Random Quote:

"Trust can be lost in an instant, But can take a life time to regain"

Chapter 02

"Yep?" he asked but stopped as shocked filled his eyes while i looked up, still crying i can't stop crying,

"YAA! WHAT HAPPENED!? WHO MADE YOU CRY?! DOES ZICO KNOW!?" he asked with concern but once hearing his name i cried more, he held my Shoulders tightly as i cried,

"Ya! Just please tell me Yumi" he begged, worry filled his eyes

"It's Zico..." i answered in-between tears, i looked at him he was giving me a small yet worried smile,

"Just cry all you want...what are best friends for"

I couldn’t help but feel hurt and yet again I’m feeling guilty a little, since zico and I  went out i never really hung around with him anymore i was pretty sure he hated zico a little for that, I cried loudly as i hugged him, crying unto his chest all the confused feelings i have anger, hurt...

"Why the hell did i give him a chance to do this?!" i heard him whisper but didn’t hear a thing since i was crying out loud,

"Huh?" i asked as i looked up at him, he laughed pinching my cheeks


"Come on chipmunk! I missed you a lot and i don’t want to see my chipmunk looking like a dog that rolled over my front lawn!" He joked, letting my cheeks go and petted me, pushing him aside pouting as i walked inside his house it was the same old house we use to go to when we were in high school we always cut class together, i realized how much i missed my bestfriend.... and I’m pretty sure he's worried... i sighed why do I always end up worrying him the most when I always disappoint him when he needed me… like that time his girlfriend left him i only stayed with zico not even messaging him or asking if hewas fine... yet his still here opening his arms for me...

"stupid dumdum kitty!!" i said as i faced him sticking my tongue out pretending to be fine already, tuning back around and again heading to his room, i know kwonnie knows that I’m still not alright he always see’s straight into me

"He really crossed the line big time" he murmured, but really really low all i heard was big time..

 
"YA! What are you always whispering about!" i asked slightly annoyed as i stared at him, "Nothing nothing! haha just wait in my room ill ready the bath and some clothes for you I’m pretty sure you have no intention of going out" he said giving me an understanding smile, i smiled a little and headed to his room laying down on his carpeted floor,

Lying here quietly i couldn’t help but think and think... Did i ever do something wrong in our relationship? Did i do anything to make him do this? i couldn’t help but cry all over, as i remembered the times we were happily together even the simple times i miss them... those unforgettable times and those crazy yet loving times… he would bring me to the park filled with kids and stand at the middle and do a freestyle rap and start laughing as the kids ignored him and just passed by him like he was just a pole and all he'll do was approach me and give a kiss on my forehead telling me how much he loves me... why did this have to happened...why can't everything return to how it was?

 
"Yumi ah...I promise all my life... that I’d love you and never make you cry I’ll make you happy the rest of your life as long as your with me... so please go out  with me!" he said as he knelt down on the middle of a room filled with candles and roses with a shy smile,

Why... why did he .. Even say those words... i never knew it would hurt this much just remembering his name hurts...

"Yumi! Everything’s done now you ca- Ya! You’re crying again!" Kwonnie said as he entered the room immediately kneeling down making me sit,

"Kwonnie it hurts!" i said still crying,

"Did you fall? Hit your head?!! anything!? Ya!! Tell me!" he said, inspecting my head arms if i had any scratch, seeing nothing he placed my head on his shoulders and he just petted and caressed my head,

"Zico...-sniff- i... i never wanted to believe... i--i thought about it but i didn’t want to believe it! i want to forget what happened but... it's like I’m the only one in love in this relationship that I’m the only one hurting...i want to forget what i saw what i said what i felt! but... but ha....i... i cant i don’t like the feeling that when my boyfriend goes home at night that he spent his day with a another girl!" i cried louder as he just continued hugging me tighter, i hugged him back crying hard for almost half an hour i kept crying nonstop, so this is what it felt your first love breaking your heart...

"Come on fat chipmunk take a bath, you stink!" he joked as i playfully punched his shoulder, which i noticed was soaking wet i felt slightly guilty, he stood up and helped me up

"I'm sorry for your shirt kwonnie...I'll go now" i said as i hugged him then headed to the bathroom,

"Ya! No crying in the bath! I want to see you alive when you get out not drowned okay" he joked giving me a worried smile as i forced a smile and just entered the bath,

Laying on the tub, the warm water was relaxing but whatever i do my mind is still clouded and messed up, my first love which i thought was going to protect me from getting hurt turns out to be the one to hurt the living hell out of me

Curling up into a ball as the water splashed out the tub a little , my hair sticking to my face,           

"Why?" i questioned as i cried once again,

for a few more minutes(more like an hour actually XD) I’ve stayed in the water, i felt really tried not the tired that you want to sleep but the kind of tired you just want to fast-forward your life to a better chapter, drying myself up i took the clothes kwonnie placed it was a huge t shirt and shorts they were big and i can’t do anything about it, i can’t go back and just see him... not yet... I’ll just end up in tears... even though how much i miss his goofy smile when he sees me... but its all different now... staring at the mirror, 

"Yumi ah.. you look so sad and dead right now" i murmured as i stared at my reflection...

as i passed the living room i saw Kwonniee I’m pretty sure he's worried... the only thing i can give now to thank him is to pretend to be alright... yeah...that’s the only thing i can do... i made ninja steps behind the couch

"Boo!" i screamed behind his ear, as he stared at me giving me an is-that-suppose-to-be-scary look

" i almost thought you drowned" he said giving me a worried look,

i just giggled even thought it sounded forced as i sat next to him on the couch, he looked at me then quickly looked away tilting my head confused, i noticed the bunch of items on the coffee table,

"What are these?" i asked shocked yet with a small smile

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Thank you for reading :)) the video on the side... i listened to it non-stop while editing this it's a really sad song... :') made me cry the first time i heard it :))

Please do tell me what you think XD it would mean a lot to me if you comment  :)) Thank you!

PS. i wanna hug kwonnie his really adorable XDD that's just so random 0.0