♥










Yifan grins coyly every time his eyes meet Junmyeon’s. Junmyeon will raise his head questioning and mouthing, “What?” every time he notices Yifan’s staring at him with a erted gleam on his face. Yifan just shrugs and mouths, “Nothing.”

You are beautiful. That’s all.


Yifan watches Junmyeon as Chanyeol comes up and whispers something that makes the beautiful male frowns and then he hits Chanyeol’s arm.

You are so beautiful when you are mad.


Yifan watches Junmyeon as the younger walks hand in hand with Luhan, singing Baby Don’t Cry in a faster tempo. They burst out laughing when the song goes wrong as they try to match the lyrics with the tempo that they just created.

You are so beautiful when you are happy.


Yifan watches Junmyeon’s darken expression when the director commented that Junmyeon’s pose and expression are not natural and lively enough. The younger mutters a few “sorry’s” and an “I’ll work harder” to the director.

You are still beautiful when you are sad.


Yifan watches as Junmyeon tries to hide his sadness by playfully punches Jongin as he says “I haven’t shown you my best yet.”

There are more moments of Junmyeon that Yifan has captured, too. If Yifan were a fangirl, his camera and phone’s memory space would definitely be filled with nothing but Junmyeon.

Yifan walks closer to Junmyeon, whose face is still gloomy since the incident with the director. When he is just a step away from the younger, he ruffles Junmyeon’s hair affectionately and it makes the latter turn around.

Junmyeon’s eyes sparkle when he sees Yifan, the light in his eyes only staying for a moment before Junmyeon starts to cry. His small hands tug at Yifan’s sleeve as if the action will give him strength and send away the bitterness he feels.

Yifan stops messing with his boyfriend’s hair and pulls him into a more secluded corner and whispers “Hey, want to go somewhere with me?”

Junmyeon is flustered. First, because the question is so sudden, and has nothing to do with the situation now, and second, because Yifan’ face is so close. All he can see is Yifan’s red lips and it flusters him. He gulps and takes a very deep breath, “Umm, w-where to?”

Without a word, Yifan draws his lips closer to Junmyeon’s own.

“Where we can be alone.” The air that comes from Yifan’s mouth is so warm, it makes Junmyeon’s insides flutter.

Here comes the butterflies.

It’s always like this. The butterflies are always following him everywhere he goes. 

Everytime Yifan is near, to be exact.

When Junmyeon thinks of Yifan, it’s like going on a roller coaster; he gets butterflies in his stomach from the highs and lows that Yifan takes him on. His head gets dizzy from the turns and jumbled questions.

Junmyeon swears his legs are made of jelly. He keeps his head down and shyly says “O-okay. Let me tell the others and the manager hyungs first”

He takes one step away before Yifan grabs his waist and pulls him closer. The butterflies in Junmyeon’s stomach are not flying in formation anymore. They are in a state of flux. 

“Let’s do this without telling anyone,” he whispers before he ducks to the shell of Junmyeon’s ear.

Junmyeon has a very hard time trying to calm himself down. 

This is bad for my heart. This is so bad for my health. 

With Yifan’ arms still wrapping around his slender body, he stabilizes his breath and finally mutters, “Is that okay?”

Yifan smiles. “As long as I’m with you, anything is okay, Kim Junmyeon.”





 

♥

Junmyeon waits for Yifan at the building entrance. He hides behind the signboard placed in the small alley next to the building, afraid that people will recognize him. Thankful for his tiny body, and Jongin’s big jacket that he managed to borrow before he came out, it seems like no one notices him. Yifan said that he would be leaving out the back door and will have to pass this alley, therefore Junmyeon won’t have to worry about Yifan searching for him.

Junmyeon watches a small child, who keeps whining about wanting to eat an ice cream to his mom, while he waits. The boy cries when his mom says no because it’s winter and, apparently - for the mom, it’s a crazy idea for a small boy to eat ice cream in winter.

He smiles as he watches the boy trying to do some aegyo to his mom and laughs when it doesn’t work.

“What are you looking at?”

Junmyeon jumps in shock when he feels a pair of long arms grabbing his waist. “Wu Yifan, stop startling me! I’m going to have a heart atta—”

Junmyeon stops halfway when Yifan pulls him even closer.

“I’m sorry. I thought you already had a heart attack when I said ‘I love you’ four years ago.”

“That is the cheesiest and most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard, Wu Yifan.”

Yifan pouts in protest.

“Ridiculous because I still get heart attacks every. single. time, you say ‘I love you.’ Cheesy, but, you know me, I like cheesy things. Especially when it comes to you.”

Junmyeon grins in the most erted way he can. He turns his face to the left and pecks Yifan’s cheek.

Yifan smiles at first, but a few seconds later, he looks at Junmyeon as if Junmyeon is the weirdest person on Earth.

“What?” Junmyeon raises his eyebrows.

Yifan answers his boyfriend’s question by placing a quick kiss on the beautiful man’s pair of lips. 

“Nothing. So, first, what do you want to do?”

Junmyeon pretends as if he is thinking deeply for the answer. He rubs his chin and hits his forehead with his index finger for a few times.

His so-called acting is disturbed by countless, non-stop kisses from Yifan.

“Wu Yifan.”

“Okay, okay, sorry, wifey. Have you decided?”

Junmyeon cancels his plan to sulk when Yifan called him wifey.

“First, I want to…”

Yifan doesn’t hear the rest of Junmyeon’s words. His eyes are directed to Junmyeon’s face and it moves to every inch of it. His tiny eyes that transform into crescent moons every time he smiles, his brown eyebrows, his short, but beautiful, eyelashes, his pink puffy cheeks, his small, red, kissable lips, Yifan just loves everything.


Your wink, a thousand flutters.

Your smile, a mile wide.

A heart rocked & torn.


They have been dating for four years, now, but their feelings haven’t changed. Throughout the four years they have fought, they have cried, they gotten mad at each other, they even stopped talking to each other for a brief period of time but never once have they broken up. Never once has his heart swayed from this love. From Junmyeon’s love. It’s like he’s being hypnotized. 

“Let’s go!” Junmyeon throws his arms in the air in excitement. 

Yifan scratches his head, “Where to, baby?”

Junmyeon breaks the hug and immediately puts his hands on hips, legs astride. “You didn’t listen to me, did you?”

Yifan moves to rub his neck and shrug before trying to pull Junmyeon into his arms again, but the latter refuses to cooperate by stepping away from Yifan.

“Baby.”

Silence.

“Baby?”

Still silence. 

“Baby!”

“Ugh, wha—”

Junmyeon can’t finish his sentence. Yifan pulls his arms and cups his face and locks his lips in a deep, loving kiss.

“You better answer me whenever I call you or I’ll punish you with this kind of punishment.” Yifan pauses to catch his unstable breath, “Or maybe even more than this.”

“O-okay, husband,” Junmyeon stutters.

Their lips are just a hair strand away from each other.

“Promise me, wife?”

Junmyeon answers it with a passionate kiss. 







♥






Like the child from earlier, the first thing Junmyeon wants to do is to eat ice cream. Though at first, Yifan’s response was the same as the boy’s mom, but, apparently, with just a few pecks at his lips, cheeks, nose, and ears, Junmyeon manages to change his mind. They walk hand in hand a few blocks away from the studio building and stop at a small, green ice cream shop. Junmyeon can’t hide his excitement when he sees all the different ice cream flavors the shop has to offer.

Yifan shakes his head and smiles. He looks around to make sure no one is looking at them before relaxing. The shop is almost empty with only two people working and an old man, who is sitting in a corner reading a sports magazine.

“Yifan,” Junmyeon whispers softly, trying to make sure no one else can hear him.

“I can’t decide what flavor to choose. Help me,” Junmyeon pouts. He links his pinky finger with Yifan and snuggles up close.

“Well, okay, you’re wearing a purple shirt with white stripes today so why don’t you choose that yam and vanilla gelato?”

Junmyeon frowns with concentration and he turns his face in a sudden motion that his lips almost bump with Yifan’s cheeks. He blushes and Yifan thinks even the pink of the strawberry gelato can’t beat Junmyeon’s flushed cheeks.

“But I want to have chocolate gelato, too,” he whines.

“Chocolate, vanilla, and yam, then, okay?”

“Really, we can do that?” Junmyeon’s eyes sparkle in happiness.

“Of course, sweetheart, anything for you,” Yifan pinches his boyfriend’s cheeks.

Junmyeon draws his face closer, completely ignoring the staff starring at them. “I love you!”

Yifan smiles happily.











♥









They wander aimlessly around the streets for almost an hour since Junmyeon can’t decide where they should go next. Yifan follows diligently behind Junmyeon every step of the way. His hands are in Junmyeon’s control so he really can’t do anything much else.

Yifan starts to notice people staring and begins to feel a bit worried. If they are staring because they think it’s weird for two guys to walk together with holding hands, that’s okay.

It’s more than okay, actually.

Yifan doesn’t mind, besides, they can only see Junmyeon’s face since Yifan made sure to zip the younger’s jacket all the way up. But, what if the stares are because they know who they are? Could they know that those two guys behind the jackets are EXO’s leaders? Yifan can’t imagine the hell that they would have to go through if they were exposed. Yifan glances at his watch. It’s almost 7p.m.

He stops Junmyeon, who still can’t decide the next destination of their suddenly secret-and-highly-dangerous date.

“Baby, it’s getting dark. Let’s go somewhere else, okay? This time you follow me.” Yifan says those words carefully, eyes busy scanning people around them.

“Okay.” Yifan stops scanning people and his eyes shifts to the man next to him.

“You tired?”

Junmyeon nods twice and closes his eyes wearily.

Yifan smooths away a wisp of hair from the younger’s eyes and slowly whispers, “We’ll head home after we go to this place, okay?”

Junmyeon nods again.

Yifan looks around him and after he’s sure that no one is looking at them, he pecks Junmyeon’s lips.

The kiss sends sparks rushing through Junmyeon’s body, then he immediately links his arm with Yifan’s. 








♥









Yifan brings Junmyeon to the park nearby the EXO dorm’s building. They rarely go to this park because fans are always in front of the building, waiting for them, but tonight, Yifan can’t go to the Han River as they always to because it’s so far, it’s already dark, and Junmyeon is tired.

Yifan intertwines his long fingers with Junmyeon’s tiny ones and halfway through the park, Yifan greets a man. Junmyeon blinks his eyes twice in an attempt to identify the man that his boyfriend is talking to. Junmyeon knows that man; he’s seen him before, he’s sure. That man is in his mid-thirties and is the one who sings in the park every evening.

“Yifan?”

“Yes, baby?”

“I’m sleepy.”

“Okay, let’s go home.”

Junmyeon didn’t see the secret winks between Yifan and the man. 

“Baby, can you sit here for a while?” Yifan stops when they reach a bench under a dongbaek tree, which has bloomed throughout the winter and produced bright red blossoms.

Junmyeon gives Yifan a questioning look but still complies and sits promptly on the bench. He crosses his legs while waiting for Yifan, who said that he would be right back with coffee. He counts the fallen dongbaek blossoms on the ground out of boredom.

Junmyeon remembers that he once read a book that tells about how observers have long compared the wistful beauty of this sight to a woman’s tears because the petals falls softly and gently and stop all travelers in their tracks.


He took my heart when I was 20
I love everything about you
And now I honestly can't see
Going a single day without you


Junmyeon turns everywhere to find the source of the singing sound. He stands on the bench; his eyes get smaller as he tries to find the singer.



You are the air I breathe
You are my everything
Baby come and follow me
Till the end of the world
I won't live a day without your love
I won't live a day without your love

It’s very dark in the area that he is standing now because of the shadow casted by the big blossoms of the dongbaek tree and Junmyeon has difficulty seeing in the dark but he still continues his search because he knows that voice. That’s the voice of—

Yifan.

His Yifan.

Now I’ve been flippin' through the dictionary tryin' to find
The proper words that I could use to tell you whats on my mind
But baby this time it’s different and for me it’s a first
Cause now I'm sittin' here with nothin' but a loss for words
It's like you reset my heart and then erased my brain
The only thing that’s not deleted in my head is ya name
So doctor please gimme some Aderal I'm havin' trouble concenratin'
He hypnotized me, mastered the art of captivatin'
So there ya go, bravo, congratulations
A massive understatement if I said my heart was taken
Cause now I'm hooked I’ll admit my heart is your puppet
I don't know how you did it but I love it cause you are the...


There, across the bench, Yifan is standing under the moonlight with the man that he talked to earlier.

Junmyeon closes his eyes as he tries to remember the song.

They are filled with tears once Junmyeon opens his eyes.

It’s their song.

Day Without Your Love – Jake Miller

It’s the song that Yifan always used to practice his rapping back in their trainee days. Junmyeon really likes that song so, one day, he asked Yifan what the lyrics meant.

How can he forget that day? He could never forget it.

The day he asked for the meaning behind the song was the day they both confessed their love to each other.

The day when Junmyeon became Yifan’s and Yifan became Junmyeon’s.



I told myself a while ago I'd never let this happen
You're way too young to fall in love, just concentrate on rappin'
But then you came along, and all my plans rearranged
And then suddenly, everything changed
Now you're my world my sun my moon and everythin' between em
Some people kinda skeptical but baby we don't need em
We could run away, and never come back
Yeah we could leave today, pick anywhere on the map
As long as you are by my side I gotta smile on my face
But when you gone boy I swear that I feel so outta place
I've know you've heard it before I can't say it enough
I couldn't live a single day without your love, because you are the...


Junmyeon falls on his knees. He may not understand English that well but he will never forget the meaning behind the beautiful lyrics. He wipes the tears running down his cheeks.

He crouches on the bench and hugs his knees as he watches Yifan walk closer to him. 

Air I breathe
You are my everything
Baby come and follow me
Till the end of the world
I won't live a day without your love
I won't live a day without your love

He took my heart when I was 20
I love everything about you
And now I honestly can't see
Going a single day without you


That’s when Junmyeon notices one thing.

He changed the lyrics. For me.

He hides his face between his knees and looks up only when he feels that Yifan is right in front of him, “Hello, beautiful,” Yifan smiles.

“I-I hate y-you, W-wu Yifan”

“You know you didn’t mean that.”

“Of course I don’t, you fool! How c-can I h-hate my b-boyfriend and my future h-husband?!”
His sobs soon turn into sniffs.

Yifan helps Junmyeon get off of the bench, “Get up.” Junmyeon obeys. “Stand proud. Why are you crying? You have nothing to cry about, sweetheart.” He cups the beautiful males’ cheeks and wipes the tear stains with his thumbs. He looks straight into Junmyeon’s eyes.

Such pretty eyes, I think they match my heart.

“I love you, Kim Junmyeon.”

And I will say this forever.

The confession is tied with a warm, loving kiss.

Kim Junmyeon cries tears of joy. 










♥








Kyungsoo and Sehun’s jaws drop when they open the door and see their two leaders coming home with one carrying the other one bridal style.

“Quiet, he’s sleeping.” Yifan whispers softly.

Both of them nod in confusion.

Yifan walks slowly to Junmyeon’s shared bedroom with Baekhyun and Sehun.

He places Junmyeon’s slender body slowly on the bed and, five minutes later, has him changed into his favorite purple pajamas.

Yifan watches Junmyeon’s sleeping face carefully. He brushes some strands of his hair away from his eyes and gently tucks it behind his ear.

After making sure that Junmyeon is already deeply asleep, he slowly gets up from the edge of Junmyeon’s bed, only to be stopped abruptly when he feels his right hand being pulled.

Junmyeon is still fast asleep but his hand is holding onto Yifan.

Yifan can’t help but smiles as he lies down beside Junmyeon.

Good night, baby, I love you.

With a kiss on Junmyeon’s forehead, Yifan, hopes to meet his boyfriend in his dreams. 


I love you, wife. 




I love you, husband. 











END



 

a/n one : let’s just say that this is just another junk from me. 
a/n two : I’m sorry. Really, really, really sorry *90 degrees bow* Bye.

a/n special: this song fits perfectly with Kris.