The day started like usual for me. No sorrow or any joy. This is me right now. I have no feeling with my surroundings and the people around me. The one who understand me well is my only friend, Changmin. He is the one that I have right now. I have no one else. My parents already died when I was 9 years old, twelve years ago. On that time, I didn’t shed any single of tears. Changmin is two years younger than me but based on his appearance that is taller than me make him looked like my older brother. Well, he does act like he is the one.

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I opened my room’s window and take a deep breath. The new days started mean it is the new beginning for me. I tilted my head as I saw the house beside my house was occupied with furniture. Since when there are people living there? My room is in the second floor and Changmin’s is at the first floor.

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“Sweetie Junsu! Come down and enjoy your breakfast!” I heard Changmin called my name loudly. And faster, I made my move to down and saw a bunch of food on the table. There is no wonder since food is Changmin’s lover. I sat on the chair and ate my food.

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“Do you know that we will have a new neighbor?” Changmin asked me, break the morning silence. I shook my head.

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Then, there’s a knock at the front door and Changmin got to open it. He opened the door and there’s someone who I didn’t knew and plus, I don’t want to know.

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“I am sorry but I am your new neighbor.” The person said. I saw Changmin was smiling to the person.

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“Well, please come in. We can have a long talk then. Forgot to mention, my name is Changmin. Shim Changmin. Just call me Changmin.” Changmin shake hand with that person.

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“I am Park Yoochun. Just call me Yoochun then,” Yoochun smile widely to Changmin. He then realized my presence in the dining room and looked at Changing with full of question face.Changmin smiled and said, “That is my friend. Kim Junsu.He is a cold person so please don’t be awkward if he is totally ignoring you.”

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I heard the footsteps closer to me and Yoochun is now in front of me. He smiled.

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“I am Park Yoochun.Just called me Yoochun.” I stared at him and continue to eat my breakfast.

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Days passed and without I did realize it, I got very close to our new neighbor. Yoochun, a nice guy and really love to sing. Sometimes, we will sing together as his house has a beautiful piano. So many things I do learn from him. I am no more a cold person. I smile and laugh more now. Yoochun said that he love to see my smile. He thought that it’s really cute.

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“I want to sing a song today,” I just tilted my head to my side as he speaks.

“What kind of song?” If I knew it will hurt me this much, I would never ask it.

“Love song.” He smile and started to sing while his finger was on the piano, playing the note. Wonderful and full in love song.

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I can't imagine
Life without your love
and even forever
don’t seem like long enough

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I felt that it just two of us in the room right now. There’s no anything else. I thought at first it was an imagination when he looked at me and smile but I knew it never be an imagination. He only sees me. Just me, no one else.

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Every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

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‘What happened to me? Why my heart was beating so fast? Did I have a heart attack? Why these things happen to me?’

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�I looked at Yoochun. My knees started to become weak. Luckily, I sat on the couch there. What happened to me?

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Yoochun finally finished sand that song. He smiled like there’s a string at the end of his both lips and someone has pulled it up.

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“Nice song. Do you make it by your own?” My heart attack just now has become weaker.

“Yeah.That song is for my girlfriend.”

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DANG! Those words seem so harsh. He already has a girl? How come I never know that? Gosh! Tear in the edge of my eyes yet I just restrain it. I don’t want to cry in front of the people who I do love.

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“Chun, I got to go. See you later, okay?” Quickly, I ran from his house to mine. I cried, like this world is already on its end. Nobody can save me. Nobody can hear my pledge. Nobody anymore.

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“Look! I need to tell you something.” I saw him in front if my house, holding the gate.

“What else? If we get to close, your girl will misunderstand our relation. Just go away. I don’t want to see your face anymore.” Tears were back. God! Save me! Chun, I don’t mean it. I want to see your gorgeous face more and more.

“Su, I need to tell you something.” I kept my eyes to his face and sighed. What else did he want to tell me? To tell me how much he loved his girl? To tell me about their first date?

“Okay but it going to be the last one.” He smiled and I would never forget that smile ever.

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I opened the gate and both of us made our way to the nearest park. Luckily, it was already late in night and nobody else can be seen here. I saw a bench and sat on it. Hugging myself, I said to him harshly,” What do you want to tell me?”

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“I love you.” Those three words ringing at my ears! God, how I wish he would say those words. Wait! He already has a girlfriend right?

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“Chun, do you know what are you doing?” I stand up, no longer sat by his side. We face each other; there is frown at my face.

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“I know honey.I love you since the first day we met. I love the way you talk. I love the way you smile.”

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“You already have a girlfriend. You told me…”I can’t finish my words. My face started to stain with my tears. My head hanging low. I can’t face him anymore.

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“You are my girlfriend.” He held my chin up and stared at my eyes.

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“But how?” He then kissed me gently. Our lips met, lovingly.I knew on that moment, he did not lying to me. My hands were on his shoulders, asked him to love me deeper. He stuck his tongue, asked the permission to explore me more. Our tongues wrestle each other. God, thanks for making this a reality.

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“I love you my love.” He said to me as we parted from the kiss. “The song was actually for you. It was from the bottom of my heart. I do love you. I can’t convey my feelings because I am afraid if you don’t accept my feeling.” I kiss him, just a peck on the lips.

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“I do love you.” I said while looking him in the eyes. He smile and hug me like there is no tomorrow.

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“Then, be my girlfriend?” He asked, his chin was on my right shoulder.

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“Shouldn’t it be boyfriend?” I smiled.

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“Whatever do you say.” He hugs me tighter.

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