[Which way are you gonna take? The left one where there is nothing right? Or the right one where there is nothing left?]

 

That question left sinking in my head. I know I wasn’t supposed to feel this way to her. She’s my sister, for heaven’s sake. But, why in the world am I falling in love for her? Oh, Lee HyukJae. You’re an epic fail, yourself. You’re falling in love for the wrong person, for Lee ShinHye to be exact.

 

[What are you supposed to do about it?]

 

Another question popped out from my head. Ah~ My heart. It’s like being crushed into pieces whenever I see her with her fiancée, Park JungSu. Should I go and tell her everything? No, I think that wouldn’t help at all. I think she would think less.

 

[She’ll think you love her as a sister.]

 

A sister. Right, that’s what she’ll think about. I can’t imagine how she will react if she ever found out---

 

“Hyukkie-oppa?” a soft voice called.

 

“ShinHye?” I quickly opened the door, and tears starts to form from her eyes. “What’s wrong? It’s midnight already. You should be sleeping right now. It’s your wedding tomorrow.”

 

It’s hard for me to say that you’re getting married, I thought.

 

“I was about to----“

 

“Can I call you mine?”

 

“Oppa? What was that supposed to mean?” Her eyes are looking at me with shock.

 

“Can I call you mine?” I repeated again the question.

 

“Why?”

 

“I love you. And not just as a dongsaeng. It’s a serious matter, ShinHye.”

“Are you serious?” she asked. For no specific reason, I pulled her then kissed her.

 

“That’s how I love you.” She didn’t response for a while. Her facial expression clearly stated that she was shocked. But what else can I do, right? I can’t restrain myself from kissing her. I want her to be mine, only mine.

 

“But why?”

 

“I don’t know. I know, this is hard to analyze or something. But I’m falling madly in love with you. What the hell should I do to make me stop loving you? Nothing at all. I can’t think of a good way to make this stupid heart of mine to stop from loving you.”

 

“Just attend the wedding and let your heart be crushed.”

 

Can someone kill me right now? It’s the hardest way to do it. Why, ShinHye? Why are you doing this to me??

 

“Oppa. You know that this is really surprising. But I love LeeTeuk. I’m sorry. Good night, oppa.” Before leaving, she kissed me one last time.

 

“I’m sorry, HyukJae. But, I only love you as my oppa.”

 

She left me there, heart crushed and the pain won’t stop. It’s forbidden love, yes. But can you possibly think that you can fall in love with someone you didn’t thought you’ll eventually end up falling in love to? That night, she answered my question. She chose the right one, eventually leaving me with a broken heart, which may never be fixed again.

 

That’s how my midnight girl eventually crushed my heart.