Onew was looking for something in his room when he found Jessica's diary.

Tears start to drop his cheeks as he opened the book.

"For the time you'll see this, I'm just here watching you"

Onew seems emotionless, still.

He continued reading Jessica's diary with his eyes fixed onto the paper and his trembling heart beating hard.

January 17, 2011

Today, I wrote in my new diary, as my old one is already full.

Not only full of letters, but emotions, pains and also love.

Yes, love.

I love him so much that I dont wanna ever leave him.

Yet he know about my condition, I never ask him to stay with me since I am going to die.

But he is really stubborn, and that's the reason why I love him, so much.

I dont know if he'll be able to overcome it if I will die really soon.

And yet, my only regret if I leave this place is I will made Onew a broken hearted guy.

And today, one of my attacks came again.

It really hurts as it someone eats my brains.

My brain tumor is really getting worse.

I hate to accept the fact that Onew shed his tears for me.

I knew it, whenever I sleep, he's always crying for me.

I want to cry with him but I think I just need to ignore him because it is the best thing.

January 23, 2011

This is the first time I skip writing to my diary for days.

The past hours for me are so hard that I cant even write.

My hands are shaking, my sight is blurring and my head is in serious pain.

Everytime I'm in this kind of pain, only Onew was there in my mind."

Onew was still reading until he turned it to another page, and he saw a CD. He grabbed his laptop and played it.

He was shocked to hear their conversations there.

Where Jessica kept on reminding him not to cry.

"Jinki-ah you told me you are strong, arent you?"

"Sica hun, ofcourse I am strong"

"Then you will not cry right?"

"Why will I cry?"

"I'll be gone soon"

"No Sica, no one knows when will someone die"

"No I knew it"

"No, you dont know it"

"I love you so much, will you kiss me?"

"I love you too, Sica"

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"Sica-ah, dont you really want to go to States? You know I can pay every cent of your medication, no need to be worry for it"

"No Jinki-yah, I will just waste my time in States for curing myself, there is only 50% for me to survive, and besides, it is too late to go. Let's just enjoy this moments we had together"

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March 16, 2011

I am thanking God since forever.

I am still alive but still, I am feeling weak.

But my Onew is always there for me.

To comfort me.

To say it'll be okay.

To hug me.

To tell me that he does love me.

April 18, 2011

Today is my birthday.

I bet God is giving me this day, and tomorrow will be gone.

Onew was there, he bring so many American foods like pizza, spaghetti and everything.

We chat, we ate, we cuddled and everything.

I felt that Onew is feeling what I am feeling now.

I will die sooner.

I told Onew how much I love him.

And also, incase I die, the last page is already done.

Weird right?

Well, it's just I had the feeling of it.

April 19 20 

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Onew felt a stabbed in his heart.

He never knew Jessica will die writng her bad experiences as the doctor told so.

Well, he said it to Jessica to record it for everyday.

The Last Page

I write this earlier as expected.

So Onew hun, just remember.

Look at everwhere, if you feel like there was stalking you,dont be afraid, it's just me.

Go everwhere and I'll look for you, just like what I did in our higjschool and college days...

If you feel no one is loving you, you're totally wrong boy, cause forever I say, I love you ........

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The last page.

The last page.

The last page.

"Jessica, i love you too"

Onew's soul brightened up.

As he know that Jessica is still there.

Though she was invisible, in his heart, she's till visible. ALIVE.

He throwed himself in his bed.

There he smelled Jessica's scent as if they were sleeping together

Jessica, wait for me.......

Onew was running his life, chasing her beloved Jessica.

After moments, there she saw her Sleeping Princess,

eyes closed and leaning his head in a big rock.

Onew caressed her pretty face.

Brushing off the hair and fringe that the wind blew up onto.

He touched Jessica face softly ans slowly leaningdown to kiss her beloved lady, for the last time.

Everything went dark.

It was all in his room.

Onew pretended to sleep.

"Onew! Honey!Wake up dubu!"

Jessica was calling his name

He closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep.

Jessica was there in his bed jumping like a kid.

She was budging him. But as he was a sleepy prince too, he didnt budge a little.

Jessica touched his nose, he traced his thick eyebrows and his lips, was connected with her.

Onew pulled her down.

Again eveything was black.

It was the two of them on a dead place.

The buildings are damaged, cars were all crashed and people are nowhere to be found.

Jessica and Onew stood up and stared at each other.

Jessica lifted her hand and so Onew was.

Their palms almost touched but a hard wind blew.

And in the blink of an eye, Jessica is gone.

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"Jessica!!!"

Onew woke up. 

Well it was his dreams everynight.

Yes, everynight.

He looked up to the calendar.

Well, today is April 20, 2012.

One year and a day that Jessica left him.

He opened Jessica's diary and runned it through the last page.

"Honey, when you woke up, when you sleep and whatever you do, JUST IMAGINE YOU ARE WITH ME"

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