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Yeah as you can read from the title...Yup I'm having Anorexia.... Whatever right?I dont even really think its anorexic like

whenever look up the net on anorexic people they’re all like ultra skinny and I’m like 2/3 more heavier than them but the

symtoms and some of the "thingys" they say on Wikipedia Actually made sense to me... AND I'm really sorry for not updating

anymore...i've been Busy with school and homework coping with new school,subjects and friends.. LAZY OKAY I ADMIT I'M

LAZY BUT IT's true though...I live in Singapore and i'm 13 actually this year Shows why my writing skills soooo much so

we kinda have to go to Secondary school and yeah... New subjects,school,friends,teachers... OKAY so this feeling of having

anorexia and my little fantasies of me and oppas's AHHH! Made me write this story so  yea Stay tune.

Hana-ah…Umma …Jeongmal…Mianhae…”

“W-wae umma?”

“You’re down with anorexia”

Hearing that sentence my life, my everything…. Gone…With just that sentence…Maybe you may say I’m exaggerating but

no… it actually makes sense because I’m like really skinny for a 13 years old. My weight is 28kg and my height is 160cm…

yeah see that difference? People always tell me I’m too skinny.my bones stick out. Yeah i know that but what do you expect

me to do?I don’t feel like eating every single day and does anyone care?No.i eat once a day and that’s only one burger.

Why am I only eating that much you say?It’s cause every time I eat a hamburger my stomach gets full and I cant even drink

another cup of water.My fault you say for not forcing myself?No. really.I’ve tried forcing and I ended up vomiting the whole

week.Try eating with your stomach full and eat a plate of rice.what do you feel?Pain?Yea the pain is so excruciating huh?

Yea that’s my life.Vomiting every week.Getting scoldfed every single day.for what?Not eating much.When I see my food it

looks like something you really won’t eat like poop.Yeah no matter if its pizza,ramen etc. And when I force myself I feel like

vomiting soo much.life doesn’t stop here… read if you wanna know more.

-Jung Hana(13)

“hey you look pale hana are you alright?”

“This?Its normal…I’m Pale everyday”

“hey do you wanna eat?”

“E-e-at?N-no t-thanks…”

Yea that’s what she says everytime I strike a conversation with her.What is it?”I’m alright” “Food?Nah”

I really hate seeing her like this.She’s so skinny,pale.While I’m yeah...normal. girls crowd around me but I don’t want them I

want hana.I want her attention.I want her heart.Yeah you may think it’s cheesy or you may say I’m too young to think about

love.I just want her to be happy.like really happy.She’s the Bubbly,smilely girl in school but outside?She’s what people say…

Depressing.She cuts herself everyday.Yeah you guys may think “omg she’s so emo” or what ever you guys wanna

say.people say she’s skinny,ugly.or like go “eww” whenever you’re near her.thats why I want to be her prince charming.Be

her prince.someone whom she can trust.Tell all her secrets,feelings.I want to be that someone.Not someone who has to be

away from her.far away young love you may say?Yeah,its just that phrase.It makes sense.Our situation.She’s someone

whom we don’t call outcast or popular girl but someone who’s…I don’t know..in the middle.She’s smile’s everyday.She’s

crazy everyday.She spazzez about k-pop everyday making me fall for her more.She’s a dirty minded person.She’s

skinny.You guys may say she’s ugly,doesn’t deserve to be loved because of her body size.but no,you guys are so

wrong.She’s someone adorable I wanna say.she’s cute.Beautiful.Amazing.wonderful…Perfect…

Yeah that’s just her side.My side?I’m someone you people say,perfect,handsome,popular or whatever man…I don’t really

care anymore.i have “friends” who are like, “ Dude you saw that girl uhhh..ana?nana?Bananna?She’s sooo ugly.crazy.

skinny  too.OMg look at those pimples! EWW”

Yea..It feels really annoying to be around them who talk about your crush every 24/7. doesn’t make it better that we stay

together…Yeah…that’s all I wanna say…There’s more but…yea…Stay  tune…

-Kim Myungsoo (15)