Final
It Was My Fault
It was late at night and Karen had just gotten home after meeting an old friend of hers. I caught a glimpse of this outrage and immediately grabbed your wrist forcefully then stormed off. Now we both were at our apartment arguing more of the situation that happened moments ago.
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"He was just a friend Cameron! Nothing more!" She yelled.
"You sure about that?! How do I know he's just a 'friend'?!" I yelled in rage. Your mouth was wide open due to L. Joe's aggression. You have never seen him so angry before. You then thought to yourself. What would have happened if you got married to him?
"Got no words to say, huh?" He interrupted your thoughts.
"Because you are supposed to trust me! Your girlfriend!" L. Joe's face had some guilt, but anger was mostly written all over it.
"Well I don't! What about it?! Ever since that incident over at the party last year, I NEVER trusted you EVER again!" His words hurt and stung you in the heart.
You remembered that night though...
Too bad it was just an incident....
---F L A S H B A C K---
It was the very first party that you have gone to in years. L.Joe had invited you so you can have some fun and let loose for a while. As you gotten around the place, all you saw was some drunk asses getting some chicks' number. Some queenkas at the party even eyeballed you.
You even overheard them say,
"What is she doing here?"
"Who invited her?"
"She is so ugly!"
You weren't very surprised, since all the queenkas in school have been bullying you ever since the start of you and L. Joe dating. You haven't spoken about the constant beatings, so you would always lie in front of L. Joe with scars and bruises on your face, but luckily, you had a great boyfriend! He knew you were an innocent child and wouldn't tell him about the beatings because you didn't want anyone getting hurt, so of course anytime you would get a beating, the next morning after that, he would pay a little "visit" with the queenkas. You wondered why the queenkas didn't bother you anymore, but only stared at you. You didn't want to ask L. Joe either, so you had let it go.
Well speaking of L. Joe, well at the party, he was trying his best to look for you, but ended up getting crowded by a crowd of fangirls.
You guess being the kingka in school was harder than you thought.
You always wondered why a popular and attractive kingka would want to date an innocent, nerdy and unattractive girl like you (bet you're beautiful though ^_~), but a reason never sprang up in your mind.
Going with the crowd, you met a drunken following you around the place.
"Hey babe, need some assistance?" You turned around and was shocked by the guy behind you. You couldn't stand his stench though. You weren't used to it at all. That body odor with alcohol written all over it made you want to vomit.
"N-No thanks. I'm just looking for my boyfriend." You gave a small sly smile and went on with your way searching for L. Joe until a figure blocked your view of the rest of the party.
"You know, I can be your boyfriend." He smirked at you before turning you around, slamming you against the wall, slowly giving his butterfly kisses towards your neck.
"Ahhhh~ stop it!" you yelled with all your might, but it was only as loud as a whisper. You were THAT innocent.
He kept giving you some "pleasure", but to you, it was more like a , not pleasure.
"HOW COULD YOU?!" you heard a faint, but familiar yell across the room and met your eyes with L. Joe's. He had anger and disappointment on his face. He clenched his fists tightly not wanting to kill anyone around him. L. Joe scurried off to the door as you finally had the nerve to push the drunken guy out of your way and to the door to find L. Joe.
"It was all just a mistake, L. Joe!" You tried to yell. The both of you were outside now, out in the sidewalk. He was just a few feet away from you.
"It didn't seem like it..." It was just a whisper that escaped from his lips, but you managed to grasp upon it.
"It wasn't what you thought it was L. Joe! I promise!" You were always the one to fix everything back then.
"Really?" He turned his head slightly to the side to catch a glimpse of you.
"Yes." You sighed thinking it was over, but you were wrong.
"THEN HOW COME I SAW YOU MAKING OUT WITH THAT GUY! I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR BOYFRIEND! NOT HIM!" His face and his body movements were like as if he was going to punch a wall until his knuckles started bleeding or something.
"He was drunk and I-"
"I don't need to know the details." L. Joe stood in the same position and just shoved his hands in his pockets with his black hoodie on and walked calmly through the dim light.
You sighed out, not wanting to become any part of this. You guessed that it was over and done for.
You pulled your sweater over you a little more comforting to adjust to the coldness until a flash of lights was blinding you.
Beep! Beep! The horn sounded off, but you didn't know what to. You just froze there as if the the lights mesmerized you.
"________-Yahhh!" You heard the same familiar yell. It was L. Joe.
You kept frozen until you felt a pair of strong arms embrace you into his arms and push you out of the way as you both fell in the hard concrete. It was a few simple scars, but luckily it was not a big injury.
"Are you okay?" L. Joe asked, but you were in no mood to talk. Even though L. Joe saved you, he still didn't have faith in you, so you just ignored him as you dusted off your clothes, bowed silently to him, and went off to your way.
"Hey! Hey! ________! Wait!" You stopped for a second to see what he wanted, but as you turned around, you couldn't help but see tears form in his eyes. They looked as if they were going to fall down on his cheeks in any moment.
"Mianhae! Mianhae _______-Yahhh!" Surprisingly, L. Joe ran up to you and gave you a huge teddy bear hug as a sign of a sincere apology. "As I saw you there looking frozen, I couldn't imagine myself without you in my life and what it would be like if you went missing! I couldn't do it! I don't care if what happened at the party was real or fake! I should have believed you! I should have! I'm your boyfriend and I acted like a jerk! I didn't listen to your side of the story and just assumed things! Mianhae ______, just please, please don't leave me. Stay by my side forever and forgive my foolish mistake?
You nodded your head once and apparently once was good enough because immediately after that one nod, L. Joe swung you around, never letting go of you bringing joy into the two of you as well as y'all's eyes as well.
---F L A S H B A C K E N D E D---
"I thought you didn't care anymore?" You murmured, but L. Joe over heard it.
"Looking back, I was pretty foolish.........to forgive you." Now those words stung.
"Fine! Then let's just break up!" L. Joe seemed shocked but not shocked enough.
"Fine!" Immediately, L. Joe slammed the door behind him, leaving you in the apartment you both shared all alone. You were crying your eyes out. You couldn't believe that y'all just broke up after two years of going out. It was an unbelievable sight.
Frustrated by this mistake, instead of taking a nice, sweet nap to forget things like a normal girl would do, you decided to take a stroll out to the streets of Seoul. Instantly, you dried up your tears with the sleeve of your sweater and took off. You barely came to Seoul for about a month, so you really didn't know the streets much or many people besides Teen Top. You didn't care for much anymore, so you took a light black sweater and tucked in your hands to the pockets coldly.
On the other hand, L. Joe was out in the park, trying to calm himself with the beautiful scenery.
"I'm so glad we broke up! I don't even know why she blamed me for everything! It was HER fault anyway!", He murmured to himself while walking around with his hands in his baggy sweat pockets. He kept his head low, slowly murmuring to himself, but then quickly stopped when he saw a sweet, young couple around his age, cuddling with each other as they fed each other some soup for this harsh winter.
"We used to do that..." He quietly whispered under his own breath.
"Ani! Ani! You're more Kyeopta!" The young girl said as she flicked the young boy's nose with her index finger.
"Ani! Ani! You're the most Kyeopta!" The young boy hugged the girl by the waist tightly and never let go.
L. Joe saw this scene and couldn't help but sigh. He missed you in his arms. He needed you in his arms. He couldn't let some stupid arguement come between the two of you! It was pure immaturity.
"That's it. I need her back!" Before he knew it, his legs took him back to where he first saw you. It reminded him a bit of how he would run in "Crazy". Along the way, a smile was kept on his face and never a frown.
It took him about 5 minutes to get back.
He calmly dusted off his clothes and silently opened the door, thinking you had fell asleep like how you always do when y'all get into an arguement. He the TV for a bit, lowering the volume, not wanting to wake you up and kept flipping through the channels until something had caught his attention.
"BREAKING NEWS! A young girl was hit by a car as she passed by the crosswalk without taking notice of the traffic lights! Police say that she is in critical condition. The young girl oddly keeps yelping a cry of help of certain name of 'L. Joe', apparently THE L. Joe from Teen Top! L. Joe, if you're watching this, then come and save this girl!" Without further instructions, L. Joe went straight forward to the room you both shared, but just saw a pile of pillows neatly placed on the top row of the bed as the blankets lay flowly under the pile of pillows. He quickly had an instinct to run as fast as he could to the place the lady had addressed.
"It can't be her! This cannot happen! THIS CANNOT HAPPEN! I CANNOT AND WILL NOT LET THIS HAPPEN TO HER AGAIN!" His screams and yells were heard a mile away. His fingers locking good sections of his hair as he pulled them crazily like an insane man. Hair grew separate from his scalp and he couldn't take in more of his anger.
His legs became sore, but he grew forgotten of them and kept running until he got to the place where you had got the car accident.
After 10 minutes of running, he finally reached the crosswalk of where you had laid. Police officers were surrounding your body as rolls of "No Crossing" tape were taped around the scene. News reporters were broadcasting their news as L. Joe felt as time slowed by in front of him.
He slowly walked through the crowd of people and through the officers until he finally caught of you.
Your bloody body and bruised face right in front of him. His knees began to shake uncontrollably and his hands began to freeze in formation of not knowing how to approach to you. He was in pure guilt. He promised your parents that he would take care of you, but ended up failing badly. How could he let such a stupid argument get in the middle of y'all's relationship and let it shatter it down like that?! He was a really foolish person now....
You just laid there, helplessly and weakly struggling for survival.
"L. Joe....L-L. J-Joe...." You helplessly cried out not even louder than a whisper.
L. Joe quickly came over to you and picked you up under his arms and carried you.
"Where is the nearest hospital?!" He desperately asked a news reporter.
"Oh Mr. L. Joe, I have a few questions for you." The News reporter ignored his question and ended up making a crowd form around the two of you.
"ENOUGH! I JUST NEED HELP!" He ran through the crowd, giving you more pain. Your blood keeps shotting up your chest, your face was as swollen as a bee had stung you, and your legs were too numb to even move.
"Byunggie~" You whispered in pain.
He gently put a halt to his expedition and looked down at your painful self. His heart felt a shock. It hurts him to see your like this. He felt his heart shattered.
If only he didn't start the arguement, then you wouldn't have ended up like this! He regretted every action he made today. How could jealousy easily interrupt his mind?!
He knew if he didn't give you a smile, you would hold a grudge the whole day, so he has to give you one of those fake and weak smiles.
"Ne~" he simply said, still with words shot in pain, but he tried to hide it.
"I'm okay... Just leave me here.....inside your....arms" You said trying not sound hurt.
L. Joe simply sat down on the crosswalk and settled you down, laying you right snuggling onto his chest.
You struggled and winced with pain as the movements gave you harmful actions to your body.
"Did I hurt you?" He asked shockingly.
"Aniyo. I just....love being.....here with......you." Your eyes kept flickering slowly
and your breaths were now short ones.
"Mianhae _____! I should have not started the arguement! You wouldn't have ended up being like this! Mianhae for hurting you! I caused all of this! This was my fault! I knew i shouldn't have been jealous! I shouldn't have been the one to give you those hurtful remarks! I have been the Pabo! You have been the most perfect girlfriend that any guy will be lucky to have! I really love you! I really do! I promised your parents that I will love you, care for you, and protect you and I failed miserably....Mianhae my angel, but please! Just please! Don't leave me!" His weak eyes began to form into watery eyes as tears began to fall upon the side of his cheeks. He couldn't bare to see you like this any longer! He didn't want you to leave!
"Byunggie~stop it......it wasn't.....your fault.....besides....... I'm.........not.......going.........anywhere....." You started to feel faint and your face grew pale as tears gathered up into your eyes. His hand intwined with yours as soon as he saw the pale face.
"_______-yah! Remember that song that you sang to me when we met?! Sing it to me! Sing it to me, _______!" Fear began to rise in his body.
"🎶Cuz when I fall.......
Sarange ppajyeo beorin geol.....
Shigani meochun geot gata......on sesangi nae geot gata......🎶" Your eyes were flickering every now and then, but tried fighting through it. Your voice began to feel dry, weak, and faint. You had already saw the light blinding you.
" 🎶I'll......fall.....in love.....with......🎶" There was a woman asking you to come with her. Then your final words blew the ice as your hand departed from his hand.
" 🎶you.....🎶" Your head wiped over to the side as your eyes closed deeply into an everlasting, unawakening sleep.
"NO! NO! NO! _________-YAHHHH!" Vigorously, L. Joe shook you in tears and pain. He shouts your name. He calls for help. But nothing seems to make you wake up. He begins to slap himself for all the pain he had caused to you. He never knew it would end this way.
Why did it have to end this way?!
Why did the person he loved the most and cared for most had to leave?
The person that understood him the most and stayed by his side whenever he needed comfort.
Why did that person had to leave now?!
He then just faces the facts and sits there hugging you into his arms for the night.
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