“Kwanghee.” He didn’t budge. “You’re asleep again?” I asked incredulously, even though I knew he wouldn’t answer. Sighing lightly, I continued to look at him.

“You know, you’re quite a handful.” I said after another moment. “It’s no wonder I like you so much.” I turned my gaze to the the blanket I had clasped in my hands. “Nobody can make me smile like you can. You’re the only person who can make me blush. And you’re also the only person I’ve ever loved this much.” With another sigh, I closed my eyes. “I can’t believe how corny I sound."

“These last few days... they’ve been pretty unbearable. I can’t stop thinking about how much I want you. It only got worse after you blushed. I mean, how could you just pretend like it didn’t happen? Way to mess with my heart.” I made a face. “And all of my friends make fun of me for liking you, like I have bad taste in guys or something. I know they’re only teasing, though.

“I always wondered what you thought of me. I know we’ve been friends since before I had my surgery and before ZE:A debuted, but... I’ve been in love with you even since then.” I opened my eyes and looked up and the bottom of the top bunk. “I hoped I could get something out of you last night, but then I had to go and collapse. I guess it would have been nice to know that it hasn’t been one-sided all this time."

“But you have to go and make things difficult, as always.” I looked back down at the blanket once again. “What’s the point of denying blushing? I mean, sure, maybe you were embarrassed, but...” I sighed again. I didn’t know where I was going with this.

“There have been so many times when I was so close to just kissing you. When I stayed the night a few days ago, when you were sleeping, when that jackass- er, I mean CEO was insulting you... Even now, it’s hard. I don’t know what to do.” Another sigh was inevitable. “What am I saying? This is ridiculous.” I wasn’t sure why I was talking like this to a sleeping Kwanghee. But I had to admit that it felt kind of nice, even if he couldn’t hear me.

“Do you remember that one time we met up after ZE:A’s debut live? It was pouring outside, but we didn’t care. We were so excited. We went out on that one bridge and screamed our hearts out. That was a little after I was finally able to talk again.” I smiled fondly. “And then we both got such terrible colds. I felt so bad because you still had to perform."

“And then there was that time you snuck me into the studio so you could teach me the dances you knew. When we were caught, you took all of the blame, and then you even took me out for ice cream afterword.” I wasn’t sure why I was bringing up past events, but it was hard to stop once I started.

“And even recently, when we were in the studio, singing like idiots and goofing around... I feel like all of the times I’ve shared with you are precious.” Yet another sigh escaped my lips.

“Here I am, talking about how much I like you when I haven’t even done anything to make you like me. I’m just the girl you met who dresses like a boy and acts weird when you joke about kissing.” I let my eyes shut once more.

“Is that really how you feel?” My eyes shot open and straight to Kwanghee’s face. His eyes were open, as well.

Oh lord, had he been awake this whole time?