It's a first for me to encounter a girl who had the guts to yell and stepped on my ego, I was humiliated for the first time in my entire life, I never have expected that there are still student of my School to do that kind of thing to me- not to mention that, that person is a girl. Like, who in their right mind to do that to me, scratch that who is she to do that to me.

I glare at the brave girl, but when my eyes met hers, I stopped on my very spot- there's something in her eyes that pulled me to serenity, innocence and serenity was reflected in her calm eyes. 

I don't know but the anger and humiliated feelings erupting inside me subsided the longer I stare straight into her captivating eyes

Before I know it, I was pulling my bag away from this weakling beside me.

 'The heck is wrong with me'

Since that incident, my life become a mess- I don't know what's going on in my mind, I'd smile absent mindedly every time I recall our first meeting. I found myself following her every move, observing her from afar. I don't know what she did to me- why am I like this? Why am I looking for her presence every single day as if my day wouldn't be complete if I can't see her. I don't know, maybe I was just amaze by her clumsiness and by her bluntness. I've never encounter a girl like her before.

But everything change when we had our assembly, she said something to me and it bothers me a lot

"Do you like me?"

Those words, those statement bother me a lot, it plays on my head like a broken CD that keeps on playing and repeating the same phrase. Do I really like her? Pfft. That's bullcrap

"Luhan-ah" I stopped on my very spot when I hear a sweet voice that is full of authority "I heard from your dad that you don't want to handle your obligation" my Mom walks towards me with a sweet at the same time scary smile plastered on her face

"Yet, you forgot to add that word on the end of your statement- Mom" I answered, hiding my nervousness from this scary person in front of me

My mom smile in disbelief "are you" she paused and scoff and stares at me for a seconds that brought shiver to my spine, giving me a cold sweat in my entire body "correcting me, my dear son?" 

"O-of course not, I mean no" I answered and my mom give me her one billion worth of smile- her victorious smile "good, cause that's what I heard'' she finally turn her back and walk away from me "and, oh! Before I forgot cover your bruise if you don't want me to add that" and with that she left me behind, giving the sigh of relief

"Have your mother talk to you?" 

I turn my head, and found my dad leaning on the railings upstairs

 "seriously how did you fall in love with her?" I ask ignoring his question

"The her that you're referring to is your mother, if I were you I'd better watch my mouth if you don't want her to hear that" he said before giving me a smile "love is so unpredictable, sometimes it comes in a very unexpected way. And liking someone is just the same, the only difference is, you are still in the stage of denial" he straighten his posture and stared in my eyes for how many seconds "try doing the first step, know her more" and with that my father left me- dumbfounded

'Unexpected way' 

'Know her more'

Why would I waste my time knowing that clumsy, I know her already she's the definition of klutz

'Know her more'

I'm standing outside her classroom, waiting for her to come out. And some students eyed me suspiciously. What? Don't tell me they haven't seen a senior visiting the juniors department? I glares at them to shut them out. Nosy people is pain in the neck

The door finally opened and the girl that I was waiting finally came out "hey you" I called her but she didn't budge. How dare she ignore my presence

"I said you" I yelled even louder that made her stop. She turned her body around, and look at me with her pest expression

I smiled when she cursed me, I never thought that she know how to curse. 

And for some reason I find it y

Her cute expression makes me happy for some reason

"What's your name?" The old man said 'know her more' and I guess I'm doing the right thing, but this doesn't mean that I like her I just want to know her more asside for being a klutz

"None of your business" 

I was trying so hard to hide my surprise after hearing her answer, no one as in no one can talk to me like that, but for some reason there this part of me that is happy. 

Am I enjoying this? Pff I am enjoying this

So I keep my piece, and I continue but

her stubbornness is as high as mount Everest even I myself who has the biggest ego can't reach her - but at the same time I'm amused that she have the guts to treat me like this. 

Let me tell you a secret. I'm the type of person who doesn't care about anyone else, all I think about is myself...but when I met this girl everything change, all I think now is to protect her with all my might. When I accidentally hurt her, I panicked but still I manage to hide it from everyone. My image is important and I need to keep that identity from the people that surrounds me.

I don't know what got into me, I was blaming myself for something that I'm used of doing. Seeing her- a fragile girl getting hurt by a guy like me is like I have committed the most unbearable crime that ever existed. And since that every moment I have made up my mind and made a promise to myself not to hurt her and I will protect her with all my might. I will be her superhero, her savior and her shoulder. 

Since that day, I manage to be with her every single day, I even manage to came up with an stupid excuse just to be with her. But with all the lame excuses, everything is worth it- it's worth it being within her circle, standing beside her, seeing her smile and seeing her so at ease with me is the greatest thing that I've encounter.

And as for me I manage to show her the side of me that anyone had never witness, the side that I-myself only know. I want her to know me more- to know everything about me and I am willing to tell her that. I trust her so much- so much that I'm like an open book when I'm with her like she can see right through me, like a transparent person. 

I'm worried that she might fear me, so I did the unimaginable thing- I change, I change slowly just for her to like me

"You've been smiling quite a lot lately" 

I stop running as I trail our long stairs when I heard my old man's voice. Tilting my head to his direction and ask innocently "what?"

My brows form into crease when I witness his sly smile "son" he summoned me seriously "are you in love?"

I let out a long sigh and turn my heels and trail the long stairs again "what is love?" I ask as I walk my way towards my farther "tell me, how can you tell if you're in love"

My old man broke into his infamous sly smile "love is very complicated, there's no formula or equations how to understand it, it doesn't have an accurate meaning on describing that amazing feeling and if there is a meaning, the meaning itself didn't give justice on expressing the wonderful feeling that love could bring to a human like us. One word three letters yet it has a deep and very meaningful meaning. Everyone in this world had a different meaning about that word, they have their own understanding" 

I was looking at my old man in front of me, listening to every words that he says attentively, I've never seen this old hag getting serious over something and its very unusual "instead of asking me what is it, how about you ask that to yourself. Know it yourself and experience it yourself, asking me about it without experiencing the magnificent feeling it brought to us is pointless" 

The old man was wrong, I stare emotionless at the girl in front of me, we were at our favorite ice cream shop. Seohyun, who I believe the most absurd person before for being the first person who ever step out on me had put me into a world that is new to me, to a feeling that is unfamiliar to me. I did experienced the feeling of falling in love. The more I look and stare at her the deeper it gets, it was like she's pulling me- capturing with her spell and there's nothing I can do but to oblige and let myself get drowned by her. And that is when I'm with her

I subconsciously cut the happy story that she was telling me. I don't know what got into me but one thing was clear- I want to protect her and I want her to be with me, I don't want to lose her. 

When her curious eyes met my serious gaze, I know from that very moment that I should tell her about the unspoken word inside this beating heart of mine.

So I told her, but her answer was not than I have expected. 

For the first time in my entire life, I've experienced the feeling of being hurt and I did not expect that the person that would hurt me will be the person that I had protected, the person who I thought who understand me and the person who I trust and love the most. 

I feel betrayed by her but I feel more betrayed by myself, because no matter how much I tried to convince myself to hate Seohyun- I still can't bring myself to hate her and I hate myself for that and I hate myself for loving her this much 

I tried many ways just to forget about her, I went back to my old self whom I tried to forget but no avail- I still care and love her, I can't forget about her no matter what I try. The more I try on forgetting her the more I miss and love her. Every single day I hope that she would love me back like the way I love her 

Seo Joo Hyun what did you do to me

My parents went overseas for their anniversary and I took the opportunity to cut class, I stayed at my room the whole day- still thinking about her. I close my eyes and force myself to sleep but all I can see is her face- it's still her, still Seo Joo Hyun the first girl I fell in love and the first girl who broke my heart

"Luhan-ah" my heart skip a beat when I heard her voice, I didn't know that I miss her this much that even in my sleep I can still hear and feel her presence. I remove my hand from my eyes and was surprised when I saw the girl that I missed the most, from that very moment I want to corner her by my arms and never let her go- but I stop and control myself on doing so, I don't want to assume and hurt myself again. For the first time in my entire life, I feared of getting hurt

I force myself to ignore her, but I can't. Not when she's crying, the urge of hugging her grew bigger and bigger until I couldn't stop myself anymore. She told me that she love me and I feel like I'm the most happiest person in the whole world. 

Her- being in my arms is just too perfect, I don't want this moment to end and I don't want to let her go. From that very moment, I want to claim her lips and seal our relationship with a kiss but I controlled myself, I respect her and I am willing to wait for her to be ready. 

I seal my love and our relationship when I kiss her forehead, the most respectful kiss of all kisses because I respect and love her with all my life. I promise myself that I won't let her go, I will not hurt her and I will love her until my last breathe.

I want to tell my old man, that I had finally found the right girl for me to love and finally understand the real meaning of the word. Thanks to Seo Joo Hyun my first girlfriend and the first girl that I love

A/N: I'm not satisfied with this story, so I'm really sorry to disappoint you guys