I went to the kitchen and checked the windows;closed. I checked my bag for energy bars and drinks;it's there. Umbrella? Checked. Cap? Checked. I smiled satisfyingly to myself before I opened the door and left my apartment;finally. I was in a happy mood,because of Nam Woohyun. He always makes me happy. Seeing him on stage makes me happy. In fact,his very existence is my happiness. I placed my headphones on and blasted some music. Infinite's music,to be exact.

"Baby my love,beautiful."

I always liked that song. Reason being,because Woohyun's the first one to sing it and the lyrics are just so...sweet. I mentally squealed as I imagined him singing it to me. Oh how sweet would it be. I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned around to see Jisung. The Infinite traitor. "What do you want?" I rolled my eyes at her. Even if she was an Infinite traitor,she was still my best friend. "Where are you going in the middle of the night?" she asked. I pointed at my bag. "What do you think?"

"Hye Kyung,stop being so infatuated!" she exclaimed. "Oh yeah? What about you and your SHINee?" I challenged. "Well at least I don't go 'camping' at their dorm!" Jisung pointed out. I put my headphones back on and ignored her as I walked away. I'm going to see them,no matter what. I took one of the energy drinks from my bag and drank abit of it. I have to stay awake to see them,I can't risk a chance of missing them if I fall asleep,i'll practically kill myself.

I hailed for a taxi and boarded it quickly. I passed him a piece of paper that had the address. He raised an eyebrow and looked at me from the front mirror. "Is there something wrong ahjussi?" I asked. He turned back and scanned me from head to toe. I was wearing a padded jacket with a cap. "Infinite sasaeng fan?" he asked. I really didn't like myself called by the term of 'Sasaeng fan',but I couldn't deny that I was one.

"Yes." I nodded. He scoffed and turned back to his steering wheel before he shook his head. If he knows that i'm a sasaeng fan,and that address is Infinite's dorm address,then many fans must've camped there and got to see them before. I'm jealous. I snuggled back into the seat,trying to relax. Don't worry,Jung Hye Kyung,you're going to see them.

 

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After the long drive,I have finally arrived. I couldn't help but feel excited. "Gomawoyo ahjussi!" I stuffed the cash in his hands before I got off the taxi,not bothering to get my change back. I looked at the brick wall and sighed. "Of course they would have brick walls." I mumbled. I threw my bag over and jumped,clinging on the edge with my fingers. Well,I learned rock climbing for a reason. I mentally smirked before I pulled myself up and went over with ease.

I put the bag on my back again as I walked around their garden. "I didn't know they had a garden..." I muttered. I looked at the windows,only to find them blocked with cardboards,probably wanting to hide whats inside from their sasaeng fans. I pressed my ear against the window,wanting to hear if there was anyone still awake. Not hearing anything,I sat by the brick wall,patiently waiting for them to come out.

After 30 minutes,I felt my eyelids getting heavier and eventually drooping down,but I slapped myself to regain my senses. I shuddered more,I guess the temperature's dropping lower,aish I should've brought more jackets. A growl was then heard from my stomach. Sighing,I reached out for the packet of chocolate bar from my bag,ripping the plastic open and then chewing the caramel chocolate.

I should've ate more just now,I remembered patting my stomach after the last meal at home,I should've ate till I was so full I couldn't eat anymore. After finishing the chocolate bar,I resisted myself from having one more,because who knows,I might need it more later. To keep myself from staying awake,I took out my phone and started playing some mind strategy game with Infinite's music blasting into my ears.

Just then,I heard a loud thud and I snapped my gaze towards the front. Is there perhaps a member going out at this point of time? I waited in anticipation,hoping to see anyone of the members. But then,a cat happened to walk right out of the bush in front of their door. "Stupid cat." I mumbled,glaring at the cat at the same time.

Time passed really really slowly,I had to continue to play the game even though I was so sick of it,I had to continue blasting the music in my ears even though they hurt from the placement of my head phones,I had to pry my eyes open even though I was so tired that I could probably sleep once I fall on that soft and bouncy mattress. I warded the thoughts away and became angry at myself. "Determination Jung Hye Kyung! You must see them today! Do not give up!" I exclaimed to myself.

Yes,time still passed really slowly,but it was soon 5 am. Just as I was already giving up,falling asleep,a louder thud came from the front before the clinging sounds of keys were heard. My eyes immediately went wide. He put on a coat before he walked through the garden,not seeing me because it was too dark. Even though it was still really dark in the morning,I could perfectly recognize who that member was.

Nam Woohyun.

He walked out of the gates and I found myself still stuck on the ground. What the hell am I doing?! Chase after him Jung Hye Kyung! I got up and stumbled abit due to the numbness of my legs. I quickly regained my posture and grabbed my bag before running after him. "Oppa!" I exclaimed,making him turn around. I finally got to see him in real,Nam Woohyun. "Oppa!" I squealed again as I got closer.

He looked at me and then suddenly,his expression changed. He looked...worried. "Isn't it cold?" he asked. Oh my god,Nam Woohyun just talked to me. "It's okay! It's okay!" I shook my head but right at that moment,the wind blew into my direction,making me automatically shiver. Dang. He heaved a sigh before opening the car's door. He got inside and came out again,now with a blanket on his hands. He wrapped it around me and took out his wallet,pulling 10,000 won out. 

He grabbed my hand and placed the money in it. "Because it's cold,please hurry back home. There are alot of bad people around,so be careful." he said. He ruffled my hair for a moment before he went in the car and closed the door. I don't know anymore. I was...shocked,dumbfounded. Instead of yelling at me like how other idols yell at their sasaeng fans,he actually gave me a blanket and...money?

I felt my heart beat differently. It was way different. I placed my hand at my chest,not knowing what was the reason it was beating so differently,but I can assure one thing...it's definitely not a fangirl love. I looked at the black car as it drove away further and further. I should probably stop this sasaeng nonsense right? It's childish,and it invades the idol's privacy. I sighed. I guess Nam Woohyun wouldn't like it if I were to continue doing this right?

At the thought of his name,my heart started beating weirdly again. I looked around,it was still very dark and quiet,I should really get home now. I huffed one more time before I turned my heels,walking to the cross junction.

 

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I unlocked the door to my apartment and smiled. I had to admit,even though I was happy seeing Woohyun,I still missed my home and that comfy bed of mine. I placed the blanket gently on the bed before I picked up an empty photo frame. I tilted my head and took out the money Woohyun gave me. I measured it and it fitted perfectly onto the frame. I opened it and slid the money inside before I closed it again. Perfect. I placed it on the desk beside my bed before I slumped onto the bed,totally exhausted.

And as expected,I fell asleep right away.

 

"Ya...Jung Hye Kyung." I heard someone say as she slightly tap on my cheeks. "Jung Hye Kyung,wake up!" she yelled. I wanted to ignore her,but when I saw her attempting to slap me,I immediately jolted up. "Yoo Jisung,what do you want?" I mumbled. "How come you're back so early? I thought you were camping at Infinite's dorm?" she raised an eyebrow. "I got to see Woohyun,so I came back." I said before I fell back in bed.

"And why do you have a 10,000 won note,framed? And this blanket..i've never seen it before." Jisung said as she examined the blanket carefully. "Woohyun was worried about me,so he gave me a blanket and gave me 10,000 won to go back home." I said,eyes still closed. I could hear her gasp. "WHAT?! OH MY GODDD." she yelled. "Shut up will you? I'm trying to sleep!" I hissed.

"Okay okay,fine." she said,getting off my bed. "But are you going back there tomorrow?" she asked. "Of course not. Which fan in the right mind would go back there after they received a blanket and money from their loving idol? Besides,i'm going to stop this sasaeng thingy. It's stupid." I said. I could feel Jisung raise an eyebrow. "Okay. Bye i'll come back for dinner." she said before she left the apartment.

I was trying to go back to sleep,but I couldn't. The events from last night...well this morning,was still flashing in my mind. Just then,I jolted up from my position. "That's it!" I yelled as I finally got inspiration popping in my mind. Besides fangirling about Infinite almost 24/7,I had another hobby. Writing. I pulled out a piece of foolscap paper and began jotting down my ideas. I'm going to start another story.

Beside my Infinite posters was a bookshelve,and it was mostly filled with stacks of paper which was of course,my stories,ideas and writings. I began writing the story,word after word,the idea just continued non stop in my head. In the middle of all those writing,I could feel my heart beat again. Love,I love him. I glanced at the blanket and smiled. "I love Nam Woohyun." I said.

 

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5 years later

I held it in front of my face proudly,studying each and every word that was on the cover. My eyes trailed down to the names and I couldn't help but smile excitedly when I saw a particular name. 'Written by Jung Hye Kyung'. I was so proud of myself and I guess my parents up there would be proud of me too. After fangirling about Infinite for about 3 years,I finally found an ambition.

I put the book down and looked at the whole stack of them. I can't believe it,my first published novel was so famous in South Korea,that it got promoted in the newspapers. I reluctantly turned away as my cheekbones started to hurt from all that smiling. "Aren't you Jung Hye Kyung?" one lady probably in her mid 40s' said. I nodded happily. "I am your biggest fan,will you please sign my book?" she asked as she passed me the book and a marker.

Nothing can express how happy I was. I immediately signed it and returned it to the kind lady. "Thank you so much." she smiled before she walked away. I've always thought that my life was about Infinite,now I guess not. My heart started beating again. Now I was familiar with it,because I already know why was it beating like this. It was because I love him,and surprisingly,my love for him never faded.

I went to every Infinite fan meet and concert,just to see him. I don't know why,but ever since that day,i've been so star strucked that I was probably born to love him. "Excuse me." I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned to the other side and saw a guy wearing a coat and sunglasses. If it weren't for the white shirt inside I would've thought he was a trenchcoat ert. He looked familiar though.

"Can you please sign this for me." he said,passing me the book and a marker. I paused. "Please." he smiled. I froze. "Nam Woohyun?" I asked. He put a finger to his lips. "Shh." If I were my old naive self,I would've screamed like a crazy person,but now,all I could ever hear was my heartbeat. He waved a hand in front of me,snapping me out of my trance. "Oh right..." I mumbled,signing my autograph onto the book.

"You look prettier,since your hair is longer." he remarked. I froze again. "You remember me?" I asked. "Of course. I gave you a blanket and 10,000 won,right? And then you came to each and everyone of our fan meets and concerts,how can I not remember you?" he gave me that killer smile again. Even though he was wearing sunglasses,he still looked really handsome.

Just when my day couldn't get any happier,it did. I passed the book and marker back to him. "You'll still come to our fanmeets right? You didn't come to the previous one though,I was expecting you." he pouted. Oh my god,that pout. "Y-yeah." I stuttered. "Hmm,this can't do. Let's meet up for coffee one day,shall we?" he smiled as he took out a piece of paper. He wrote something on it before he passed it to me. My jaw dropped when I saw what he wrote. His number.

"Congratulations on your first novel,Hye Kyung. I finally get to know your real name since you've been always telling me your alias name. Jung Hye Kyung,a pretty name. Don't camp at our dorm again alrights?" he winked playfully and I thought I could faint. "Anyways,I'm not allowed to tell anyone this but..." he said and leaned in to my ear. "Infinite is having a surprise comeback,so please anticipate." he whispered.

He pulled away and looked at his watch. "Dang i'm gonna be late for schedules." he mumbled. "Bye Hye Kyung! Hope to see you soon!" he waved at me before he left the bookstore in a hurry.

Oh my–

Did the Nam Woohyun just...talked to me? I felt the familiar heart beat coming again. I looked at the piece of paper he gave me and a smile automatically crept onto my face.

"I guess it's okay,starting with a cup of coffee." I smiled to myself before I gently put the piece of paper in my pocket.