I'm Smiling Again

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He has zero confident in his self. Its all because of the bully incident when he just entered the school in his 1st  year. This has made Murasaki Jun closed his heart from all the people.  The appearance of Aoi Satoshi change everything in his life. His hard-working in designing all the clothes without any complaint make him want to know this guy more.

Foreword

The bell rings and the school is end. All the student in Yamakaze Gakuen pack their things and ready to go home. As for Murasaki Jun, his day is not going to complete without being surrounded by a group of bullies in his school. There’s no excuse even today.

 

“ Gotcha .. “

“ Hey, wanna get along with us? “

No thanks.

“ Aww..that’s awful to decline our invitation. “

“ Yeah, come on. Just this day. “

Sorry, but I’ve a lot of work to do.

“ How dare you speak like that to Kawashima..”

“ Maa..maa.. Its okay. Ne Murasaki Jun, are you sure you don’t want to hang out with us.? “

H..ha..hait.

“ Hmm, since I don’t have any choices now. Guys, finish him and take whatever he got in his wallet. “

 

And so the fight begin. Jun can’t do anything because they were so many of them. Yup, and he used to be like this since his 1st year. He has less friend and his parent always fight when they see each other. So, he always alone wherever he went and whatever he do. Although he always got high mark in the school  exam but its all meaningless if he can’t share with the people he love. Now, he can only wish that there’s someone who might help him right now. And luckily, there’s one.

 

Ano..what’s going on here..?

“ You !? Who are you and what brings you here. “

I’m just a passerby and what are you doing here..?

“ It’s none of your business. Get away from here or my people will finish you off. “

That’s sound interesting. How ….

 

Truttt..truutt…

 

Ah, sumimasen. Hait, aa..Inspector Sou, its been a while ne. So, why do you call me? What ! A group of bullies? There’s  one..two..three..four..five..six..seven..here.”

“ Let’s go guys. “

“ Get ready tomorrow..! “

 

Kawashima and the rest  get out from there as soon as possible.  The fine guy is now standing in front of Murasaki Jun.

 

Daijoubu?

D..dai…joubu..

Can you stand?

 

Jun try to stand up but he fall. His left leg injured. The guy then help him to stand up.

 

Seems like your left leg is injured. Let’s go to the hospital.

Its okay. Thank you for helping me.

 

Then, he quickly walk away from there.

20 minutes later, he arrived at his home.
Suddenly there’s a crash sound from inside. He quickly enter his house and saw his parents quarrel, and this time is the 38th  time for this year. Once he enter the house, he quickly go upstairs and locked himself in his room. He take out his homework and start doing it, but the noise of his parents distract his focus. He can’t bear with it. He close his book and go for a bath. After take his bath, he take his shirt and start packing his thing. Then he walked downstairs and put his shoes on.

 

“ Where do you want to go Jun ?! “

None of your business..

“ How dare you talk to me like that. I’m your father. !”

Father? I don’t have a father or a mother that doesn’t care anything about me..!

“ Jun..where are you going. Please don’t go. You’re the only son that I have. “

I’m stay with my friend for a while. Don’t ever search for me.

 

Then he left. His heart  hurt but he have to do this. Yup, its definitely a lie about staying with his friends, because he doesn’t have even a single person as a friend. He just wandering around to calm his heart. Suddenly he saw a group of young girls scream happily at some corner of the park. He take a look and saw a cameraman and other crew.  He also saw Ninomiya Kazunari, the famous actor, model and fashion designer.  I wonder if I am one of them, I must have a lot of friends. Then, he walked away from there. He search a place where he can study and do his homework.

 

* * * * * *

The sun is ready to say goodbye and in a meantime the moon is going to say hello. Jun quickly finish his homework and ready to take a step to nowhere. He check for his balance and it seems like the money is  not enough even for a one night at motel. He wandering around like a lost child.  Along his way, he bump with Kawashima and his gang. They saw him and chase him. Jun then run away as fast as he could.

 

“ Murasaki Jun..!! Where do you want to go..!! “

He hide behind the wall. His heart throb rapidly. He’s been chase like he is one of the criminal.

 

“ Where is he.? Search for him. Don’t you ever let him go. ! “

“ Hait.. “

 

Jun try his best to hold his breath. Luckily Kawashima and his gang not realize him. After he confirm that Kawashima and his gang is not there anymore, he quickly out from his hide and walk away from there.  He wandering around the quiet park. His stomach start to make some noise, but he doesn’t have enough money to buy some food and his body is already at his limit. He feel dizzy and suddenly fell to the ground. He heard someone’s voice but the voice is faded once he close his eyes.

          He open his eyes and try to remember what was happening to him. He look around him. Where am I? .

 

Ah, you awaken.

Kimi…

I’m shock when saw you fell to the ground. Here.

 

He pass a glass of hot chocolate to Jun.

 

Arigatou.

Douitashimaa.

Ano.., where am I now?

At my apartment. I don’t have a choice but to bring you here. You look tired.

Thanks..again.

You run away from your house right. ?

H..how do you know..

Your bag has your uniform and also your books.

Jun keep silence.

 

I’m Aoi Satoshi. Nice to meet you.

 

Satoshi take his hand out.

 

Murasaki Jun.

 

          For his entire life, there is no one who will take out their hand to shake hand with him. This guy is the first one. He really happy.

 

Are you a designer ?

Ah, yes. I’m one of the designer at Johnnys Wolrd Agency.

Johnnys..World Agency?

Its one of the biggest model agency in Japan.

I’ve heard about it.

Can I ask you something?

Why you run away from home? Your parents must be worried about you.

My parents busy fighting with each other and I can’t focus on my study whenever I’m at home.

Sou ka..

I’m sorry if I troubling you but don’t worry, I’ll go to my friend house.

Its okay, you can live here.  Don’t lie to yourself. I can see loneliness in your eyes.

 

Jun can’t hold his tears anymore and its now flowing like a heavy rain.

 

Ii yo. You can cry all out here. I’m here with you.

 

Jun cry out loud and Satoshi pat Jun’s head to calm him down.

 

          Since that day, Jun and Satoshi become a very close friend. Even Nino, Satoshi bestfriend sometime jealous with Jun. Jun never met  such a nice person like Satoshi. Whenever Satoshi need  his help in finding an idea for his new  design, he will sleep there and find the idea together.  He feel more comfortable with Satoshi rather than his own family. As for Satoshi, he feel grateful because he meet Jun. His life is getting  more interesting. Sometime, he talk to himself, “ Am I a gay? “. It is because he feel comfortable when he’s with Jun. When he think about it, he will laugh alone.

 

One day…

 

 “ Ne, Satoshi.

Hmm..

Do you mind if I ask you to design one suit for me?

For what?

Nothing.

Sure, why not. I’ll make you one.

Ne, Satoshi.

Hmm..

Are you dating someone right now?

I have one, but we break 4 month after that, because I always busy with my work.

Sou ka.

Why do you ask about that?

Doue. I always get bullied by the others at school. Nobody want to be friend with me, because of that. When I’m at home, my parents will always fight with each other and I have low confident to continue my life. Demo, I feel touch when you save me back then. I thought I will die there. I try not to believe anyone else including you and your friend, but I can’t. All of you always give me courage to move on. I don’t think I can survive without all of you, especially you, Satoshi. You save me.

 

There’s a tears coming from Jun’s eyes.

 

Daijoubu, I’ll always here beside you whenever you need me. Don’t take all the burden by yourself. Sometime, you have to share your problem with the one you really trust.

Arigatou. Hmm..I take my leave now.

Okay. Take care and don’t go anywhere beside your home.

Hmm..Ne, Satoshi..

Nande?

Would you mind if we go out this Sunday?

Ii yo. I’m looking forward that day.

Jyaa~

Jyaa~

 

And Jun left the apartment.
Along his way to his home, his heart hurt even more. He can breath. He try to breath slowly and start to walk again.

 

On Sunday morning …

 

Sorry I’m late.

Daijoubu. So, can we go now.

Ikimasho..

 

Jun start the car and drive to the place that he want to go.

 

Ne Jun, where do we want to go..?

To the beach…

Serious ! Yayy !! Its been a long time I didn’t go there.

I know that. That’s why I bring you here. You always busy with your work and sometime I’m pissed off when see you like that.

 

Any minute later, both of them arrive at the beach.

 

Uwaa….umi da…..

You look excited Satoshi.

Of course I am. Arigatou Jun.

You stay here. I want to buy something.

No problem.

 

Jun walk away from there.
10 minute later..

 

Here.

Eh?

Just take it.

Maji ?..

Let’s go fishing. I heard that there’s a lot of fish here.

Jun..arigatou.

It’s nothing. Besides, how many times you want to thank me. C’mon. Let’s rent some boat.

Hait.

 

Then both of them spend their time with fishing. Satoshi is really excited.  Jun smile when look how excited Satoshi is. After that, they go to the arcade. Guess what, of all game, Jun just won 2 games only. Maybe because Satoshi always with Nino back then so he knows some trick for some games. Then, both of them go to the shopping mall to buy some fabric for Satoshi’s design. After they buy all the things that they want, both of them go to some restaurant for their tea.

 

Arigatou for today Jun. I never become so excited like today for such a long time.

Your welcome.

Demo, doue..?

What.

Why so suddenly, you want to take me out. Do you have a problem? If there’s any, tell me.

Because its been a long time we don’t hang-out together. Besides, you’re always busy.

Is that true? You’re not hiding something from me right?

Hiding something? Why I want to hide something from you.

Nothing.

 

They finish their tea and after that both of them go back home. Jun send Satoshi at his apartment. They wave to each other and Jun drive to his home.

 

3 month later..

 

Ne Satoshi, daijoubu? You look terrible.

Nino is right. Why you look so terrible Satoshi-kun.?

Nothing.

Is it about your design?

Iie.

Then what.?

Its about Jun right?

 

Satoshi shut his mouth.

 

Is there anything happen to him?

C’mon Satoshi, talk to us.

Jun hasn’t come here for 3 month. Ne, Satoshi, do you know where he live?

 

Satoshi shook his head.

 

What ?! After so long both of you together, you didn’t know where he live.

I’ve ask about that too but he always change the topic. So, I just ignore it.

Let’s go and find him.

Are you sure?

You really want to see him right? So let’s go.

 

The four of them search for Jun’s house. They have to admit that its hard to search without any information about him. Then Satoshi had an idea. They go to his school to find his address.
At last…

 

Moshi-moshi.

Hait, dare?

I’m Satoshi. I’m Jun’s friend. Can I see Jun for awhile?

“ Jun..”

Why? He’s not home?

Obachan, you go inside. All of you let’s talk at the park.

 

At the park..


Sorry I’m late. I’m Misa, Jun’s friend. Nice to meet you.

I’m Satoshi. This is Ninomiya, Aiba and Sakurai. We are Jun friend too.

I know about all of you. Jun always talk about all of you to me especially you.

Wait a minute. I thought that Jun, never had a friend back then and he’s the one who tell me.

I know him when he’s at the hospital.

Hospital? Why he’s at the hospital.? Where is he now, tell me. I really want to see him.

Actually,.. he died 2 month ago.

Nani..what are you talking about. He’s not really dead right. You lie to me. He’s not dead, I know it.

Calm down Satoshi. Misa wouldn’t lie to us.

How come you be so sure about this.! I know he’s not dead. You hide him right.

I’m sorry but I’m telling you the truth. He’s dead 2 month ago.

No. I don’t trust you. Let me see him. !

Oi Satoshi, he’s dead ! You must accept whether you like it or not. !

 

Satoshi cry out loud at the park. The others also felt sorry for what had happen to Jun. Like Misa said, Jun had a compilation in his heart and it can’t be cured anymore. He doesn’t want to tell Satoshi and the rest because he don’t want all of them worried about him. But he said he was so lucky to meet all of them especially Satoshi. After so long he live in a misery at last he can smile again after he met Satoshi.

 

7 month later..

 

Satoshi, c’mon we have to go now.

Okay, just a minute.

 

He put his coat and tighten his necktie. Today, he will take an award for the best talent in design together with his friend Sakurai, Aiba and Ninomiya. Before he left his apartment, he stop in front of the suit that was made for Jun before he died.

 

Ne Jun, today I’m going to take the award. Thanks to you because of your amazing idea and also made my life better and interesting. I hope you happy there. I’ll move forward to achieve  my dream.

Satoshi, hayaku. I don’t want to be late just because of you.

Hait..hait.. Why are you so excited today.

 

He then left his apartment with a lily at Jun’s picture.

 

 

THE END

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