To: Me

 

Miss you! Don’t forget our dinner tonight! <3

 

From: B

 

Huh

 

My friend Lina, look at me.

 

Why? Something wrong happen?

 

I just smile at her, but she look at me with her curious eyes.

 

Nothing happen Lina, I am just tired

 

Lina seems not satisfied but she just goes with the flow.  She continues her lunch while I am trying to eat my lunch but in the end I am only playing with it.

 

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To: Me

 

Only 3 hours, I really can’t wait to meet you <3

 

From: B

 

Huh

 

Actually there is nothing wrong with the text.  The text comes from my boyfriend, Doojoon.  We already have been together for 3 years.  We start our relationship during college and now us already graduate and working.  I am a lucky girl to meet him, a guy who has everything, face, talent, clever and everything; you know what I mean everything that had been dream by all women in this world.  Even during our early relationship there is so many girls envy of me because of him.

 

But lately, I don’t know why, where is the mistake, I feel nothing, empty.  No, it is not his fault, it just only me.  He still the same, nothing change, it was me who is already change.

 

Brrrr, brrr

 

To: Me

 

Wait for me at the lobby, I will pick you up!

 

From: B

 

I just realize it, office hour already end.  I quickly ready for dinner with him.  I walk down to the lobby.  Not long after that, I can see his car, quickly walk to his car.

 

Hye babe.

 

Hye b.

 

He greets me like he usual did before.

 

How is your work today babe?

 

As usual, nothing interesting, how about you?

 

Guess what, I will get promotion next month.

 

See, like I said before, he has everything, he still the same, nothing change, it was only because of me.

 

So, where we will have dinner tonight?

 

Secret.

 

He also likes to make event for me.

 

Ow, come on, tell me oppa!

 

He just smile, did he know I only pretending?

 

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We already arrive at the restaurant.  It is a great restaurant and he already reserved our table which we can enjoy the great view of Seoul during night.  While he ordering for our meals, I just look outside and I really wish that my heart will be like the view outside, shining and beautiful towards our love.  Suddenly I feel someone hold my hand,

 

What is on your mind babe?

 

I just smile at him; I think this the right time to tell him.

 

Listen b, why don’t we just

 

Just stop babe, I don’t want to listen it

 

He always do the same thing every time I want to talk about this matter, he will quickly cut it out.

 

I don’t want be unfair to you, b.

 

He just shakes his head.

 

You are doing fine, we are doing fine

 

No, we are not; I wish I can say it but it is only inside my heart.  This is not my first attempt to confess what I had feels.  I tried it so many times before and the result is like you see.  He will pretend nothing is happen and we are doing fine.

 

Why don’t you try meeting someone, you can meet someone is greater than me

 

No, there is no one greater than you

 

But this is unfair, it was only you who is try your best, but me only,

 

You doing your best already, do you meet someone other than me right now?

 

No, I am not

 

So, just stop it, don’t talk about this, I will let you go if you meet someone, but you are not, I will wait no matter what

 

Even you have to wait for a long time?

 

Yeah, I will

 

Our conversation end when the waiter brings our dinner.

 

Both of you make a great couple

 

The waiter said it.

 

Right, see babe, I told you, we are great

 

The waiter smile and wish us to have a great dinner.  There he is, pretending nothing happen.  He keeps on smiling to me and sometimes holding my hand.  I don’t know how long he will wait and I also don’t know how long it will take to make me feels like before.

 

I am tired

 

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