I don’t know if there were words enough to describe what I was feeling right now. If there were, I would use them in all the sentences that would come out from my mouth. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. This was the only thing I felt right now. I was drowning in it and no one was there to save me. No one. I started crying, running my fingers through my hair and pulling on them. I was in no position to do anything else but cry. I wasted too many tears, crying over something really shallow and now, I think I want to take back the tears that left my eye so that I could cry, but I know I can't do that. Maybe Kyuhyun's finally decided to forget about me. He has decided to give a woman a chance to experience and feel the love he has given me for the short span of time that we were together.    

“Min Ri?” Minho called me

I didn’t answer and continued crying on the floor

He opened the door to my room, “Min Ri . . .” he sank down on the floor with me

“I feel so . . .” I trailed off and cried against his chest

“Shhh . . .” he rubbed my back “Tell me what’s wrong”

“He’s . . . getting married” I sniffed

“What?!”

“Minho . . .” I whispered, clinging onto his shirt

“What do you want to do?” he asked

I looked up at him, “Don’t leave me” I whispered

He nodded, “Never” he cradled me against his chest and I cried

"Thank you"

"Anything for you" he said

"Minho . . . I'm really sorry for what I did"

"It doesn't matter" his jaw hardens

"Yes it does"

"Min Ri . . ."

"I know you don't want to hear this but I need to get this out of my chest" I say 

"Okay . . . get it out" he looked at me 

"I love you, Minho and you that. It's just that . . . Kyuhyun made me feel more loved than you did" I explained 

"What did he do?" 

I swallowed, "He looked at me differently. Different from how you look at me"

"Different how?"

"Filled with . . . honesty and love"

"You didn't feel that from me?"

"I did but from him, it was stronger and . . . more . . ." 

"I'm sorry if you felt that way" his head was down 

"I was the one who did you wrong" 

"You wouldn't do that if I treated you well enough" 

"Minho . . ."

"Min Ri . . . please . . . give me another chance" 

I swallowed, "Minho . . . you know I can't" 

He shrugged, "Can't you?" 

"I can't" 

"I love you" he whispered 

I looked at him painfully and I ran my fingers through my hair. I couldn't answer that right now. I can't ever answer that statement . . . not anymore. 

"Minho . . ."

"I get it" he smiled and planted a kiss on my cheek

I was thankful that Minho was by my side right now. He cradled me against his chest and he gave me comfort that I've been missing for so long. Minho promised me that he will never leave my side, knowing Minho, he never breaks a promise. Between us, I am the one who breaks promises in an instant. 

"I'm so sorry . . ."I apologized to him 

"Shhh . . ." he kissed the top of my head 

"Minho . . . it hurts . . . it hurts so bad" I clung onto his shirt 

"I know . . . let it out" he says 

"I can't believe it . . . I've never felt this much pain in my life"

"Min Ri . . ." he rubbed my shoulder and hugged me tighter 

"I know I deserve this . . ." I spoke, wiping my tears 

He shakes his head, "You don't. No one does" he tucks my hair behind my ear and he carries me in his arms and takes me to my bed. He smiled and kisses the top of my head. 

"Sleep" he whispers

"Minho" I hold his wrist 

"Yes?" he turns to me

"Thank you" I whispered with a smile

He smiles down at me, "Anytime"

The next few days, I would ignore the constant pain that would disturb me. Minho helped through all that I've been going through. He was my pillar and I thanked him for that. When finals came, I studied hard and thought that if I did, I would be able to enjoy my Christmas here in Washington. Christmas vacation came by and I had no plans of going back to Korea and celebrate Christmas there. I wanted to spend the holidays here, with Catherine and Eric. I spoke too soon. 

"Here" Minho handed me a white envelope 

I raised a brow, "What is it?"

"Open it" he smiled 

I smiled at him and opened it. I pulled out the folded paper and read it, "Minho . . . "

"Let's celebrate Christmas . . . back home" he smiled 

I in a breath, "Oh my . . . "

"Min Ri . . . let's . . . go back home" he placed his hand over mine 

I bit my lip . . . Debating on whether I should go home and face all the that I left back home or should I just continue my life here and celebrate my New Year's Eve with Catherine and Eric. I can't go back. Not now. I can't. Ever. 

"I'll start packing" I smiled 

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