Chapter 1: We must think alike because I wrote something when my mom was in the hospital, too. :/

This was... I cried. Again. >_>" When Jonghyun was ashamed of himself, I lost it. That's just too realistic and sad for me to handle. The ending just made me worse.

Don't be ashamed, baby. Key, you're such a good person. Stay together forever. TT^TT Oh, jeez.

To know things are inspired by real life makes them ten times more powerful. The pain becomes real, the characters are real, the feelings that come along with it all--just too much. In a weird way, writing this stuff makes me feel better and I hope it did you, too. Even if it was just a little bit. Saranghae <3

Chapter 1: I am sorry to hear that Key had to give up his job, but I hope they had enough money for Jjong´s medicine till the end.

I laughed when Key came back and Jjong answered him that he is also at home. XD I am glad that he was in good mood that day. :)

Your story was really amazing. I am glad that you feel a little bit better after writing down your feelings.
I know that you are having really hard times right now, but try to stay strong. Spend with your grandfather many other great moments. <3 Try to do things in order not to feel any regret, when the time will come... "Write your final chapter with your grandfather as best as you can." Fighting~!

Chapter 1: It was really beautiful. <3 <3 And I couldnt help and cry in the end. T.T I was so touched, how Key reasoned that it isnt Jong´s fault and how Jjong promised to fight till the end. <3

May be Jjong felt somehow guilty or uncomfortable, because he couldnt take care of himself and had to depend on Key, but I think in the end he was really grateful that he had his true love of his life by his side and that there was someone who still loved him tenderly and deeply. He had someone who tried to encourage him every day, someone who did everything for him, someone who would sacrifice everything for him, someone who smiled at him... :)

I dont know why but your writing style reminded me atmopshere and emotions, when I read one of Haruki Murakami´s book (I think I could say that he is my favourite author right now). Especially the story settings - how you described the place, where they lived - was amazingly written. <3

Although it was a cold-looking-place on surface/on outside, I think their "warm" emotions were lingering in their flat. So it wasnt such a cold place in my eyes. :) Yeah, on one side it was hell, because it was place where Jjong was closer to his death, but on the other side it was a place, which Key didnt leave, where he come back every time he went for medicine and where he took care of Jjong. <3

And I think your title is really perfect for this story. As I said before - I agree, to see someone dear to you die in front of your eyes, when you cant do anything, is really the worst pain.

I also love how we readers can get a few glimpses of their happy moments which lift up the heavy atmosphere. :) I smiled when Key took his stairs climbing as a method for maintaining his weight/figure. I laughed when he remembered how Jjong carried him over threshold, when they moved in their previous apartment or how he wore a pink apron or how he had to lie about dangerous spider. :) I think such moments are the most important pieces of our life puzzle. :)

I agree, that is the worst type of pain. Because you feel so helpless. T.T

I am very sorry to hear about your grandfather. I hope you will manage to spend great times and make a lot of "happy" memories with him in next weeks and months. ;)

I am sincerely sorry about your grandfather. I have been in similar situations a few too many times over the last 5 years, so I can sympathize. Stay strong.