explained it to me" said girl with a ponytail.

"A devil? i can't believe it. How can he be such a Devil?" said a girl with a ribbon on her hair.

"Yeah, me too. I don't belive it" said girl with glasses.

They continued they chats and i just continued my steps and get out from There.

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25.10.2014

 

"antagasukidesu!"

Now i'm in trouble. I'm in a middle of a girl who confessing to Kise. Wait! i did not stalk or something like that. Earlier i just happened to rest at the south park from our University, and suddenly they come. So i did not stalk them!. But, what i'm doing right now?! I'm eavesdropping them?!

Kise looks troubled and let a sigh from his mouth.

"Gome, but i didn't like you. But i really happy for your feelings. But i can't return it. I'm really sorry" He said while bowwing deeply to her.

"Da-da-daijobudesu! It's okay. I just wanted to let out my feelings. Daijobudesu." She said to him while waving her hand, she feels apologetic and then she walk out from the scene. And i'm sure that she is crying.

 

When everything is done Kise, let out a sigh again from his mouth. And suddenly he is smiling, no not smiling. He is smirking. Wha-what happened here?! He is smirking?! for what?? Right just after he reject that girl, he laugh?!

And stubbornly i tread a twigs and it made a sound, not loud but it can still be heard clearly. Baka Janai!?

 

"Who's there? Dare?" He shocked and walk closer to me.

'Shoot! i'm in trouble! What should i do, dousurobaii?!'

He d the bushes and found me, beside the bushes. 'Hai', i'm doomed' i gulped.

 

"Oh, Kanna, it's you. What are you doing here? he smiled at me. I couldn't tell but i was frightned with that smile.

"Are you eavesdropping?" he asked me still with a smile.

"I-ie, i dind't. I just happened to be here. And after that you come with that girl" I said to him, but not looking at his face. Because i'm scared and hazukashi, embarrased.

"So you were eavesdropping" He smiled wider, and i even more scared.

"K-kise-kun" I called his name.

"Nande?" He smiled.

"Why are you.."

"You want to asked me about why a laughed and even smirked right?" He change his smile-face into an evil.. Ie, a Devil face. I stunned and shocked. How did he know?!

He chuckled, "Well.."

"Chotto.. You're a.. You.. you knew if someone likes you even if they didn't tell you right? You're the type of a person like that right? You knew your surroundings" i asked him and waited for his answers.

He chuckled.

"Hee, you knew? Hahahahahahaha. I didn't think that someone would know my real self" He smirked and laugh. This is not Kise, this is not Kise the one i have crush with. Who is this person?!

"Well.. well, you already know. I'm impressed. This thing i just know it, and because i already used to it. I pretend to be what they want me to be. And that is a perfect person. Eventhough i already smart and good looking from the beginning. I just polished my personality into what they want. Hahahahahaha, it's fun. The girls was like a garbage. Just a little smile, and they will be falling in love with me. Just a little chat and the girls will be worship me. It's fun, even though just a little." He laugh and gave a stare to me. I didn't know this person.

 

"And also.." He walked closer to me and whispering to me "You also liked me right?" He gave a chuckled and that smirked at me.

What should i do? The one i have crush with is not a good person. What should i do my heart? I've fallen for a wrong person.