"I’m just gonna get some sleep hyung…” his surprisingly hoarse voice croaked, walking past his older bandmate, practically pulling his feet towards his room, with a hand on his throbbing right temple, now making him want to vomit…

Joon let himself fall over the welcoming bed.The throbbing only got worse from the sudden change in position… he let his tired eyelids fall down, his strained muscles relax on the soft surface of the bed and told himself to sleep… just stop thinking and sleep, please, just tonight,... tonight only…

And as he was starting to realize (although he already knew deep down) that his little self-talk wasn’t taking him anywhere, he finally felt the familiar lump in his throat, the warming up of his eyeballs and the watering of his eyelashes… Joon, get yourself together, get yourself together man! But his voice was cracking even inside his brain, letting him know that he had once again broken down…