Seohyun POV

I'm sick of this…

What did I see, I hear and I feel…

Why did all of those just make me feel more pain...

Is this life that I expect?

No, it's not.

When I want to laugh in the middle of people outside

I just trapped by loneliness...

When I want to feel love from people who're surrounding me

I just can cry in loneliness...

There aren't places to complain, place to lean or even to entertain myself

Where are the people actually?

 I write poem that has been several times in my diary.

I could say that I just like a bird that live in golden cage.

I have everything that I need , I live in luxury house , I could

buy everything I want , but I can't feel love, I don't have anyone

in my side. I’m envy to other people , even though they live simply

but they always together in warmth, loveliness,

they love and keep each other.

What about me? My parents stay in abroad for a long time,

I'm the only child so I just live with some maids.

I don't need maids, I just need someone who always there for me,

I need mom and dad who’ll be there for me, protect me, but in reality

I never feel it yet.

“Agassi, where are you going? It's going to be dawn”

One of my maid asked

"I want to see sunset, don't wait for me,

I'll be home soon if I feel like to go home"

I replied

“Ah, ne agassi, be careful”.

I went to the beach by car, it was about 1km next to my house.

Pretty nice beach, place that I always visit everytime I feel bored and stressed

I sat on the edge of beach near to the sea, waiting for sun that shutting down.

While bringing a bottle, I keep waiting till the sun surely down. Yeppeuta…

Everytime I see the sunset, I could feel I sink into my lonely world somehow.

When will God send out someone who'll fullfil my life?

I want to scream, I want to escape from all of this. 

looked at my watch, it was already 7 p.m. , finally I decided to back home.

I put my bottle at the edge of beach, I just wanted to leaved it there.

If there'll someone who read it, I hope he/she doesn't has a fate like me.

"Agassi are you already home?" My maid asked.

"Yes, please prepare my dinner and deliver it to my room later." I replied

“Ne agassi”

I took a bath then I opened my laptop and checked my e-mail

but there weren't email from mom and dad.

They usually send e-mail in the middle of their business

but they haven't sent any email in several weeks and they never call me.

Huh whatever. Do they still admit me as their child?

It had been a week I went to the beach, enjoyed beautifully of sunset

and put my bottle that contained message about my laments.

I ever thought "Oh god, if there'll be someone who find this message,

if it's boy let him be my mate, if it's girl let her be my close friend.

To be continue…