My heart is bruised.

                                                                          Even if my heart stopped…

                                                                                                                                                                       I… can’t forget it.

                                                                                                           I can’t erase it…

Duizhang, you, who used to love me, are not by my side. I still can’t forget you. Its hurts so much that I can't forget our love. Because of you, I was always smiling. Because of you, I was the happiest.

[Lay] ‘Hey, what’s up?’ ‘Are you feeling well?’ ‘Don’t forget to rest after practicing!’ I never thought these words would be so hard to say. But now, I can’t greet. I can’t stay happy. I try to but it’s no good.

I walked in the practice room where members were laying on the floor, panting and tired. Everyone had their eyes closed. I looked around to make a greet to the guy who I respected the most. But memory flashed into my mind, making me lose my balance. My heart was stabbed again. That guy is gone…duizhang, is gone…

I look at your picture on the table, I sadly call out you name.

I stand on the street where I first saw you, I imagine you being here

I’m looking for you, but you cannot be seen

I’m listening for you, but you cannot be heard

[Suho] I was sitting outside the main office when I first heard about you. Yi Fan, I sometimes dislike you because of you and your responsibility as a leader. You sometimes forget you are the leader. I sometimes scold you even though you are older. Sorry for that…. It’s not because of me right…?

 “Kris…” I stood up as I saw you coming out of the office. You were looking depressed and hurt. “Why…why did you do it…?” I ask.

“It’s over. Don’t get concerned.” You said walking away but I stopped you.

“I just want to know.” I said with broken voice.

“You should know…” With that you walked away. I should know…? You were happy all the time we were together…what do you mean? Were you faking that…?

Is it wrong if I start to miss you?

You, who I loved so much, have left me. As I hold my wretched heart, I call for you. You, who I trusted so much, have left me. I really didn’t know that you would leave me. I really didn’t know…

You know I can’t live without you. You know I suffocate without you. I fall on the ground cursing the heaven as you leave me. I regret everyday…

I, who ignored your feelings and was only thinking about myself... I was selfish. But now I realize, so come back…

My heart will never change. I want to be with you. I call you but there is no answer. But still I won’t back down.

We were good, we were happy. What went wrong?

[Chen] I was surprised. Out of sudden, you wanted it to end…? You were happy, I made you happy. EXO made you happy. But who made you sad?

“Wu hyung.” I grabbed your wrist but you swung your hand away. “Are you okay?” I ask.

“Chen, go back. You have concert in a week.” You said and put on your hoodie.

“What about you? You have to practice as well.

“It’s over with you and me. EXO and me, it’s done.”

“You don’t want this. I know.” But you kept on walking. “Kris hyung…” I called. “Hyung.” You went further away. “Andwe. Please, hyung.”

Duizhang, 144 hours has passed since you’ve left me.

Where are you now?

Face of yours is locked in my memories. I didn’t say anything that time. There are words I couldn’t say. Words that remain in my heart. I’m thankful. I’m sorry. I love you. The words I didn’t say.

Even if I regret, it’s too late, I can’t see you anymore.

I look at the tortuous path that is wet, looking at our memories

It’s slowly getting erased…

[Sehun] Kris hyung, I hid my feelings for you. I am regretting it now. I should have shown you how much you meant to me…I smiled because of you. I laughed because of you. I was loved because of you. You know I always do stretching with you before practice. Even after I you left, I still called you. I couldn’t accept the fact you were gone.

“Annyeong!” I cheered forcefully with a forced smile.

“Hey…” Members replied.

“Wheres Kris hyung? We need to stretch.” I asked. They were shaking their heads. “Don’t, Sehun…”

“Wae? Kris hyung!!!” I called.

“Sehun, please.” Kai said.

“Wher-” “Stop, Sehun!!” Luhan hyung shout. “He’s gone! Accept it!!”

“Luhan…” Xiumin hyung tried to stop him but he continued.

“We want him back too. We miss him too. We’re hurting as well. It’s not only you. When you keep calling for him, we get hurt as well. Calling for him won’t make him come back. It was his choice…” Hyung broke to tears. I broke to tears as well. I fell into my knees.

“Wu Yi Fan hyung…”

456 hours has passed, I still hear nothing from you

The day you left, I blankly stare at your hand, letting my tears fall. You take few steps back, you turn ignoring my cries.

I hoped you would turn back, I hoped you wouldn’t go any further.

Each step you took, I am hurt each time

I call out for you, you don’t reply

You show your back to me…

[Tao] You walked into self-practice room. You looked at me with sore eyes. "Tao..." I rushed to hug you.

"Please..." I cried on his shoulder. "Gege, don't leave me...I'll make it better. Don't leave...please."

"Tao, don't do this." You said. "Don't cry..." You tightened the hug. "It hurts when you cry."

"It’s hurts when you leave me." I said.

"Sorry, I just can't take it anymore."

"What can't you...?" "Tao, the smile I gave to the fans and family were fake and you know that. I may be cheerful on the outside but I was hurting in the inside. I can't take it anymore. It hurt to give fake smiles." Your voice cracked.

"Wu ge..." I could feel my shoulder wet only to realize you were crying. "Gege...why did you hide it...? You could've told us."

"You know I can't express my feelings that well..." Silent surrounded us only my sobbing could be hurt.

"Zi Tao, promise you stay strong. Promise that you won't fall down. Promise that you will not leave them. Promise me that...you won't forget me..." You said one by one stopping each seconds as he couldn’t control his feelings.

"You too. Promise me that you will be successful. Promise me that you won't forget me. Promise me that you will stay in contact me...and EXO." I said still in tears.

You parted the hug and wiped my tears. "These tears...are precious. Don't waste it on me..." You turned around and headed to the exit. "Goodbye, Zi Tao." Goodbye? Were you actually leaving? I told you I can make it better. Why weren't you listening to me? Why did you show your back to me?

If one more day passes, will you come back?

Another day quietly passes; I’m still like this, waiting for you

Even if I close my eyes,

There’s still the light that shined on us

Even if I meet someone else,

It’ll never be you

Because of this, I can’t erase you.

I walk alone, I step on the leaves

I try once again to erase you…but what do I do?

You keep invading my mind

[D.O] I walked into your room. You were busy packing; I could see a dark cloud above you. I could see your cheeks read and your nose had turned red. I was worried about you. You’ve been suffering alone in secret. How could have we not know when we have been trained together for years? But the fact you hid your feeling hurt me.

“Kris…” I sat on your bed facing you. “Are you sure about this?” You didn’t reply. “Are you okay?” You continued to pack. “Shall I make you lunch?”

“It’s okay…” You finally replied.

“You know it might be the last time for you to eat my cooking.” I tried to brighten the mood but didn’t work. I went out to the kitchen and grabbed the bento which had the food I made in the morning for you. I went back in the room. “Here. I made it especially for you. Eat it while going back.” You stood up ignoring me.

“Kris…” I grabbed you. “Everything’s going to be fine. Don’t stress too much.” ‘Eung’ was the only reply I could get. I could see your eyes staring at the bento.

“I…I’ll… eat it well…” You said accepting the bento. I smiled and patted your back.

“Good luck. Wherever you go, whatever you do, EXO are here for you. We Are One, aren’t we?”

The steps you took when you left was painful

Because you left, I wouldn’t be able see you anymore.

The memories keep blinding me, tears are filling up

But did it have to end? The love of you and I?

The memories are still breathing…I won’t be able to forget it.

The thorns keep piercing my heart

[Chanyeol] I waited pacing back and forth in the corridor. My eyes were filling with tears. My heart was racing. Was this the end now? Us and you? Is it really over?

I ran to you as soon as I saw you walking out of the office. "Hyung!" I called but you ignored me. I grabbed your shirt pulling you back. "Please, hyung. Don't do this." I cried. "Don’t go. Please. We can go through his together. Let's grit our teeth and it’s going to be over soon."

"Yeol, it’s not like that..." You pulled the shirt from me. "I have to do this..."

"No...you don't. Hyung, I know you don't want this. I kno-" "Chanyeol, please. Don't make it hard." You then walked away.

"Andwe. Hyung. Please. I don't want this. Kris hyung. Hyung, please. Please don't go...I beg you, hyung. Dont go..." I fell onto the floor letting my tears out. I had been stabbed eternal times. I begged you. But you didn't turn around. Were we nothing to you?

"Hyung!!" I called once again. Your figure was going futher and futher. The steps you took were like getting stabbed each time.

"Andwe, hyung... Wu hyung..." I tried to call again but only sweak would come out. Just then I got a text. It was from you. 'Miahnae, Park Chanyeol. Miahnae...I hope you would forget me to ease the pain...goodbye.'

"How...how am I supposed to forget you?"

The image of you leaving, again tear falls

Please tell me you're coming back so our love can be forever.

You grow fainter, I cant see you

It scares me, Duizhang...

[Kai] Hyung, why didn’t you tell us? How can you leave without a word? Ever since the news broke out, I haven’t seen you. We were badly hurt. We were in pain.

We were getting ready for the practice when Baekhyun hyung walked in cheerly. “Hello~” We looked at him confused. The guy who cried all night yesterday changed all of a sudden.

“Baek…You seem to be in a good mood…” Chen hyung said.

“Why wouldn’t I be? All of us are here together.” He smiled. It was like he had already forgot about you. Like he stopped caring. “Who you calling, Yeolie?” He peeked over Chanyeol’s shoulder.

“Kris hyung, he’s not answering…” Chanyeol said. The two’s eyes met. Chanyeol’s expression changed, Baekhyun was still smiling.

“He’ll answer it. Don’t worry.” He kept smiling. “I’ll go get sodas.” He jogged out. We were all left confused.

“Aish!!” Luhan hyung shout. “Whats with him?!”

“Shut up, Luhan!” Xiumin hyung shout back.

“What? Why is he smiling in this situation?!”

 “Didn’t you see his smile?!”

“It’s fake. His smile was fake. His eyes showed he was depressed.” Chanyeol added.

“He’s hiding his feeling…” I stood up and went after Baekhyun. He was hugging his knees next to the soda machine. I could hear him sob and calling out your name. My eyes hurt when I saw him.

“Hyung…hyung is hurting himself…”

Please don't escape from my vision. Even if the morning comes, please dont dissapear.

It’s been 624 hours since I last saw you…

624 since you have left me…

These days will be repeated…

I will never forget you, I promise myself…

Duizhang, wherever are you, I hope you are loved. I hope you are happy...

We go quiet when we see your things around the dorm. Our mood goes down when they call out numbers during rehearsal. There was no ‘Number 3’ to complete the 12 numbers. When one is missing, we are not complete. The fully charged 100% is now, only 1%.

624 hours...how long will it be before you come back?

624 hours...how long will it be before you are erased?

Wu Yi Fan Duizhang......EXO misses you

We said we’ll be together, why are we loosening our hand?