A heavenly good looking man stood in a shining stage with spotlight above, made him glowing. He reached a microphone from where it was stand. When he stepped towards and his flawless feature showed at moment the curtain was opened, million people cried his name, saluted their idol. All those cries and stunned scream flew around the stage, how delightful it was. Just like beautiful melodies in a sonata. Lee Onew waved his hand, gave his charming smile…. All people just drowned in joyful.

But it not happened for him. His heart was not where it was supposed to be. His heart was breakdown, crashed into million shards…

Hurt…

He was fragile… so fragile, he could shatter anytime when he could stand it anymore…

He slowly grasped his chest. There something hurt there. He just could flee an inaudible hurt moan, tried hard to stand with this all. Loneliness was coming. He was a prisoner in a deep endlessly hollow, emptiness now nested in his very heart.

Hurt…

“Hyung… I’ll leave…”

Don’t…

“Hyung… I’m tired…”

No…

“Hyung… Goodbye…”

“NO!!!”

Silence suddenly filled hall. All audiences hold their breath when that gorgeous young man breathes heavily, his eyes was filled with tears. Thousand eyes stared at him, with their bewilderment, confused, curios feeling. What actually was happening with their idol? Why he just yelled desperately in the middle his show stage?

Onew lowered his gaze…

Those tears just flew away, he couldn’t avoid that…

All his fans yelled, showed their empathy. Of course, they felt his misery; they would be cry over and with him. That sadness which he was vividly shown, when he tried to hold his cry with his hand.

That traces of tears visible, glowing under the spotlight….

“Key… please back, Key… please…” he pleaded.

All his fans back to their curiosity, deep down buried together with his sadness. They didn’t have to know why or what made he cried. They just knew his sorrow is theirs too.

“Key… please… don’t leave me…”

Still buried his gloomy face, his colleague in showbiz where he was in, stared with confused feeling. They obviously didn’t understand what happened with the multitalented entertainer Lee Onew right now. He just screwed up his performance without presented any song like he usually did. He just stood up there, behind the spotlight, cried someone name.

Spotlight turned off; made the ambience more silent and darkness covered his feature.

Someone stepped on quickly and fast, grabbed Onew’s wrist. Pulled him to follow on backstage.

BUGH

Onew’s back crashed on the wall when his manager just threw him, “What the hell was in your mind, huh? Are you wanna ed up your damn career?”

Onew stay silent.

“Lee Onew, out there, there’s a thousand people waiting for your performance, but you just standing there, cried like an idiot! Are you lost your ing mind right now, huh?”

Onew kept silent, all curses his manager said buzzing off on his ears. He even couldn’t digest what the hell he said after all. He became blind and deaf. He was dying. His soul was dying away when Key stepped off from his life.

He fought back and pushed his manager away.

“Lee Onew! I’m not finished my words yet!”

It’s useless.

He was hear nothing.

All his crave just looking for his life.

KEY…

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He had no idea how many times he was spent, lied down on cold floor. His face was pale with dry lips and teary eyes. He looked fragile, with his weary heart.

His hand covered with blood, he accidentally tore himself with a fragment from bottle he had crashed. He just stared with eyes brimmed with unshed tears at it blankly, felt numb in same time.

His breath diminished.

“Key… please back to me….”

Forgive him, that one couldn’t keep your smile.

Forgive him, that one couldn’t keep your safe.

He tried so hard, he gave all his mind and soul for you.

Forgive him; the one couldn’t always be your side.

Forgive him, the one who always leaved you behind.

That was not what his wanted to do.

All what he was doing, it just for protecting you, trying hard became your guardian.

Even all he could do was just earning more and more, think money could save his love of life.

But, no….

It even couldn’t make you stay still in Onew side…

“Key… Key…. I love you…”

When you were leaving him, there’s no more soreness you had to bear every single of your painful day. No more syringes, no more injection, no more medicines, no more respirators. You leave all; leave without felt any pain, anymore.

But, you left him. Him, with all tormented feeling about you. Buried himself in grief and heartbroken, yearned for you. He was in agony. He really succumb his life without you, all he thought just how he could see you again.

 “Key…”

One last whisper from him to you. A melodious whisper you ever heard from all his song he ever sang.

He missed you

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“I can’t believe Onew hyung will go after Key…”

A good-looking man named Jonghyun said to other boys which huddled up together in a couch. “It will so insufferable to live a life without his Key… it will make his life more unbearable to him… I so completely understand why he did that…”

Minho eyes gazed on Taemin, which still in his embrace. He tried to imagine if he lost Taemin like happened with Onew to Key. Losing his Taeminnie, can’t see his smile and laughter again. He will do the same thing his Hyung did to.

“If they couldn’t be together in this mortal world, let them pursue their happiness out there. There, where no more pain for Key and no more desperation Onew Hyung will feel…” Jonghyun about began to sobbing. Taemin stood up for the former and caressed his back, “They found their everlasting happiness after all, Jonghyun hyung… please, don’t be sad….” But the older sobs continued became a cry. A painful cry. He still couldn’t believe the reality that happened to both his precious friends he ever had, had to left him in tandem. Key had to leave him because the illness he suffered for long time and Onew took his life off covered with his own blood; he killed himself.

You couldn’t underestimate the power of love. Love wouldn’t exist if one of them left their trace of love. Just like Onew felt towards his Key. He was simply couldn’t life without his Key.

That was how love works and sometimes it hurt and joyful in same time.

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“You already open your eyes, Hyung?”

“Key…?”

“Yeah… it’s me…”

“How could? You already di…”

“Yeah, hun… we left our mortal frame in world, Hyung…”

Onew looked at Key, playfully his hair. He rose up from Key’s lap and stared around the room. It looked white and spotless. There were just both of them in that room.

“Where are we, Key..?”

“I don’t know…”

“It is… Heaven ?”

“Perhaps…”

“Huh?”

“Maybe it is Heaven for me, Hyung… because you right here right now. Heaven for me is just be with you and stay by your side… forever”

That smile,

Key smile, which always enchanted him. He reach for Key and hold him like there’s no tomorrow.

“I miss you, Key…”

END