Two years ago he left me to become an idol- which was always his dream and being the girlfriend I supported him for that. I just didn't expect that he'll leave without even telling me, I had to find out from his older sisters Grace and Tammy that he flew to Seoul along with his parents and what's worst is that he doesn't reply to any of my e-mails. I guess we're officialy over, our relationship is over. He caused me pain and dissapointment- but again it's his own choice and not mine, I just wish he's doing well.

I was on my laptop browsing through my facebook feed when I saw a YouTube link of a new JYP boy group 'GOT7_Teaser Video #1', being an avid fan of K-pop I decided to click the youtube video. I was intently watching the screen, showing two guys wearing a mustard uniform and soon my eyes budged- the young man skateboarding through the hallways was familiar in my eyes. I squinted and looked closer, it's Mark and his hair is a much more vibrant red. My heart was doing flips and my stomach was rumbling not because I'm hungry but because I'm seeing Mark in a different way.

On the side bar, I saw another video 'GOT7_Teaser Video #2' I clicked on it and each members started to appear stating their name while they do something to attract the watchers. Then I hitched a breath when I saw Mark's name pop out, it really is Mark. My boyfriend Mark debuted under JYP as GOT7. I didn't know how to feel at that moment, am I supposed to be proud that he finally achieved his dream or feel bitter at the fact he left me. I turned off the laptop and headed out my room.

GOT7 was a hot topic across Korea and abroad, it didn't surprise me at all because they're hot, y and just plain amazing. All the boys are talented. Months passed and GOT7 has been succesful in many ways. I would watch Mark on t.v. wondering if he still remembers me, if he still thinks about me. On most radio interviews, shows that I've watched him from he was usually quiet- showing that cold look yet smiling. It saddens me because he's usually cheerful and talkative but I guess he changed.

Once a week I would go to Mark's parents' house and spend dinner with his whole family, Raymond (Papa Tuan) treats me as if I'm his own child and I'm thankful for that, ever since Mark left they're the only who keeps me happy- but with them around it reminds me of Mark so much that every night I would cry because I miss him so much, I want to hug him and peck his soft plump lips. When Mama and Papa Tuan arrived back in Arcadia they told me that Mark is doing well, and all I got from them was a letter.

Dear Lovey,

I don't even know how to start this letter, I know how much you hate me because I left without even telling you. I didn't even tell you that I got casted from Jyp- I'm such a bad boyfriend, I don't even know if I'm still your boyfriend after what I did. But I guess us seperating is also good, it gives us space and lets us achieve our dreams, like mine. I hope you achieve your dream of becoming a Makeup Artist. I'm sure you'll make others look pretty just like yourself. 

There's so much things I want to apologize for, but the damage is done. I just want to envelope you into a tight hug and kiss your lips, I really miss you. During my trainee days, you were my inspiration do be stronger and do well. You- helping me in Korean helped me a bunch, it wasn't quiet easy to learn a new language but I got it. I can speak Korean! Lol, we can finally have a conversation in Korean. 

Lastly, I hope you don't hold a grudge on me. We can still be friends right? As much as I want to be in a relationship with you, I don't think it'll work out this way. Me being in Korea as a popstar and you in Arcadia studying- we're barely gonna have time to even talk and see each other through skype.  I guess being friends is enough. I still have our picture together, the last pic we took together before I left you. Remember that day, it was after a party and 

one of our friends decided that we should take a picture together because he finds us one of the cutest couple of Arcadia. Were you that mesmerised by me that you were looking at me instead of the camera? lol, i'm joking. Looking at this picture gives me so much nostalgia. I truly miss you. 

I guess this is good bye. I already told my parents to take care of you since you're already part of the family. My sisters are always around, if you need some girl talk they're going to available- if not my younger brother Joey is also available. But hey, don't fall in love with my younger brother. That's weird. Because he's like your brother- not blooded but you know. lol. Take care of yourself, always smile even if I'm not around. I'm sure one day we'll see each other again and I'll be able to finally hug you!

Love, Mark Tuan

I cried after reading the letter, it gave me chills because it felt like that he was beside me reading it. Seeing the picture he attached to the letter made me heav a sigh because this day was just one of a thousand memories that we had together. I can't believe it, it seems like we just took this picture yesterday. I can't believe that he's an idol. I guess Mark was right, seperation is a good thing. He finally catched his dreams, and here I am taking classes after school. Just knowing that he sent me a letter made me happy, though I wish he was in front of me so I could talk to him up face and ask him a bunch of questions that I want him to answer. I placed the letter back inside the drawer and walked away from it.

My Mom and Dad came home early from work "Sophia honey, we have to tell you something." my Mom spoke softly. I sat on the couch in front of my parents, then my Dad's mouth moved and the words that came out of his mouth shocked me.

"We're flying to Korea."