I’ve been their fan since day one. I’ve followed their pace from a rookie group to the most synchronize group in Hallyu.

I love everything about them. I love everything about him.

His small eyes, his emotional voice, his naggings, his cute antics and every aspects of him

I fell in line and waited for my turn. I’ve seen them in every event they held. Too pictures with them for thousands of times already but every single one my heart would beat crazily.

When it was finally my turn, I slip in front of Sunggyu and smiled the usual smile I have

I was secretly hoping that he would at least remember my name but the expectant look on his face clearly shouted at me that he still doesn’t recognize my existence. I was crushed once more. I faint a smile and whispered “NamHee”

“wha~ that’s a beautiful name” he said for the nth time. He always says that whenever I say my name. Like it was our first meeting and hearing it hurts me more.

Why can’t he remember me? Am I too plain to be recognized by his senses?

I caught him glancing at my fingers before smiling and giving my album back

“thank you” he said giving me that famous eye smile. My heart did a somersault but I fought it.

I clutched my CD and went on with the other members.

Why am I doing this? I’m Yoo NamHee. I’m one of the most popular girls at school. I’m the one who should be running around avoiding guys not the other way around.

I ran out of the hall after getting my CD signed. I sighed

“this would be the last one. Never again will I see them … because they won’t even remember me. They won’t even miss me …” unwelcomed tears run down my cheeks

I open up my book and sipped my coffee. I put my earphones on and played my Kpop free ipod

Since that day I swear off of kpop related bulls and have been living my life well. I would laugh at the memory of myself running around and chasing those guys who were too full of themselves. I was actually pathetic and naïve at that time that anyone would have forgiven me.

I started to scan my books when a mug was placed in front of me. I looked up and was welcomed by rays of sunlight since I was sitting besides the window.

All I could see was his lean figure standing in front of me and the edge of his lips twitching to form a smile. I know that lips

A cloud moved pass the sun and it’s rays was blocked for a moment and I gasped as my eyes finally recognize his face

He was grinning at me like we were long time friends

“NamHee” that melodic voice that I have refused to listen to these past few months greeted me

I took in another sharp gasp as my heart thumped crazily in my chest

He remembered me…?

Sunggyu took a seat in front of me. He was wearing a plain v-neck shirt over a varsity jacket. He wore his black cap and had no makeup on

“where have you been? I haven’t seen you in fan meetings or the likes” he pouted cutely before sipping his coffee. I chocked at what I’ve heard

“w-what?!” I yelled loudly

“you were away for a long time. Where have you been?” he asked casually like we’ve been close personally

“I… I stopped being a fan” I said looking down and fidgeting with my mug

“Oh” the shock and disappointment crashed in me like a tidal wave that I looked up to find him in his poker face

“the… the last time I saw you, you ran out of the hall and I… I sorta followed you and saw you crying. Why?” he asked looking back into my eyes

His brown orbs send waves of wanting and discomfort to my being. I looked away, afraid to be consumed by my feelings

“that was the day I’ve decided to stop being a fan” I muttered honestly

“why?” he quickly asked me

“because…” I took a deep breath and looked at his eyes with pure hate and remind myself of the way he ignored my efforts

“when I was there beside you, did you ever looked at me? When I was cheering for you did you ever heard my voice? Did you even remember my name back then? I wanted so badly to stay for you, because I loved you. Not as a fan, not because you’re a member of Infinite. I loved you because you were you. Even though I barely know you but did it matter Sunggyu? Did it? I’m sorry for not staying because staying with you while you acted like you didn’t know my existence hurts” I calmly said in a deadpan tone. I refuse to let my tears show this time even if that’s what my heart wants, second to Sunggyu that is.

He looked at me back with frowning brows

“you were all I saw, you were all I heard, your name was one of the constant thought of my brain, you were all I wanted, no your all that I want. All I want was to hear your name screaming mine, all I want was to see your smiling face every day. All I want was for you to stay beside me but you left and I kept saying to myself ‘tomorrow, she’ll be here’ but each day I got the greatest disappointment of my life.” He confessed reaching for my hand as I let his words sink in slowly

“NamHee, I know I’ve acted like I didn’t know you but your all I want to ever know. Pass the fan thing you’re showing me. I’ve looked everywhere for you and now that I won’t ever want to let you go because I know by then I’ll kill myself from missing you” he said seriously before entwining our fingers together. I stared at our hands

I know my voice would fail me so I just nodded and tighten my hold on his hand. I felt lightheaded as he smiled and ran to my side, without letting my hands go

“I love you” he whispered smiling at me making my eyes water, since those were the words that I wanted to hear the most.

“I … I love you too Sunggyu” I muttered looking into his loving eyes before being enclose in his arms. He buried his face in my neck making me shiver as he inhale my scent

“NamHee” he mumbled sending waves of joy to my body

“NamHee I won’t let you go. Ever” he said pulling a little to look into my eyes and kissing my forehead shaking my insides

I gripped his waist as I tried to clear my mind only to be drowned in euphoria as his lips collided with mine.

I gapped before returning the sweet kiss he was giving me.

This time it wasn’t a dream. I let my hands snake on his neck and feel his very being

Sunggyu is here. He loves me. And he know who I am :”)