The wind blow so hard, a girl with straight long hair keep walk in her way

‘I used to be here with him’

She keep walking and stick her earphone to her left ear

THEY SAY TO ME "WHY DON'T YOU KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT KIND OF LOVE IT IS,IT ALL CHANGE AFTER TIME PASSES”

THEY SAY THAT EVEN AFTER 1 YEAR, THINGS  CHANGE FROM NOW

AND THAT THERE WON'T BE ANY PAINFUL THINGS THEN

 

The lyrics follow the instrument, she rise the volume once in time  she fix her hair and tight her coat, she loves this song, every lyric just explain her feel now

BUT  I KNOW MY HEART VERY WELL

I KNOW SO WELL THAT IT WON'T CHANGE

BECAUSE EVERYONE HAS A SOUL MATE IN THIS WORLD

AND THAT KIND OF LOVE CANNOT BE FORGOTTEN

She can smell a thick vanilla fragrant from a small café at edge street from her path, she still remember when the first time meet him personally

He wore a chocolate backpack with bratson snapback, black jeans with black t-shirt, he wear a earphone, he look pissed  with his phone

“You look so cute that time” She mumble and make little smile on her lips

That time the first time they meet personally, the first time they talk each other,altought they know each other but just name not more,they meet almost everyday but just walk pass and stop in second  for say hi like everyone did

“Hi Junhwe” the girl greet first “Oh, nuna… Hi” the tall boys answer

“What happen?”

“Nothing just… other member didn’t answer my call” he said awkward

“Oh I see…”

The girl walk pass the boy but that time was different, the boy hold her wrist

“Umh… what happen Junhwe?” the girl look confused

“Nothing… I just get call from Hanbinnie hyung, he said that student got holiday for 2 days from today, I just want to tell you that stuff because I think you want to go Training center now” the boy said with his frown face

“Oh really? Thanks then” the girl give him big smile

“Nuna” he call again “Want to drink together at café?” he said with little smile

“Oh I… umhh okay”

 

They order hot vanilla late because the weather really cold these day, they chit chat for the first time, the boy named Goo Junhwe, the girl was named Jennie Kim, they were student at dance school

“I thought you like Hanbinnie hyung”

The girl choke, he like Hanbin? Her friend? That’s not make sense

“Hahah no, we’re friend like other” the girl said “Umh yeah”

“I see your video assessment couple days ago, your voice just great beside you was approve as little  Michael Jackson and hear your voice just great, that voice really rare in kpop you know”

The boy blushed, he can’t say anything, just smile and say thanks for the praises

“Your rap too, you’re great leader same like Hanbinnie hyung”

“Don’t pair me with him, he so great as a leader I still leak” the girl lower her head “It’s okay nuna, everyone just got jealous of Hanbin hyung” he joked

“So have you ever got jealous of Hanbin?”

“Yeah maybe” the boy said scanning outside “What that”

“He close with you maybe”

The girl frozen,her heart beat really fast now, the atmosphere getting awkward now

“Sorry nuna hahah I say such a thing now haha something wrong with me” he mumble

“No, no maybe you right I feel I just close with Hanbin beside our age was same, maybe I should getting close with other trainee” the girl smile

“Umh yeah that was what I mean”

The beginning from this all is that conversation, but don’t know how the girl believe her feel will grow bigger and bigger that before, the feel when she fall in love with that boy, from a little feel grow up bigger and bigger, a month, a year they know each other so well

Then that night when the boy feel the same, he grab her hand gentlely, their eyes meet and big smile from the boy just melted the girl with one word they frozen for a minute, try to understand what that mean

“I just one to say this once, to you, not anyone else, I love you” the boy say certainly

“I love you too Junhwe” the girl said with tears on her eyes “Hey why you cry?” The boy asked

“I’m happy”

The boy hug the girl

Warm, comfortable   The feel she never felt before

“Promise to me, you never leave me”

“I promise”  The girl said calm but still happy inside

 

 

YOU MAY THINK THAT I FORGOT ABOUT YOU

YOU MAY THINK THAT I AM HAPPY WITH SOMEONE ELSE

BUT I STILL CAN'T FORGET YOU LIKE THIS

LIKE A SCARECROW, WHO STANDS ALONE EVEN AFTER EVERYONE LEAVES

 

The girl enter the small café, order a hot vanilla late,

one cup…

 today just one cup can she see on the table, usually she see two cup and one phone on the table, usually they listen the song together, the boy give a spirit and inspiration for the girl, always like that, never change

But today really different, at the same time the girl think this all same, the order, the place, the music, the weather, just someone missing her love not there, he not there with his frown face, his big smile   

 

They chatting like usually, they laugh at a cute girl that always give them cute smile when meet them at Han river always like that, but that night the atmosphere were weird, his face just different when he smile, when he grab the girl hand, that touch so weak like not him

“Nuna”

“Hmm?”

“I Want to we broke up” the boy said

Like thunderstorm hit her chest, she frozen for the second time she frozen in front of Junhwe just the different is this is like end of her world , like a dream, nightmare

“You… want what?”

“Nuna sorry you not understand the situation now, I’ll get married with someone, my father colleague’s daughter” the boy keep hold Jennie’s hand

“But you promise”

“They’re my parents I can’t…”

“Okay it’s okay, we broke up now”

“And… I have to go to Germany for our company, now I’m work for my family’s group” he said

Again,

Jennie can’t even breath properly

“That’s enough Junhwe, thank you” The girl stand up and give her smile, she hug him and leave him

 

On the way, she hold her tears, just on a second she exploded, the tears just falling without control, the tears keep blurring her view, she cower down, sobbing at the darkness, for her it’s okay if he get married but not see him again is the biggest concern for her

AFTER THE SUN SETS AND EVERYONE GOES HOME

I AM STANDING ALONE IN A WIDE FIELD

LITTLE BY LITTLE I CAN'R SEE AHEAD OF ME BECAUSE OF THE DARKNESS

IT MAKES ME MORE AND MORE AFRAID OF BEING ALONE BUT WHEN I OPENED MY TIGHTLY SHUT EYES AT SOME POINT BEAUTIFUL STARS WERE SHINING

LIKE THE IMAGES OF YOU, WHO LEFT FAR AWAY

AS I LOOKED AT THEM, I PRAYED THAT YOU'LL COME BACK TO ME SOMEDAY

 

 

The music just end, she release her earphone and drink her vanilla late calm, this taste will never forget for her

the weather getting cold, after finish her vanilla late she leave the café, step by step she walk without path just walked like she usually did with her past

“Already 5 years…” she mumble “I can feel you here Junhwe” she said and keep walking

She stop her steps and realize someone was just pass her, this is the same feel when she look at the boy standing in front of café

She turn and see  someone back, with same chocolate backpack, same bratson snapback but the height so different, without see the face she know that boy is Junhwe, her past

“Junhwe” she try to call

One call and he turn around, they freeze for couple minute, and she tears can’t hold she happy or sad?

“Long time not see Jennie-ssi” the boy said cold with his frown face, the face that always the girl dreaming all night

“Jennie ssi?” she mumble

“Yeah”

“You little brat” Jennie go toward him “I Keep my promise”

“Promise?”

“Promis to not to leave you”

The boy sigh, h grab her hand and hug her tightly

“I leave you, you should hate me now” he said

“I can’t”

“Then try, we can’t be together anymore”

“Sorry”

The boy release the hug “I have to go,bye”

Without say goodbye or anything the boy just leave her, from the place her standing now she can see clearly his back, the back that can’t her reach anymore

The snow falling, today is the first snow falling and again Jennie cry alone at first snow