For some reason I want to be alone, yet I don't.  It's hard to explain, but I go into random bouts of depression and then want nothing to do with any of the other members...I just feel like I have to detach myself from socializing or acknowledging any of them.  But then when I everyone finally stops paying attention to me, I want it all back...so I've picked up a habit to express my feelings, I draw.  When the members are all out celebrating a win, it's just Cho Kyuhyun at home with his sketch pad and colored pencils.  I don't know why I have become like this, and everyday I wish for someone to ask me of I'm doing alright, or to ask how I'm feeling, but then again, at the same time I don't...