Head Over Heels
Head Over Heels - JayPushing the bathroom door open, the humid air happily escaped into the bedroom as you ruffled your hair under the towel that was loosely wrapped around it. Moving to the closet, you tossed your day clothes in the hamper before shutting the door behind you. Walking back to the bathroom, you looked over at the bed, your boyfriend, Jay was laying on your bed, completely passed out from his rigorous schedule.
His white tank top crinkled up around his stomach while his skin peeped out under the hem of the fabric. Black pajama pants hung loosely on his figure while one pant leg was pushed up to his knee while the other one hung normally around his ankle.
Trailing your eyes up his arm, gently folded under his head while his chest moved up and down, his other hand gently twitched as it rested on his chest, his eyes were fully closed, his lips parted slightly while his head lulled to one side, causing your heart to skip a beat at his beauty and perfection.
Turning your attention to combing your hair, you kept stealing glances at your boyfriend, your heart kept picking up its pace, soon it was beating so fast against your ribs and you had to close your eyes and take deep breaths. Brushing your hair and finishing your nightly routine, you walked out of the bathroom and sat on your side of the bed.
Carefully easing yourself down onto the mattress, you tried so hard to not wake the sleeping beauty beside you. Glancing over at him, you kept your lamp on while you thought you could read a few chapters of your book before you fell asleep.
Leaning over to your side table, you pulled your book and turned to the marked page, pulling your knees up, you rested your book against your shorts that hit your mid thigh. You made it through the first few pages of the chapter, before a deep breath came from Jay beside you, turning your head over to see him, you just saw him fall a little deeper into sleep.
Smiling to yourself, you tried to return to your book but his toned body changed positions beside you and made it irresistible for you to be ignoring the love of your life. Marking the progress you made, you placed the book back in its spot on your side table before you laid down and watched Jay for a long time.
The way that his body curled on top of the disheveled covers, the soft and slow breathing that he took, the occasional mumbling of song lyrics and the twitching of his fingers when he was trying to move his body to dance. You were captivated by every single little thing about him, from the way his eyelashes fanned from his eyes all the way to his toes and how the scrunched when he was enjoying something.
While you watched him, your mind began to wonder, at first it was happy peaceful memories between you and him, like your first date and first kiss, which happened to be in the rain. Along with your first dance together and the first time he left and came back, of course bringing you back several souvenirs. Slowly the beautiful thoughts started to fade, worry started to invade, with him being on the road now and away from you, you still couldn’t help but look at yourself wondering if you were good enough for him. Wondering if you could compete with all of the background dancers and girl idols that he was around all the time.
Thinking of all of the times that he was late or that he forgot to do something for you, you started to chew on your bottom lip wondering if he took you and your relationship seriously. Was he trying to get something from you? Was he just staying with you because you were a charity case to him?
Tears started to sting your eyes as you instinctively moved closer to him, moving your head under his arms, you nuzzled your head under his chin, your arms wrapping around him tightly while you let your tears fall. Doubt started to swell inside of you as the tears continued to fall, your shoulders heaved and your body shook as a shaky breath and your soft sobs were heard.
Stirring awake, he looked down at you a little disoriented.
"Baby, are you okay?" He asked you in his morning voice, "What happened?"
"You don’t love me" You whispered through your sobs
"How can you say that?" He questioned sitting up and leaning on his elbow while you just clung to him tighter begging him not to move.
"You don’t" You shot through your shaking breaths
"I do though, I love you with all my heart" He pet your hair gently as he eased himself back down onto the mattress. "Won’t you tell me what is going on?" He probed wanting to know why you are crying.
You cried for a few more minutes before you calmed down enough to look up at him with your wet, tear stained face.
"Do you even take us seriously?" You questioned seriously.
"Of course, I take us seriously." He unwraps one of his hands from around you and brushes your wet cheeks with his strong fingers, "What can do to show you that I care?"
"You have to ask?" You narrowed your eyes at him, moving trying to get up his arms kept you where you were.
"Apparently" He says with a gentle smile, "Talk to me" He pleads softly moving his hand over your back soothingly.
"I just feel like you come here to sleep and eat, that is all you do, then you leave again" You told him.
"I’m sorry, but I am really busy, but do you know what?" He tilted your chin gently up to his as your wet eyes looked at his.
"What?" You questioned him softly
"I eat with you to spend time with you. You know, I could find food other places but I choose to come to you and be with you at lunch time." He tells you softly wiping the other side of your face, "Also I sleep here a lot because you make me comfortable. I can’t sleep where people are watching me and it is hard for me to sleep in the car. That is why I sleep here because I am so comfortable that I let you see every part of me."
"So…" You probed wanting to hear him go on.
"I love you and I love us" He smiles and gently kisses your forehead. "There isn’t anyone that I would rather be with."
Jay’s words always seemed to make you fall in love with him more and more. Wrapping your arms around him, he did the same and leaned over and turned off your lamp before he pulled the covers over the two of you.
"I love you so much" He whispered ever so softly against your hair. Nodding your head in response, your eyes slid closed and you fell asleep while Jay’s fingers gently played with your hair. Falling asleep after you, he held you close that night, feeling your every breath moves his arms while you listened to his heart. Causing both of you to fall head over heels for each other all over again.
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