1 year later

"You still need to experience it, you need to be in more pain.

You’re really a bad boy, you will regret this.

You only know yourself, you only know yourself.

One way one way, my love, one way."

Tapping your fingers on the table, you sing the lyrics.

Your lyrics.

Yes, Hyorin is having a comeback ppl!

The fans were going crazy and everyone was so excited.

Jaebum went all out on supporting you even buying flowers and a huge bear.

Yes, Jaebum.

At that moment you smile. 

You smile at the thought of his name. 

He became your best friend and you cared for him very much. 

Sometimes you felt bad since you knew his true feelings.

He liked you a lot.

But the heart decides not the brain. 

And you just didn't feel the same. 

Mark and Yoomi have been dating for a year now.

"After a whole year i still love him? I so pathetic..."

You tried to distance yourself but he didn't give in.

Mark would always trick you with his smile or charm.

You remember that night so clearly. 

It was his comeback stage and you two were talking.

He would come closer to you and closer.

So close you could feel his breath on your cheek.

Shivering you ask "Why are you doing this?"

" Because i know you love me..." he said.

It killed you. 

This killed you. 

This " friendship". 

It drained you so much.

" You only know yourself. Stop driving me crazy." you say weakly. 

" Really Hyorin baby? Really?" he whispers into my ear. 

Do i want this?

Since that night u haven't heard from him in 2 months.

He was busy with Yoomi.

And that was good since he wouldn't be around you.

You could focus on the comeback.

Time moved so quickly and tonight you are sitting backstage at Inkigayo and thinking of him.

Thinking of all those memories.

" Unnie?" a voice was heard.

You turn around to see Bora.

" Bora shi? What is it?" you ask.

" I wanted to cheer for my favorite unnie!!" she chuckles.

You smile at her cuteness.
Bora always cheered you up no matter what.

" Thank you, Bora." you smile.

" But, i have to tell you something." she says awkwarldy.

" Yeah?" 

" A-amm, Mark is here with GOT7." she whispers. 

The sound of his name pierces you. 

You felt a heavy sensation on your chest. 

" Its fine." you fake a smile. 

All of a sudden she hugs and yells out

" Hwaiting!!!" 

You chuckle at her actions.

It was time. 

I hope you are watching, Mark Tuan...

The stage goes dark as you take your position on stage. 

The music starts playing and you turn around.

http://youtu.be/KHsjVrwHEDQ 

[ THIS IS THE PERFORMANCE. WATCH FOR EFFECT!! ]

The fans were cheering like crazy and calling your name.

" You don’t let me meet my friends

But you go out drinking all night long

You don’t even know how my heart is rotting away.

But you’re so busy taking care of your "friends".

We still don’t know love

You still need to experience it, you need to be in more pain

We still don’t know how to break up." 

And the you spot him. 

Mark was looking straight at you with an expressionless face. 

You lock eyes and sing.

"You’re really a bad boy, you will regret this."

Kicking a high note on that last sentence his eyes widened.

Yes, Mark. You will regret this.

You only know yourself, you only know yourself

You only know yourself, you only think about you, boy

You only know yourself, you only know yourself

You only know yourself, stop driving me crazy

The song finishes and you walk off the stage. 

Walking to the backstage room you were filled with thoughts . 

As you close the door you turn around to see him.

The one and only.

Mark Tuan.

" Baby..." he says.

I look at him.

This time he knew. He realized what he has done. 

And it made me feel sick.

" No, Mark. I am not you baby. Now leave. " you say coldly.

His eyes widen at your voice.

You never spoke to him in this way.

I guess the submissive has became the leader. 

" Baby please dont do this." he says

" Get out!" you said  getting irritated.

" Baby i lo..."

" STOP IT! STOP IT MARK! JUST SHUT THE UP OKAY?! JUST LEAVE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. LET ME GO ALREADY PLEASE!!!!" you scream at him.

The tears spilling out you turn around opening the door. 

" Just go..." you whisper.

He walks out passing by you.

Looking at you for one last time.

" I am sorry." he whispers.

Closing the door you collapse on the floor.

Holding your knees, you sob quietly.

You stay like that for a while.

Slowly standing up, you walk to the table and sit down.

You look at your reflection.

Your gaze fell on the razor.

It looked so nice, so inviting.

Almost like it said

" I will help you. The pain will go away." 

Picking the razor up you look at your wrist.

Slowly pushing the razor into your skin a loud thud was heard.

The door was wide opened.

You look up to see Jaebum.

It became hard too see from the tears.

" HYORIN!!" he screams out. 

Running to me he hugged me tightly. 

I melted in his warm embrace and his soft touch took over me.  

Grabbing my wrist he kisses the wound. 

" Please baby. Please dont do this. Please." he whispers while crying.

You couldn't utter a word but look at him.

At the man who really loved you.

" I will make the pain go away. Okay? " he looks at me. 

" Okay." I whisper. 

I felt my shirt getting wet. 

He was still crying.

Slowly i look at his face.

His eyes were filled with sorrow and concern.

You wipe his tears away.

I just couldn't help myself. 

I leaned in and kissed him.

His lips were soft from the crying. 

And for the first time in my life i felt it.

I felt love.