Do you think of him when you see me?

Do you think of the times you had when you are with me?

Do you repeat those memories you made together, whose face do you see?

In his shadow is his me you see?

Are we liars in denial? Are we smoke without the fire?

But you don’t see that I'm the one by your side…

Tell me please…is this worth it? I deserve it…

Do you wish I was a bit more like him?

Am I too loud?

……..

I play the clown to cover up all these doubts….

You, Kim Myungsoo who is the most perfect being in this lonely planet.

Do you know how much I love you?

Do you know how much I care?

Do you know…. know what I could…. no…. how much I would do for you?

You are the only one in my life and I just wish that I could take away any sort of pain that you feel right now…….

But why?

….why am I the only one hurting tonight?

Why is it that I am always the one picking up the pieces of your broken heart….

Cuts…

My hands are full of cuts and bruises from fixes and patching your heart up, a million, billion times…

When?

When will this end? I know you feel the same, but do you know?

Do you really know?

Do you know how hard it is being in a one sided love?

I love you more than words can ever express, but you don’t know show me the same kindness….

And now he's gone and your heart is once again broken… I'm left here….

I'm left here….

I'm left here picking up the pieces…he left behind.