Love. A four letter word that can completely change someone's life well, at least mine. Hi. Name given by my parents who dissapeared a few days after I was born is Hana, Kim Hana. I use to be Choi Hana but I was forced to marry a person who might look like an angel from the outside but in reality he's a devil in disguise, Kim Jongin. Now we might seem like a lovey dovey couple with no problems at all but really, its all hidden under our fake smiles.He hates me and I love him, and why?

It all started on 15th November 2010. It was pouring and there was thunder constantly roaring. I was there at the market, just an eighteen year old girl trying to occupy her time doing absolute nonsense. I was playing in the rain while kicking rocks when something caught my eyes. It was an old man struggling to carry his groceries and my legs unknowingly brought me to him. Two things I cant handle the most are old men in pain and dead cats and to be completely honest, even if that guy was a hardcore criminal I would've still insist on carrying his groceries. At first he was looking at me as if I was some weirdo trying to mess with him but his face softened from a death glare to an ear to ear smile after knowing my intentions and that was just to help him out and so I did.

Mr Han and I stopped at a random cafe just to wait until the heavy rain cools down. We talked about our lives and I told him how I was living alone since I was young and what he does for a living but one thing he didn't tell me was that he had a grandson. Shortly after the rain has stopped, we immediatly left the cafe and walked back to his house  which was quite far. As soon as we entered his house my heart stopped after looking at a gorgeous man with jet black hair and brown sparkling eyes which honestly could make girls so crazy. I never really was the type of girl who believes in love at first sight but then it hit me. Cupid aimed an arrow right at my healing heart.

As days go by, Mr Huan and I got pretty close and as for Kai, I dont even want to talk about that. "I'm sorry to say this but you have cancer and it's too late to do anything, once again I'm extreamly sorry" was what doctor Yixing told  us when we brought Mr Huan for a check up. He was telling us how his head was constantly throbbing with pain and we were stupid for not doing anything about it and now It's too late. We knew that it wasn't completely our fault and everything is in god's hand but a part of us were guilty for not realizing it.

How did we end up getting married? Simple. It was his last wish before he left us and he had no other choice than to obey it and eventhough it is quite wrong to say this but i regreted it. I regreted saying "I do" and I regreted saying that I promise to be by his side through ups and downs because why? I didn't know that my life would be a living hell.

author's note

HI GUYS NICE TO MEET YOUUU /bows/ alright im sorry if im a little hyper but im just so excited this is my first ever  fanfic and I hope you guys enjoy! I'll try to update more often and see ya next timee byee <3