Final

Helpless. Lifeless. Hopeless.

I opened my eyes and everything was blurred. I started to blink and tried to focus. When I finally could see, I looked around me only to see a white room with a weird scent, an hospital. I looked at my side to see my mom sleeping in the chair beside my bed.

I sat up and looked at her. "Mom?"

She immediately woke up and came to me really fast. "Sweetie, are you ok?" she asked me creasing my hands.

"Y-yeah. I t-think. But where am I? What happened to me?" I asked her confused.

I started to think about what happened and freaked out.

"WAIT! WHERE IS JONGIN?" I asked yelling at her and trying to get up of the bed but she stopped me.

"____, please.. Don't make things more difficult! You have to understand this. He is your brother, you can't be with him." she said with teary eyes.

"Lies. He is not my brother. I don't believe you. Don't lie to me just because you didn't like him. That's a big and bad lie. I want him now! Where is him?" I asked almost getting crazy.

"____, let me explain you everything, but please calm down! It's not good for your health. Just calm down!" she said sweetly trying to calm me down and started to explain everything to me.

I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe what she was telling me about my dad. My tears were like a river, they kept falling down.

Jongin's POV.

"HE IS YOUR BROTHER _____." I heard ____'s mom yelling at her and I froze.

Then I heard ____ yelling a "WHAT?" followed by a loud thud.

I got scared when her mother started yelling at me saying "Jongin, help me! ____ fell! She's unconscious!"

Without thinking it twice I ran to her mother's room and took her in my arms bridal style. We left to my car running. I put her in the back seat of the car and her mother sat with her while I drove really fast to the hospital.

When we arrived they took her and did some tests to be sure that she was alright since she hit her head. After a long wait, they said that everything was ok, thank God; but suddenly her mother told me to leave before ____ wake up but I wanted an explanation first.

"Can you please explain me everything before I leave?" I asked her politely.

I really didn't want to leave. I already love her. How were we suppose to leave each other's side when we were only with one step left to marry.

"Jongin, your f-father is my ex-husband." she said and my eyes widened.

"What?" I said narrowing my eyebrows confused. "Don't tell me your my mother and I've been lied all my life!" I said freaking out.

"No.. just listen to me. Please.. don't have hatred feelings to your father after I tell you this. Ok sweetie?" she said sweetly and I nodded.

"Your f-father was married to me but at the sa-same time he was chea-cheating on me with your m-mother." she said stuttering and started to cry a bit.

I couldn't believe this. This was too much for me to handle but I continued listening.

"The worst part was that he got me pregnant of ____ at the same time that he got your mother pregnant of you. That's why you two have the same age. At first, he said he was really sorry and the was going to stay with me and I gave him a second chance but one month later he left with your mom. Two months later he left your mother for another women, again. That's why he never was present in the life's of you two." she said wiping her tears away.

She took a deep breath and continued. "Your mother and I talked about everything and we ended up agreeing that we would never tell you guys about this if it wasn't necessary. The hurt that your dad left on me was so big and I was so terrified that she ended up with her brother that I never wanted to meet her boyfriends because I don't know if he had more children. But look at us now.." she started crying again.

"It actually happened what I feared the most. If I agreed on meeting you sooner, I would've know that it was you and I wouldn't have let your feelings grown so much and nothing of this would've happened. I'm a bad mother for doing this to my daughter and to you."

I pated her back and hugged her a bit. "Don't worry Mrs. ____. Everything is ok. Although I really, really love your daughter and I don't want to leave her, I know that we can't be to-together.. so.. the only thing that comes to my mind n-now to fix this is.. is.." I paused and looked at her. "..is leaving! I'm leaving the country or at least the city because I know that if I ever see her again, I would still be with her! And believe me.. I don't want to leave because I feel like I'm doing what my father did to her, which was leaving us, but I think it's the best thing to do!" she gasped but started to nod slowly understanding my point.

"I'm really sorry Jongin. I'm really, really sorry that you have to leave and that you have to forcefully stop your feelings. I'm so sorry! You are a great guy." she said while hugging me.

"It's ok!" I forced a smile. "But.. before leaving.. I'm.. I'm going to bid my goodbyes to her although she isn't awake. Excuse me!" I said and left to ___'s room.

I looked at her and she looked so fragile, so weak, so pale. My heart was really in pain. I couldn't stand looking at her being like that and the worst part is that when she wakes up I'm not going to be here for her.

I sat in the chair, took her hand and creased it. I kissed her hand and after a couple of minutes admiring her face for the last time, I stood up and got closer to her. I put my hand in her cheek, creased it with my thumb and kissed her lips. I stepped away and a tear fell from my eye.

"I love you ____. I always loved you and always will. Goodbye!" I said and kissed her for the last time, and left. And left for good. Right?

I bid my goodbyes to her mother and left to my house to pack everything. I'm going to leave tomorrow. I'm going to USA.

Two years later ~

____'s POV.

Since the day my mom met Jongin, my ex-boyfriend, I was left really hurt because of two things. First, because of the cruel reality that we are brothers. I really loved him and I couldn't believe it. When my mom explained me everything, I almost died.

And second, because Jongin left me. I understand that he was shocked like me, but at least he should've wait for me to wake up to bid our goodbyes. My mom told me he left without a word when we were still in our house that day. I actually think that it was a lie because if it's not a dream, I actually heard him talking to me and felt his lips on mine. But since he left me, that hurt me. I began to hate him because he left me like my dad did.

I was neglecting everyone that wanted to be with me and didn't have a boyfriend for that whole year. He hurt me so much that I didn't want to be in a relationship, I didn't trust anyone anymore.

Then, I met Taemin. He was so good with me, he understood me and made me feel like a woman. He made me feel loved. I began to like him too and one day he asked me to marry him. It's been two years since Jongin left me and now I'm married to Taemin and we have a baby boy with a couple of months which we love with our hearts.

I'm really happy that God finally gave me someone who I could lean on. Someone who really loved me for who I am.

Jongin's POV.

Since the day I left ____, I couldn't even sleep. It's been already two years and I still can't accept the fact that we are brothers. I want to be with her so badly, I want to touch her and kiss her like I used to but I know that's impossible.

I haven't been in a relationship since I left and I can't really find someone as great as her. I can't go on, I don't see why I should keep going if the love of my life, the girl that was my soon to be wife, is my sister and I can't do anything about it.

I don't regret meeting her neither falling in love with her but sometimes I do wish to have never met her.

I've been thinking these couple of weeks how my life has no sense at all and after so much thinking, I came up with the decision that I'm going back. I need to talk with her and tell her I'm sorry for leaving. I need my friends and my mother to go on. I know I can't be with her, but I think we should cut all of our feelings by talking and decide to stay as friends and as brothers obviously. That day, I think I can live better.

I think I haven't been in a relationship already because I feel like I'm in debt with her. Like I owe her and explanation first, although we are no longer together.

So, that's what I decided. I'm going back to Korea, to my friends, to my mom and to my old life, to my old Kim Jongin. The boy who was always happy and loved everyone more than himself.

I bought the plane ticket in the airport and said "Ok. I can do this! I'm going to find someone who loves me and I'm going to live well. I'm going to talk with her and love her but as a sister. I know I can do that!"

"The flight #____ to Korea from the USA is ready, to all the passengers, please aboard now." I heard from the speakers.

"Ok, I can do this! Showtime." I said breathing in and out while getting in the plane.

After those long hours I finally made it to Korea again. I went to my mother's house and she couldn't believe I was there with her. She looked so lonely and I hated myself for leaving her. She hugged me with tears in her eyes and I finally felt happy, I finally felt that I was at home.

I unpacked everything because I'm going to live with my mother until I get a job here and have the money to buy my own house again.

I didn't told anyone that I was coming back so after unpacking I drifted to sleep.

When I woke up the next day I went to the house of my best friends which were D.O., Chanyeol, Suho, Baekhyun and Sehun, Xiumin, Chen and also, my Chinese friends which lived beside them, Tao, Kris, Luhan and Lay.

All of them were excited to see me and we did a long catch up. Suddenly I remembered that there was only one more friend left that I needed to see.

"Hey, where is Taemin living? I want to see him!" I said only to see all of their smiles fade away.

He was my best friend and the EXO members -as we called ourselves because we used to be in a dance-singing group in high school-, were second.

They looked at each other uncomfortably and no one dared to speak.

I looked at them confused and asked "What? What happened to him? Is he okay?"

"Umm.. I think you should.. just.. talk with him instead of us. You two need some catching up to do." Suho said with a uncomfortable expression.

"I d-don't understand what you guys are trying to say!" I said more confused.

"You.. you don't have to understand now. Let's just keep having a great time now. You can talk to him later." D.O. said looking away with his wide eyes.

All of them changed the subject and I was left with some weird feeling in my heart. What could have possibly be wrong with Taemin?!

A couple of days of catching up, good times and going to good places with my friends, I thought it was time to go see.. my.. sister. The members told me the direction of where she was living because I was making them go crazy with some much nagging, but they also said it wasn't a good idea to go there alone and without telling her because of something they couldn't tell me. I shrugged off that thought and headed to her house.

When I finally reached her home, I was a few steps away when the door opened. ____ was there, I could recognize her without problems. She was looking beautiful as always with her long black her moving with the air. She looked more mature and more woman like though.

I wanted to run over her, kiss her and hug her but I knew I couldn't do that. When I was finally going over her, something caught my eye. She was holding someone's hand, it was a man. I could see a ring in her finger and also in the man's one. My heart hurt a lot.

"She can't be married already! No!" I said to myself quietly.

I looked up to see him but a baby boy blocked his face since he was holding him.

" This can't be happening! That is not their baby. But who is he?" I asked myself and didn't even know how to feel.

They closed the door and when they were going to turn around I saw something that I felt I shouldn't have. That man was Taemin. The man that was my best friend was holding my ex- sister's hand. I felt like my knees were going to give up and I was going to fall.

The next thing it made my heart shatter in a lot of tiny pieces. They kissed. They just kissed in front of me. My best friend just kissed my sister.

"This isn't happening!" I said a bit too loud and they looked at me. Now I could understand what the EXO members meant.

Their eyes widened, especially Taemin's. She adjusted her eyes and pulled his hand. She gave me a cold look and said "Let's go! We need to take our baby to my mom. She said she can't wait to see him again. So let's go!" she emphasized the words our baby, tugged his hand again, looked at me with hate and more coldness in her eyes and continued walking.

Taemin looked at me with a mixture of shock, guiltiness and regret.

He looked at me with apologetic eyes and mouthed an "I'm sorry!" and left with his wife.

They put the little baby in the car seat, entered the car and drove off without looking back.

I fell on my knees and cried with all my heart. I was hurt and sad, but the worst thing is that I felt betrayed, not entirely because of her but because of him. Because my own best friend gave me a cold shoulder and now is with my sister. Helpless. Lifeless. Hopeless.

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