When Dara Cries..
When She Cries
"The road I have traveled on
Is paved with good intentions
It's littered with broken dreams
That never quite came true"
I was young back then, with high hopes and dreams for myself. A teenager with swag who was a trainee for YG. That was when I met her.
"I'm Kwon, Jiyong.. but people here call me G-Dragon or GD" I said smoothly when she was introduced to me
She smiled shyly and answered "Park, Sandara.. but you should call me noona"
Me call her noona? Heck we looked like we were the same age. She was so beautiful and shy but funny when she wanted to be. I smiled and answered "Hmm... I'll think about it" I guess that was the start of everything.
"When all of my hopes were dying
Her love kept me trying
She does her best to hide
The pain that she's been through"
Rumors and Claims of my supposed plagiarism surfaced. I felt down and didn't know how to face all those malicious fallacies. I was also very embarassed cos she might think that I plagiarized the song I composed for her.
"Kwon, Jiyong.. stop sulking. We know the truth so just move on, they can never put a good man down. Especially someone who is as handsome and talented as you. Arasso?" she cheerfully scolded me. I felt like laughing cos she was trying her hardest to be tough on me, and yes I needed tough love then.
"Neh. Arasso Dara noona" I replied quietly much to her surprise cos I never call her noona when it was only the two of us.
"Yah! Now you're calling me noona but last night as you were kissing me you were surely not treating me as your noona" Dara was mad, and it never is a good idea to make my lady mad.
"Mianhe, jagiya. I was only joking" I answered with a peace sign
"When she cries at night
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide
All the fear she feels inside
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cos I die a little each time
When she cries"
Another name, another face, another incident. For the nth time another girl was being linked to me again. I admit that sometimes I flirted but never to the point of intending to hurt my dear dara. She was lying down beside me in the bed, her back facing me. Though she tried her very best to keep quiet, I could still hear her hushed sobs. She didn't want me to see that she was crying, but of course I knew. And of all the hurt and pain she was going through, I was feeling double knowing I caused it.
I just hugged her back and kissed her hair "Good night jagiya" I softly said
"She's always been there for me
Whenever I've fallen
When nobody else believes
She'll be there by my side
I don't know how she takes it
Just once, I'd like to make it
Then there'll be tears of joy
That fill her lovin' eyes"
I was devastated by the scandal that came out. I thought it was over for me and the career that I have worked for, for so long. Dara was there holding me tight, telling me that everything will be alright. She became my pillar of strenght. I have always thought that she was so fragile but during that time, she made herself strong for me.
"Ssshh...ji, this too will pass. Just take a rest and come back with a Bang! You know.. BIG BANG?!" she even tried to joke at a time like that. She was shushing me cos I wouldn't stop crying but after her little speech, I couldn't help but smile.
"Aisht, what am I gonna do without you jagiya? Thanks for being my "One true thing" I kissed her deeply. A kiss that was full of gratitude and love.
"When she cries at night
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide
All the fear she feels inside
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cos I die a little each time
When she cries"
"I trust you Ji, if you say that you're not seeing any other woman then I believe you" she softly said while I was holding her after we had just made love.
I couldn't help but tear up at her words, her words that were full of faith in me. No one has ever given that to me before, only her. "Thank you dara, I don't know what good I have done in the past to deserve you"
"Ani. I love you ji.. and people who love one another are supposed to trust each other. Just keep on proving to those people spreading the rumors that they are wrong, I will just be here loving you still" she said. I just couldn't believe my luck, my dara is a short and petite girl but she is definitely full of love.
"So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cos I die a little each time
When she cries"
I can't promise that she won't be crying anymore in the future because being the love of my life is extremely difficult. I can only promise to strive hard to be somebody deserving of dara's love. I just hope and Pray, that whenever she cries, I will be there to kiss her tears away and make everything alright.
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