HaeLyn's POV

 

Life was all difficult. I couldn't even wake up properly. My everyday life . It really bad, and the

worst part was that i had to cover all these flaws and put on a fake smile, every freaking day.

Even though i have a boyfriend. I feel like he doesn't really like me. I feel like everyone hates me. I felt worthless.

I felt .

I walked out of the house with my school uniform on. I saw my boyfriend, Jaemin.

He came next to me and we shared a short but romantic kiss on our lips. He was smiling at me. I blushed.

" So.. Umm.. Do you want me and you to meet after school ? " He said. " Umm i'll think about it.. " I said smiling

at him.
Suddenly, i felt his arms around me bring me closer to a hug and i heard him whisper at me. " I can't live without you. Don't ever live me. " He said. " I won't, i prommise. " I whispered too.

The school bell suddenly rang and we both had to split up. I had to go to those stupid lessons again.

I couldn't concentrate at class at all. It was as if my mind wouldn't allow me to think. All i could think about was

how could i stop being so depressed, so ing depressed...

(after school)

My phone rang. I picked it up. It was a female voice, it wasn't my mom even though it said mom on my contact number.

" Haelyn.. i-i have to t-tell you something... d-don't get sh-shocked ok-okay? " The female voice said.

My face turned from calm to complete terror. What would it be? What was so urgent?

"... O-Oh, what is it? What's wrong? " I said in a hurry. " Y-Your ... Y-your mom.. was ki-killed in a car crash... "

The voice said.

Everything went blank in my mind. I was so frozen from the shock i couldn't even talk.

" Haelyn, are you there? Hello? " The voice said again. I couldn't even respond. I felt my cell phone slip from

my hands and fall to the ground breaking into pieces.

I was shaking and trembling. I fell on my knees. Tears started rolling down my eyes. I was devastated.

I still couldn't believe such thing happened. No.. It couldn't be.. It must be a joke... yeah.. a prank.. Maybe this

is just a prank my mom did to scare me...

More tears started to roll down down my cheeck... I didn't even want to live after of what happened...

All of a sudden, i feel someones arms hugging me from behind. " sh,sh.. what's wrong? What happened? "
He said to me trying to keep me calm. My eyes were shaking, as well my whole body too.

I turned to him and cried on his shoulder. He caressed my back trying to make me feel better.

Jaemin's POV

I was just coming out of the school when i saw Haelyn. She was on the ground... She was crying.. but why...

I rushed to her immedetely... I leaned on my knees too and tried to calm her down. She was in a horrible

condition. I pityed her. I still didn't know what happened though... Was it something i did?

" Haelyn, Haelyn, let's go, i'll carry you home... " I said. " No, leave me here, i can go back alone... " She said.

Maybe it was indeed my fault. I carried her in my arms and took her home. Noone was home right now. Thing

strange cause everyone is there after school.

" want to help you get inside? " I offered. " No,thanks i can get in on my own.. " She said weakily.

She went inside without even looking at me... It broke my heart, i did all these. It was all my fault.

As she went inside, i felt my chest hurt from all the pain. Since i was a child, i would always mess things up.

I don't want to lose her. It's all my fault she's like this now. My heart started beating even faster than before.

I couldn't even move, the pain was so unbearable. I felt as if i would faint. I needed help.

" Jaemin!!!! " I heard a voice behind me shout at me. It was Haelyn. She looked shocked as she looked at me.

" What's wrong? " She asked. " It's nothing, i just sprained my leg,nothing serious... " I said. She placed her

hand on my chest and her face turned to shock. " You're definietely not okay.. " She tried to lift me up. I felt

a burning pain. My head was hurting. " I-I think i have some pills to calm you down... " She said and ran back

in the apartment and brought some pills to me. " Here, take these. " She told me.

(a few minutes later)

I was in her living room. I don't know what happened. Maybe i fainted. " Are you okay? " She asked. Her eyes

were red and her face was also wet, was she crying?

" Were you crying? " I asked her while caressing her beautiful cheek. " No... " She said.  " It doesn't

look for me.. " I said.

" I don't want to discuss anything.. " She said, her face darkened.

I felt ashamed, thinking that she loved me for real. But no. It wasn't as it seemed.

HaeLyn's POV

I am so scared right now of what's happening to JaeMin... He's my only boyfriend. I can't live without him. At the same time i want to kill myself. Nothing is right anymore. I have no parents anymore.

They will take away this house. I will move away because of my grandparents. He will find another

girlfriend to love.

Jaemin's POV

She would leave me and abandon me forever. I would probably get a worse panic attack then and

maybe die from it, i don't care. Haelyn is my only one that i want, and it gets to it's end... How am i

suppose to continue after this?

Haelyn's POV

" Jaemin... Something horrible happened today... " I said, my eyes started getting watery again.

" Like what?.." He asked. " M-My mom got killed in a car accident... " I said, my eyes started rolling

down tears like watterfals. 

" I'm so envious of your life... " She said. " Envious of my life? Have you ever been me? Okay, i'll spit it

out.. I suffer from anxiety. It is incurable in my situation. I've taken every pill in the world to cure it but

it just can't get any better.. Everyday i get panic attacks. It's suffocating. " He said to me.

" You hate me right? " He asked me. " me? .. I don't hate you.. " I said. " Do you like the way you live? "

I asked him. " Do you like the way you live it ? " He asked me the same question.  " Maybe.. we should

put an end to this " We both said at the same time. He placed my hands in his own warm ones.

" We'll be forever together from now on, literally " He said smiling at me. " Prommise? " He asked me

with a smile on his face, his hands were shaking and were sweaty though. " I prommise " I said.

I went into the box my parents used to keep the medicine and i found a bottle full of pills. It was enough to kill a person.

I came back, i was shaking. " If all these didn't happen, we would even get married, live happilly ever

after and have many children and watch them grow... Hopefuly, god didn't want us to be together and

made us suffer... " I said.

We both held an amount of pills in our palms. Our hands were attached to each other, we couldn't leave

each other. We took the pills. At the same time.

All of a sudden, i felt someone hug me really tightly by my waist. " we'll see each other soon.." He said.

My eyes started getting teary again. I couldn't even talk. All f a sudden, i felt as if i was about to faint.

Jaemin was the first one to collapse on me, maybe he had taken a bigger dose. My eyes started closing

too... All of a sudden everything became just a memory.. We both fell into a deep sleep... 

~ THE END.