The house is very quiet and dark. Just a simple house but has many memories that has been shared among the people in there. The house have witnesses the happy memories, sad things and many occational things that happened. But today,it just stood still without the familiar atmosphere anymore.

At the window,there’s a shadow of someone sitting on the chair. The person just stay still,does’t move an inch from his position. Just staring outside the window,looking for  something between the horizon. The most clear thing about him is his eyes, that indicates no life to be filled. Just a lifeless soul in a human body. No more laughter from him, he even does’t feel anything that happen around him.

Suddenly the quiet house is disturbed by a ringing of the phone. He just let the phone ringing,never moves from the chair. He even does’t hear anything,just staring blankly outside the window. The phone keep ringing for a while until it stopped and automatically the voice messenger enchoing through the house.

“Kame-chan, are you okay?” the voice of his friend enchoing through the house.

“Kame-chan please answer your phone, it’s been a month since I heard from you.” The voice continued  and then the machine went silent.

No more noise other than the ‘bip’ that come from the phone signaling the end of the messages. He just keep staring blankly, without paying any attention towards the messages.

There’s a knock at the door, he just ignore it like others thing. The knocking keep coming but he just sit there,not even a flinch or movement from him. Then the knocking stop and then the sounds of the key to unlock the door could be heard clearly throughout the house.

He heard the footsteps but did nothing. Then someone put a hand at his shoulder. He turn his head to look who the person and he know all the faces that showed in front of him. The faces of his friends,the friends that always stay  by his side since he know them.

“Are you okay Kame?” Tatsuya asked him with a worried face.

Kazuya just staring at him,no words were out from his mouth. Just a silent stare.

“Kame-chan,it’s been a month. Stop doing this to yourself.” Koki stared at him with a sad face,cleary feeling sorry toward the younger one.

Kazuya just kept silent and then turn his body once again toward the window. He clearly doesn’t want anyone said anything to him. With a soft voice, he said something that makes everyone look at each other.

“He promise me that he will come back,he said that I need to wait for him.”

Koki can’t take it anymore and just shout something at him. It is to make sense to the younger one that the situation  has changed.

“He’s not coming back Kame, he’s dead ! Jin can’t come back to you, he’s gone forever !”

That stirred something in Kazuya,but he just keep silent. Suddenly he heard the constant beeping of the life machine, the chaos around him, the movement’s from everyone around him, around them. But they just stay still,not moving an inch. The lifeless body in front of him, the hand that he still holding,that become cold every minutes passes.

The tears that he keep holding for a month finally come down slowly,his body just can’t take anymore of the pain. Pain because he losses someone that he loves so much,that he care so much in his life. His body shook badly when he cries his eyes out. The tears tell them that it’s his final straw,the emotion that he keep hiding from them.

Tatsuya slowly hugged him and let him cry. Everyone around them just kept silent and watch the situation with heavy hearts. They know they can’t do anything to change what has happened. Just let Kazuya crying if it’s make the younger one okay with his life.

“Tat-chan,he left me again,he always leave me behind. Leave me to the place that I can’t ever reach for him.” Between his sobs,Kazuya tells the older one.

With a sigh,Tatsuya just managed to hug him tighter and look the others that just watch them silently.

“Damn you Akanishi,always makes our Kame-chan crying because of your selfishness. I’m not going to forgive you this times round.” With teary eyes, Koki curse the person that make Kazuya crying like there’s no tomorrow.

Everyone just watch silently doing nothing,just watch the younger one mourn for someone that will not come back to their side again. The person that leaves suddenly without warning,leaves the person that loves him.

Because,there’s no more Akanishi Jin with them,with Kamenashi Kazuya.The person he love the most in the world.

To my dearest Kazuya,

“Hey Kazuya,will you always smile even if  I’m not around anymore? Please keep smiling because your smile is the reason why I fall in love with you.”

“Promise me Kazuya,keep smiling and move on because you can move forward forever.”

“Although I’m not by your side anymore,remember this. I always loves you. I love you Kazuya. Let me go with an open heart.Keep smiling ne.”

I love you.

With love,

Akanishi Jin