Kyungsoo’s POV

In the dormitory

“I’m pregnant.”

I looked at the silent statue in front of me. His eyes betrayed no emotions as he stared into my eyes intently. All of a sudden my soul felt so and scrutinised.

Silence.

Well that was not a reaction I anticipated.

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Jongin’s POV

Mindblown.

I did NOT expect that.

How could I?! He was a MALE, for goodness’s sake. Males do not get pregnant! What in the world was happening? I simply could not process the piece of information I just received. Pregnant? What? WHAT?! Hang on, MINE?!

“Jongin ah, say something…”

A soft quivering voice broke my train of thoughts and I suddenly become acutely aware of the man standing in front of me.

“Give me a moment.” With that, I walked briskly to the bathroom and locked the door behind me.

“Jongin… Please… Come out please. Talk to me….” Kyungsoo was crying by now, frantically pounding on the bathroom. From the sounds of his knocks, I was pretty sure he was slumped down on the ground against the bathroom door. As much as that image broke my heart, I knew I had to process the information before facing him; otherwise, I ran the risk of breaking his heart. Surrounded by darkness in the bathroom, I tried my hardest to ignore him and concentrated hard on the matter at hand.

First things first, a male can be pregnant? Is it even possible? Could this be a prank? But there were no traces of humour when I looked into his eyes when he announced that he was pregnant. Besides, it would be too cruel a prank for Kyungsoo to pull on anyone. Looked like I had no choice but to accept the fact that he was really expecting. A baby. Wow. A whole new life. WOW.

The next question I had was whether the baby was mine. Yes, I had been ually active with him the past few months. Assuming that male-male pregnancy was even possible, there was a high possibility that the baby was mine. I was pretty sure Kyungsoo had no other lovers and he was way too innocent to cheat on me.

If that’s the case, how were we supposed to deal with this? Abortion was definitely out of the question. This was a life to be treasured. A miracle that was created by Kyungsoo and I. So if Kyungsoo stayed pregnant, what would that mean for us as idols? How would the fans react? What would our company do? What would happen to our dreams of being the top idol group? All of a sudden, I found myself wishing that we were not idols but just normal people. If only we were not famous, we could live a quiet private life together for ourselves. No one to please and no one to scrutinise every single thing we did. No one’s approval we needed to earn. No one’s rules and conditions to live by.

And then I decided that it didn’t matter. Nothing mattered. The only thing that mattered was Kyungsoo and the baby. No matter what kind of reactions we might get, even if the world rejected us, there was always the two (or three, including the baby) of us. And as long as we had each other, we could pull through any hurdles and obstacles. 

Immediately, my thoughts returned to Kyungsoo. I realised he must be so scared right now. Not only was he facing the same daunting issues I was pondering upon now, he still had to deal with his body changing to accommodate the growing baby and bringing a whole new life into the world. Now I saw. How much he needed my support. Now that I had come to accept the facts and make peace with reality, I knew what I had to focus on. The one person who needed me the most.

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Kyungsoo’s POV

“Come out… please…”

I continued to whimper against the door. My legs had long given way as I sat leaning against the bathroom door. My arms no longer had the strength to pound on the door. Why was he not saying anything? Why wasn't he coming out? Tears continued to stream down my faces and my eyes hurt from all the crying. My heart sunk the moment he stood up and walked away from me, putting a barrier between the two of us. This was exactly what I feared. Rejection. Disgust. Horror. All these words popped up in my mind and I was just too tired to push all the negative thoughts away. Instead, I just sat there in my utter despair and wrapped my arms around my belly.

Suddenly the bathroom door swung open. Before I even had time to react, a pair of strong muscular arms tightened around me. A comforting warmth surrounded me as I leaned weakly against his chiseled chest. Without much difficulty, those arms lifted me up and carried me to the bed. As he laid me down on the bed, I reached out to grab his arm.

“Don’t leave me…”

Jongin climbed into the bed with me and enveloped me with his body. As I was slowly drifted into a tired sleep, I heard Jongin say.

“Never.”

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Jongin’s POV

As I laid beside the sleeping Kyungsoo, I couldn’t help but notice the dark circles surrounding his red puffy eyes. I just couldn’t imagine what it was like for him to learn that he was pregnant alone. I sighed inwardly as the day’s events replayed in my mind and everything started falling into place. Kyungsoo experiencing morning sickness. My phone call with Manager Hyung. The ultrasound scan. Manager Hyung’s words before he left the dormitory. And last by not least, Kyungsoo’s tears. I understood now. How alone he felt. How scared he was about how I would react. I tighten my arms around him protectively and buried my face in his soft brown hair.

Sorry, Kyungsoo ah. I’m so sorry.

Although I am scared as well, I’ll be brave for you. Although I am uncertain and terrified of what the future held for us, I’ll stay strong for you.

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Kyungsoo’s POV

My eyes flew open and I raced to the bathroom. Even though I hardly ate much yesterday, somehow I felt like puking which turned into dry heaves. Once the bout of nausea ended, I washed my mouth and brushed my teeth. Looking at my reflection, I was horrified. I looked like a wreck! Oh my poor eyes felt so sore. Nausea. The eyes. Yesterday's events came crashing down upon me. Definitely not a dream. I was really pregnant.

 Jongin.

I dashed out of the bathroom. Gone? I glanced at the clock. Six o’clock in the morning. Where could he be at this time? I walked out of the bedroom quietly so as to avoid waking up anyone. The other members still didn’t know and I wasn’t in the mood to answer questions. The kitchen light was switched on so I headed there first. Before I even looked into the kitchen, I could already hear Jongin mumbling to himself.

“Hmmm… Home remedies for morning sickness, this will be useful… Potato chips? Wow didn’t know that. Hmmm… Citrus fruit… add to water…”

What a sight greeted me when I stepped into the kitchen. A pile of pregnancy and baby guide books sat on the granite counter and Jongin was perched on the counter with his face buried in a book titled ‘All you need to know about Pregnancy and Childbirth’. Wow. The Jongin who usually hated reading books which were not manga was READING at dawn. FOR ME.

“Jongin?”

A head peered up from the book. Aw. Didn’t he just looked adorable with reading glass on.

“Oh Kyungie hyung! You’re up already? How are you feeling today? Did you sleep well last night? Still had morning sickness? Are you hungry? Thirsty? Do you need anything?” Within seconds, he was beside me, escorting me to a chair in front of the counter. And then he was back behind the counter, flipping through the book. “I just read about a cure for morning sickness! Want to try? Where’s the lemon? Oh here it is. Let’s see…. Cut a slice of lemon. Ok I need a… knife! And chopping board… Ok slice the lemon. Done. The next step is to.... add it into water. Ok. A glass of water. How much? Why didn’t the book say? Aish. Such a useless book!”

How adorable could he get? My heart could just explode from all the feels I was getting as I just watched him fumble through the pages of the book and attempt to make me a glass of water. Somehow I knew that no matter what happens, he would definitely do his best. It may not be perfect but it would definitely be his best efforts. And my heart warmed at the thought of that.

“Here. Let me do it.” I got up from my chair and walked around the counter to where he was.

“No Hyung. Let me do it for you!” he pouted cutely. I couldn’t help but laugh and pinch his cheeks. Nevertheless, I grabbed the glass from his hands, filled it up with water and dropped the lemon slices into the glass. Taking a sip from the glass, I returned to my seat. Although I was already feeling much better from watching Jongin, the lemon water did help settle my upset tummy.

“Hyung! What shall we call our baby?”

My hand stopped mid-air.

Our baby.

I loved the sound of that. Especially hearing it come from him.

“Hyung! Did you hear what I said? What nickname shall we call it?”

“Why don’t you choose?”

“Hmmm. Let’s call it… Miracle!”

 

 

 

 

Miracle.

I like it.

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Jongin’s POV

Yet another fail. Something as simple as preparing a glass of water. So much wanted to do everything for him.

Funny how I hardly slept a wink last night and yet I feel livelier and more energised than ever. Lying in bed with Kyungie hyung and watching him sleep last night made me realise that I knew next to nothing about pregnancy and let alone how to support him through this period. The realisation made me run to the nearest bookstore to get some guide books without any hesitation. Without much thought as well, it appeared. What bookstore would be open at three in the morning? However, I remained undaunted and waited, or more like paced around, outside the bookstore. The owner was nice enough to let me in at five even though his official opening hours were seven. After purchasing over ten books (I know, a little excessive but I’d rather be prepared thoroughly), I sprinted back home and doved straight into the first book I could grab. The more I read, the more my excitement regarding the pregnancy grew. The more my concern for Kyungsoo grew as well. There were many changes that he was going to experience soon. Hormonal, physical, emotional.

Looking at this hyung, sipping on the water I ATTEMPTED to make for him, I gave a worried smile. Although his face looked haggard (but still the most beautiful, if you asked me), his eyes showed none of yesterday’s emotions. Aish this kid. So innocent. How could someone forgive and forget so easily? I felt guilty as hell and yet he still looked at me like I still meant the world to him, as if I did nothing wrong.

“Hyung.”

He stopped sipping his water and placed the glass down onto the counter.

“In all seriousness, I would like to apologise for my horrible behaviour yesterday. I should have been there for you but I wasn’t when you needed me the most. So I, Jongin, hereby promise to stand by your side for not just this pregnancy but the many years to come that we’ll spend together. This is so embarrassing and cliché but I will be there for you every step of the way and I would like you to know that I’ve decided that nothing matters more to me than you. Not even my career. This baby, Miracle, is OUR miracle and we are in this together. So never ever hesitate to come to me if you need anything. Even if it’s just a hug that you need.  Alright, hyung?”

His huge deer-like eyes started to water and a single tear escape before he quickly wiped it away with the back of his hand.  

“Aw, hyung. I didn’t mean to make you cry….” I cupped his face with my hands and lifted his face to mine lovingly, “Together. Always remember. You always ALWAYS have me. Ok?”

With his eyes still trained on mine, he nodded silently once and gave me a tiny smile.

With that, I planted a sweet little kiss on his forehead over the counter.

And……

 

 

In the process, split his glass of lemon water on the counter and on him.

Seriously. What was wrong with me? What a way to ruin a romantic moment.

We quickly drew apart and scrambled to get some paper towels to clean up the mess. I could just die of embarrassment when I heard the most wonderful sound.

 

 

Laughter.

Kyungsoo’s laughter.

 

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