Again...
I feel no arousal
Nor in love
Nor hate

Again...
I permit his feast
upon my flesh
But why?

Again...
I verbally proclaim “no”
My feeble attempts
elicit surrender

Again...
I harbor the regret
Burden of shame
Priciest weight

Again...
I camouflage my sin
Playing an imposter
Doting my love

Again...
I declare to cease
Like an addict,
I lie