/April 21st 2012/

"Hyung ! we're classmate ! we have to sit together later !!" you said with a big grin on your face, you look perfect, as usual

"yeah, of course we can" i replied, trying to sound as calm as i can, i don't want you to hear my loud heart beat, right ?

i like you, kim jongin.

/May 25th 2012/

"let's have lunch now, you studied too much hyung !" you said with a cheerful tone, can't wait any longer to eat your precious chicken huh ?

"okay, let's go" i replied, trying to calm my heartbeat. 

what have you done to me, jongin-ah ?

/December 19th 2012/

"Jongin-ah ... i like you"

i have been thinking about confessing since months ago, but i just decided that i have to confess now. i can't hold my feelings for too long, right ? i just want to let you know, even if you'll hate me for that, but i'm okay

"hyung, i'm sorry" you replied

those three world broke my heart into pieces, i know you will say that but hearing it from you make me want to scream and cry, but i can't.

"it's okay, i know you won't like me back" i tried to keep myself calm, after all, i can't cry in front of you.

/January 15th 2013/

"Hello, my name is Oh Sehun, nice to meet you all" he said in front of the class, he looks nice. i steal a glance of you, you were watching him.

he sat beside me and with a big smile, we're being friend

/February 13th 2013/

"kyungsoo hyung ! tomorrow is valentine, let's make some chocolate for us" he said while grinning, i saw you stole some glances of him.

"okay, i'll come to your place this evening" i answered, stole some glances of you.

/September 19th 2013/

"Hyung ! jongin asked me to be his boyfriend yesterday !" for the second time, my heart broken into pieces.

"oh, really ? did you accept him ?" i smiled, trying to control my voice

"Yes hyung, i'm his boyfriend now" he said with a big smile on his face. i smiled, too bad it didn't reach my eyes

/December 19th 2013/

"Sehun-ah, Jongin-ah, Congrats ! it's been two months already. i'm happy for both of you" i said, using my happy mask again. i smiled widely, sadly .. it didn't reach my eyes

"thank you hyung" you replied, still avoiding my gaze. it's been 2 months now.

/January 26th 2014/

my phone ring, it's 12AM now, who's calling in the middle of the night like this ?

"hyung .." your voice shocked me, so i sat on the bed

"hyung .. we broke up" i can hear your voice starts shaking

"hyung .. he was cheating on me, how could he do that hyung ?!" now i clearly hear you're sobbing

"hyung, it hurts a lot" a single tear escape from my eyes, followed by another tears. 

"jongin-ah" i replied, my heart hurts a lot when i hear you like that, please don't cry,it hurts a lot 

"jongin-ah, if only the one you loved was me, it won't be like this" 

and with that, i end the call.

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[A/N : it's based on my own story to be honest hahahah, i don't really have a plan to make this story but ... ta-daaa here we are. i hope you enjoy the story, sorry for the bad grammar]