It's been a month and I'm going crazy. I haven't seen or heard from her since. I want to call her, go find her at her campus, something, anything to know that she's okay but I can't. I can't bring myself to do it. After the tears that I made her shed, after crushing her heart into unrepairable pieces, how can I ever show my face to her again? How can I fix things between us? How can I get back the only person that has made me so impossibly happy? How do I take back years of pain that she had to go through because of me?

Today was going to be our third year anniversary.