I was sitting on the middle of our bed playing with my phone when he entered. He walked towards me with a serious expression and stood in front of me:
"-y/n we have to talk about us
-y... Yes of course I said while feeling my tummy hurting. He never call me by my name normally
-I have to be sincere with you I think I don't feel what a normal couple like us should feel. I realised my feelings have changed since we first dated...
I let my phone next to me and moved closer to him. My eyes was burning and I could feel a knot in my throat. I sat on my knees on the bed in front of him and looked into his deep black eyes to try to find an answer to the hundreds of questions that was popping everywhere in my mind but the only thing I could see was a serious and insensible look.
-Do you mean you don't like me anymore, that we are going to break up and never see each other anymore? That you don't feel love to me or that you met a girl who has what I don't have?

I tried to make him speak but he was replying nothing just standing in front of me without moving. With a voice that was cracking at each words I was saying:
-Are you sure that is what you want? We lived so many incredible things together since two years. You promised me to...

I could not handle it a second more. My heart broke in a million of pieces as I bursted into tears. I covered my face with my hands but he did not move. I was used to feel his protective arms around my body every time I was feeling blue and his breath on my neck saying that he would be always there for me and that I could cry as much as I want while he was keeping me safe. But not this time. Nothing happened. He was not making anything to comfort me. With my face still in my hands I continued because I could not stop my words:
-I could never live without you you know that! You made my days bright more than the sun, we shared everything and I was totally sincere with you because I knew that was what you wanted! By your side I felt what I never felt before! Every seconds I was thinking that I could not be happier than I am. You are my shining star whatever you decide to do but please think of your feelings and listen deeply to your heart to be sure of what you think of m.... He stopped me:
-I know exactly what I am feeling and what I want to do and what you think does not matter.
I let my hands fall down and looked at him. I knew my face was all red and wet but the only thing that I was thinking about was what I did wrong to make him change suddenly. I never heard such words from his mouth ever. My sight became again blurred and tears was falling from my eyes as I could not stop them. He kept looking at me but I noticed something had changed in his eyes. Something I never saw before and I could not put a word on it. It was a mix of anxiety, impatience, fear and sadness. He added:
-I think we did not understand each other... An evil smile was pointing on his lips
I was totally lost and confused. I knew this smile was nothing but I knew him by heart: he was satisfied of what happened. I was paralyzed by the fear. I guessed what he will say after would destroy me and the two years and more we lived together. At this point the only thing I was wishing was to restart everything and erase my errors. But it was not possible I was obliged to hear these words he had to tell me:
-I want to marry you.
I was petrified. It was another joke of him and I did not know how to reply. But as I detailed his face something told me he was serious. Then why did I thought he was not loving me anymore?

She was destroyed it was impossible to miss it. I destroyed her with what I said and I could not do anything, blocked by the fear. She was detailing my sight with her fascinating green eyes but for the moment I should not move or everything would be messed up. I added:
-I think we did not understand each other... And I smiled to show her her pain was over. I was satisfied of what she said. She loves me more than any other boy and she needs me. That was what I was waiting for before saying THE phrase:
-I want to marry you.

I was done. I said it and finally I could stop playing with her feelings. My brain was repeating every words I said and how she reacted each time. That was perfect, I made her believe I wanted to break up so she was lost but actually I never lied. That is true I am not feeling the same as all the other boring couple, I am adoring her more than anything. I also realized I am not feeling all the fears I had when we first dated. I am now confident in my love. Perfect now I could become again the one I was.

Everything was messed up in my brain. But he did not let me think of anything more and hugged me. I could feel all my muscles relaxing why I was warmly and tightly pressed on him. His breath on my neck was a little bit stronger than always. He moved back his body but kept his hands on my arm and kissed me on the forehead. My heart was beating so fast that I could hear it in my head. He grabbed my hands and pinned them on the mattress strongly so I was forced to lay down on my back. He stood on his knees his face above mine and he said while staring at my eyes:
-you are my treasure my angel and my everything. Now I know that I cannot continue living as a basic couple. I want to share my whole life with you by my side and nothing can change it not even you. Marrying you would definitely lock our life together and I would be completely happy knowing that we both agreed to live together until the end. By the way no girl can have what you have not simply because you have all the qualities and no flaws. You have to trust me.
And without letting me give my answer he kissed me on the lips with all his passion he could gather. I was the happiest girlfriend on earth and gave him his kiss back.