“As if it was that easy to tell him I'm pregnant!” Himchan said, “Besides I don't even think I'm ready for that...”

“Ready for what?” Himchan and Youngjae both jumped at the sudden intervention

“Oh my gosh, Bbang! Don't you ever do that again!” The ulzzang scolded, his hand tightly gripping is chest where his heart was beating hard and fast

“Sorry babe.” He said, making his way toward him to give him a peck on the lips. “Hi Jae, how are you?” He asked, setting down a bunch of heavy looking plastic bags on the kitchen counter

“I'm fine hyung, how about you?”                                                                                            

“I'm good.” He smiled, “How is Daehyun? I haven't seen him since New Year’s Eve!”

“Yeah, he's been very busy lately, but he's fine.”

“Did you buy what I wanted?” Himchan asked while digging eagerly in one of the bag

“There it is.” The deep-voiced boy answered, handing him a blue bag. Himchan hastily grabbed it and took out the giant ice-cream pot. His smile quickly turned into a frown when he saw the citrus drawing

“That's not what I asked..!”

“I know but they didn't have what you wanted so...”                              

“Why didn't you call me? Don't you know I hate lemon?!”

“It's citrus...”

“I DON'T CARE! Geez, see Jae? The guy is not even able to buy me a bubble gum-flavored ice-cream! How could he possibly raise a child?!” Himchan blurted out. His and Youngjae eyes immediately went wide in realization

“Wait what? What child?” Yongguk asked frowning in confusion

“Ah...Hum...I-It's...” Himchan stuttered

“Well, I think I'll be leaving then”. Youngjae said, quickly grabbing his coat

“No please don't leave me!” Himchan begged clinging desperately to his arm

“Sorry but you're on your own this time, I told you to tell him sooner..!” He easily freed himself from the elder’s grip and slid toward the door, “Bye hyungs!” He waved before closing the door

“Damn you Youngjae, you really are the worst!” Himchan muttered to himself

“What was he talking about? What is this thing you should have told me sooner?”

“Oh, huh, that? Actually I... I-I don't even remember what it was about so it mustn't have been this important!” He lied with a fake a smile, “So forget it okay?” He added before getting out of the small kitchen. Well, it was more like trying to get out because Yongguk was preventing him from doing so by blocking the access to the corridor

“Himchan. Stop lying and tell me what's going on.” He demanded

“I-I'm not lying!”

“Kim Himchan..!” He said in a warning tone. Himchan defiantly stared at his boyfriend but eventually surrendered when the latter stared right back at him with even more determination in his eyes and angrily blurted out

“Okay okay you win! I'm pregnant! Here, I said it, you're happy now?”

“What was that?!”

“Pregnant! I'm pregnant! I'm carrying your child in my tummy!” He said, lifting his t-shirt and poking his stomach

“W-Wha..? How did this happen?!”

“Oh my god, are you seriously asking me this..?!” He scoffed

“Yes- I mean no- I mean...This is impossible, we're always using condoms!”

“Yeah I know. Remember how drunk we were at your friend's party?” He asked, folding his arms over his chest

“Y-Yeah..?”

“Well we kinda ended up in his bed and you kinda ed the hell out of me. And of course since we were totally wasted, we didn't think about protection.”

“Oh my god, how stupid of us...” He sighed, lightly shaking his head in disbelief

“Excuse me? It was stupid of you, you're the one who started groping me like a pizza dough out of nowhere!”

“Well maybe it wouldn't have happened if you weren't so ily shaking this of yours and giving me that stare with lust-clouded eyes!”

“Are you ing kidding me?! I wasn't even looking at you! And how old are you Yongguk?! Aren't you old enough to ing control your ?!”

“Of course I can! It's just that it is ing hard to do so when you are acting all ty!”

“Did you just call me ?!”

“N-No! Of course not! Don't make me say what I didn't! You know I didn't mean it like that!" He shook his hands quickly, "It's just that when you start swaying your hips that way I can't- wait, that was like, two months ago right?”

“Eleven weeks to be exact.”

“Eleven?! Why didn't you tell me?!”

“Well maybe it's because I only found out myself a few days ago! Now please stop screaming, you're giving me a ing headache.” He muttered, slowly massaging his temples. Yongguk sighed heavily and hid his face in his hands, muttering a bunch of incomprehensible words. “Listen Bbang, I know this is quite unexpected and quite going against all your values but... I'm planning on aborting.”

“WHA-“

“Hush. I'm not done yet.” He said, putting is forefinger on the elder’s lips. “I know how much you love children, but we are still very young and I don't think we're ready to raise a child- our child.” He quickly said

“I-Is it because you don't want a baby from me..?”

“Wha- no, of course not! I'd love to have babies with you! It's just that... Well, if I keep the baby we won't be able to give him the best, and I really want him to be happy.”

“Him? The baby's a boy?”

“No, I don't know I just said it like that.” He shrugged

“Oh...”

“Anyway, I do think it is the best way to deal with it so... What do you think?”

“You already know what I think, I'm definitely against abortion.”

“Bbang listen...”

“No now you listen to me. Chan I love you and I hope you know I truly do. I know it is not the perfect time but it happened so we have no right on... cancelling what fate has made up for us!”

“A child is expensive Yongguk! We are just earning enough to buy food and pay rent!”

“Money's never been so much of a problem Himchan and you know it, we'll just have to find a second job and-“

“I'm reminding you that since I'm the pregnant guy I won't be able to work for a while..!”

“Well I'll take a second job, even a third one if that's what you want.”

“Stop being ridiculous Bbang, I'm not keeping this baby to raise it by myself, he'll need his father and I'll need you too.”

“...”

“Yongguk, I know it's hard but... We don't have any choice.” He said, cupping his face and caressing is right cheek with his thumb

“Yes we have, and if you do abort I don't know if I'll be able to stay by your side...” He said sadly. Himchan's mouth fell agape, totally stunned by what he had just heard

“You're not serious?” Yongguk pushed his hands away from his face and left the small flat without answering Himchan's call nor turning back.

***

“Oh, Yongguk hyung, I wasn't expecting you here...” Youngjae said after having opened his front door

“I was walking in the area so I thought I could come and say hi. Huh, is Daehyun here?”

“Yes, but he's taking his shower...”

“Oh. Huh, well... could you tell him that I came?”

“Who's at the door JaeJae?” Daehyun called from one of the house's room. Youngjae slightly blushed at the pet name and cleared his throat

“It's Yongguk hyung Dae!" He answered back, "Well you seem to be lucky, he just finished. Come in.” He stepped aside to let his guest come in before vanishing somewhere in the house. Yongguk went straight to the living room where Daehyun was standing with wet hairs and a towel around his neck

“Hi Dae, sorry to intrude.” He greeted

“No problem, it's always nice to see you hyung!” He smiled, motioning him to sit on the couch. “Do you want something to eat or drink? Or both?”

“Huh no it's okay.”

“You're sure?”

“Yeah. Thanks.” Daehyun plopped down next to him on the couch and sighed, drying his wet hair with the towel

“So hyung, what's wrong?”

“Huh? What makes you think something's wrong?”

“Well, it's almost nine and I know Himchan hyung likes to cuddle with you while watching TV so... either way you two fought or he's been kidnapped by extraterrestrials. And since the second option is quite hard to believe... I guess I'm right?”

“...”

“Of course I'm right, I'm always right.” He said smugly

“Shut up.” He scowled

“So what's the matter? Did you piss him off or something?”

“Actually it's much worse than that.”

“What is it?”

“I... I sort of threatened him to...break up...”

“What the ?! Why?!”

“Hey, what's wrong?” Youngjae asked, sitting next to Daehyun

“He wants to end things with Himchan hyung!” He practically yelled at him

“What?! Why is that hyung? What happened?!”

“He told me he's eleven weeks pregnant...”

“No way! Don't you use protection?!” Daehyun asked, still speaking a bit too loud

“Stop screaming Dae! He's not deaf you know.” Youngjae said sarcastically, rolling his eyes

“Sorry... So? Don't you use it?”

“Of course we do, we just had a moment of inattention and it happened...”

“Wow... I can't believe it..! And besides he's already two months into pregnancy! How come he didn't tell you?!” He asked, shaking his head

“He found out only a few days ago...”

“But I still don't understand why you want to break up, don't you love children?!” Youngjae asked, quite confused

“Of course I love them!”

“So why are you breaking up?! I don't understand hyung.”

“Because he wants to abort!” The couple fell silent and stared at him with wide eyes. “And... I told him that if he did I would break up... I mean, he knows I love children beyond everything else and I can't understand why he's doing that to me...” Yongguk sighed, running his hand through his hair in a frustrated way.

“Oh my... I don't even know what to say...” Daehyun muttered

“Hyung. I understand your feelings but don't you think you've been a little bit too harsh on him?” Youngjae said quietly

“Are you kidding me? Himchan practically asked for it by choosing to abort!” Daehyun scoffed

“That's not true! It's is body and if he doesn't feel ready for a child it's his right to stop it!” He snapped back. “Hyung, try to understand him. I don't think he's doing that to hurt you but rather because he loves you and he doesn't want to disappoint you by not being good enough!”

“Well I think he's being selfish, as always! How could he do that when Yongguk hyung's love for children is so ing huge?!”

“Well how would you react if you discovered I was two months into pregnancy and that it was all an accident?!”

“Tch. That won't ever happen.” He scoffed

“We can never know. What if I stopped taking my pills?” He narrowed his eyes

“You wouldn't dare.”

“Hum... I think I should leave, it's getting late...” Yongguk stood up quickly, not wanting the couple to argue because of him.

"Oh, you're already leaving?" Daehyun asked

"Yeah. Thanks for the help." He said and rubbed the back of his neck.

"No problem. It was nice to see you hyung, you should come more often."

"Yes you should. And you should also talk to Himchan and consider his feelings." Youngjae added

"I'll think about it... bye." He smiled before leaving. He decided to take his time before getting back home, wandering and stopping from time to time to watch some errant cats fighting or a lone dog searching for food in bins. By the time he reached home, it was already past midnight. The whole flat was plunged in the dark. "Himchan must already be asleep." He thought. He took off his shoes and went straight to the bathroom to take a good warm shower before heading off to sleep. Not even a second after he had slip under the covers next to his lover, he felt something pinch his arm furiously. "OW! What the-?!" He used his phone as a lamp and saw that it was Himchan who was actually pinching him. "Hey! What's wrong with you?!"

"You mean what's wrong with you! Do you know what time it is?! It's almost 2:00 am Yongguk! Where the hell where you?! I was dead worried!" He scolded, still pinching him

"Dammit Himchan stop it!" He hissed and grabbed both of his wrists

"Answer me!"

"I was at Daehyun's!"

"Oh yeah? And why didn't you answer my calls and messages?!"

"I-I didn't mean to ignore you! I just didn't feel ready to talk to you after what happened!"

"Geez, sometimes I wonder who's the hyung here." He sighed. Yongguk eventually let go of his hands to switch on the lamp next to their bed.

"Himchan, I think we need to talk."

"No joking." He said in a sarcastic tone. Yongguk rolled his eyes and sat up, leaning his back against the headboard

"I'm serious. I thought about it and I still-"

"You know, I was waiting for you." Himchan cut him off.

"What?"

"I was waiting for you to come back. I felt so guilty after what I told you. I was even ready to think back on my decision."

"Seriously?! Himchan that's great! I'm so-"

"Don't you hear me? I said I was ready to think back on it but, your attitude proved me right: we're not ready to raise a child." He hissed before turning his back to Yongguk.

"W-Wait Channie, you can't-"

"Oh yes I can Mr. Bang!" He said, sitting up and poking the other's chest. "I'm tired of always having to submit myself to your any and every desires! Sure I love you and you're the best thing that ever happened to me, but when I say I'm not ready to bear this child I mean it okay?! So now I'm going to abort and if you dare break up with me, I'll ing kill you!" He yelled angrily. Yongguk stared at him, totally dumbfounded. Himchan was panting now and, after a long moment of silence, his bottom lip started to tremble before he broke down in tears.

"N-No don't!" Yongguk said, quickly wrapping his arms around the younger man and slowly rocking him back and forth in his embrace

"...-te you..." He mumbled between hiccups

"What was that?"

"I-I hate y-you..!" He repeated, still crying

"Baby please, don't say that..."

"Dammit! I thought you were leaving me for good, I thought you'd never come back..! I was so scared you know; you wouldn't pick up your phone a-and I didn't know what to do..."

"I'm sorry baby, I'm so sorry..." Himchan kept crying, shaking softly because of his sobs. "If you don't feel ready to be dad, then I'll wait for you until you do. And I'll wait no matter what, even if it takes years for you to change your mind, okay? So please Channie stop crying." He said tightening his hold around the crying man. Yongguk kept rocking him back and forth until he fell asleep in his embrace.

***

"So... Today's the day huh?" Yongguk asked, shoving his hands in his jeans' pockets

"Yeah..." Himchan sighed

"How are you feeling?" He said, getting closer to him and caressing his hair

"Scared." He answered, nervously playing with his fingers, "Very, very scared…” His eyes suddenly widened as if he had just realized what was going to happen to him and his breath quickened, “Yongguk I-I'm scared!" He started to panic, suddenly sitting up and trying to get out of his hospital's bed

"Hey, hey... calm down, everything's gonna be alright." He put him back under the covers and made sure he wouldn't be able to get out of the bed again. "You'll be handled by professionals who perfectly know how to do their work so don't worry okay?" He reassured him

"But they're going to anesthetize me! What if I never wake up? W-What if the doctor's hand slips and he cut something that'll make me blind?!"

"Stop talking nonsense babe, they are going to work on your stomach, how could that possibly make you blind?" He chuckled

"I don't know but I'm sure it could happen! You know I've once read something about a guy who went to the hospital to fix his broken ankle and got out deaf instead!" Yongguk rolled his eyes and kissed his boyfriend’s nose

"I heard this story and they found out that the guy was faking it."

"...Still, it could've been real!"

"Himchan stop freaking out, okay? It's not the first time you've been hospitalized."

"Yes, but I've never come for surgery! Don't you realize? They're going to open my tummy! What if they-"

"Enough with the 'what ifs', I already told you that everything would be okay. You're going to do this and then we'll go back home together okay?"

"...And we'll cuddle in bed and watch a drama together?" He asked in a small voice, nervously munching on his lower lip

"If you want to." He smiled at his boyfriend's cute self and kissed his forehead

"Thank you Bbang. I love you."

"I love you too." He said before giving him several pecks on the lips.

"Mr. Kim Himchan?" A doctor entered the room with two nurses

"Y-Yes?" Himchan answered with a shaky voice

"I'm Dr. Park, I'll be the one taking care of the surgery. You're going to be lead to the operating theater where the abortion will take place."

"O-Okay..." The two nurses started to push Himchan's bed toward the corridor that led to the operating theater

"Don't worry babe, it's gonna be okay. I'll be waiting for you in the waiting room. I love you." Yongguk said, quickly kissing his forehead before he got out of his reach

"I love you too! W-Wait for me, okay?"

"I promise!" He answered back before the heavy doors of the operating theater closed behind his lover.

***

"H-Hey..." A hoarse voice called. Yongguk turned around and saw that the voice belonged to Himchan.

"Babe? What are you doing here? Wasn't the surgery supposed to last longer?" He said confused. He stood up and noticed Himchan's eyes were red and slightly swollen, "Hey, are you okay?" He the other's cheek, concern written on his face

"I... I-I couldn't do it..." He stuttered, his head hanged low

"Pardon?"

"I didn't go through surgery, I couldn't..."

"What do you mean you couldn't?" He asked, his brows knitting together in confusion. Himchan bit his bottom lip and raised his head. His eyes were watery and he had to take several deep breaths before speaking

"Before they anesthetized me, the doctor made a scan to make sure everything would go well but, when I heard the baby's heartbeat I... I-I just couldn't do it Yongguk... I mean, how could I get rid of him when he's just here, alive in my tummy?"

"...Wait... Are you telling me you didn't...abort..?" He asked carefully. Himchan nodded and Yongguk's eyes widened in disbelief. "Oh my god, I can't believe it... Y-You kept the baby?" He asked, not sure he heard well

"Yes..." He smiled shyly

"We're going to be parents? We're gonna have a baby!" He said, eyes wide as realization slowly hit him

"Yes! Yes, we're going to have a baby!" He laughed, wiping the remaining tears in his eyes away

"I'm so happy Himchan, I love you so much! Thank you!" He said, holding him in a bone crushing hug. "I love you, thank you so much Himchan, I love you..!" He hid his face in his lover's neck and sobbed like a little child.

"I love you too Yongguk..." He murmured, rubbing his back and kissing his temple.

A/N: Okay so here we are, I eventually decided to turn this into a chaptered fic!! So thanks for subscribing, and please tell me what you think about it ^^

PS: sorry for all the mistakes, I'll try to fix them >~<