He looks pale, tired exhausted

He wanna get out of his own skin for good

He sees drops falling but only his cheeks are wet

His lips chapped, hurts but he cant help but tremble

His head as if in cloud, heart beating once a moment

His chest bleeding nothings, ‘appa’ but his hurt doesn’t show physically

The more he wanna talk, wanna express, wanna complain the more silent he gets

He is cold all over, the tips of his fingers ache, his bones hurt that even his skull feels like ripping off

He doesn’t want to breath

     Because it hurts

He believes that his tears dried already but more flows off only to prove him wrong

Unconsciously his hand held into his pale face

Why is he so miserable?

The creaking of the door behind didn’t help

His arm falling to place beside his fragile form, he finally takes in a breath, not quite a shaky one

Just to look fine

But fine was far to be described as

‘min-ah”

And it hurts even more

Two loose arms wrapping him into a back embrace

But oh how much it felt like hell

it doesn’t help

“whats wrong, Minnie” his face too close, he could smell alcohol strong and clear

                                                                                                                                            his eyes burn  again

not a single tear dared to slid over, not when someone was around

not his only friend

the only one left out for him

and he cant afford loosing his last thread

the arms disappeared and the noise of clicking was heard

ofcourse

but he didn’t want to bother his friend, nor did his friend want him to

just maybe the usual routine

“what happened? Changmin!”

Yet he asked, and it feels disgusting

Because everything he said didn’t sound like caring

Not a single tune was put right to fake a single interest

So he walked

He turned away, and closed the bathroom door behind him with a rushed click

To his only escape

He would feel safer

No need to worry anyone he will overcome this

No need for pitying looks and lying assurances

This is better

This way is easier to deal with

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sorry if this sounded weird ..