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Can you help me?I feel so weak...
I am crying in my bed right now…
I just feel so ing exhausted.
I try…
I try to be strong but i cant
I try to be strong so i can look back and smile with a proud feeling.
But i cant.
You know that feeling when you do your best and people still don’t give gratitude.
gratitude, for someone to just understand you.
Not even my ing family is supportive.
I moved to another country and have no friends.
I live with my aggressive brother and a father who well… is a as well.
I just cant live like this.
I wanna die so badly…
Why does God have go put be through this?
Is there a God?
Why would he do this to me?
Why…
I just want someone to hug me…
I just want someone to listen.
Anyone...
My name is Minah and i am 18 years old.
This summer i moved to Seoul, Korea.
I don't know the language well or anyone.
I have no friends here, even tho i didn't have any back home either ...
I have been going to Korean lessons to study the language.
Its going pretty good, but everything around me really isn't.
Sometimes i feel like i have nobody.
My mother lives back home and even she doesn't understand.
When we talk on the phone she always says
" Help your brother, to something with yourself!!"
Huh, how ironic...
I literally do everything but like always, nobody notices.
My father only sees my brother as the golden one.
And me? He sees me as a lowlife who will never achieve anything.
When i was little i heard him talking to my mom about me.
And about how i was useless.
I just wanna die sometimes.
But, i am too big of a coward to actually cut myself or jump off a bridge.
No no... I would like to just sleep forever.
Never wake up, at times like these when i cry in my bed.
I pray to God to just kill me quickly and painlessly.
I know i will kill myself one day.
I just know...
Well that was depressive...
Hah, i am sorry you guys if its bad!
I have good feeling about this fanfic and yeah...
Please support! Saranghae
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