Jonghyun’s POV

                I felt the knot on my throat as i saw Key and Onew walked around.

My brother loves him so much, but so do I.

And Onew loves me, doesn’t he?

                Sooner or later, we will tell Key that we fall for each other, he would undertand, smiled and cheered for us. Then we’ll going to date each other happily.

That’s the scenario, right?

But why does it seems so.. imaginary?

                Is it going to be that easy?

                What about if Key gone mad?

                What if he started to hate me and Onew?

                What if.. it is all just my imagination? What if Onew doesn’t love me?

Why is life so hard? So full of drama?

My cellphone buzzed, effectively working on pulling me back to reality.

I glanced at the screen,

“4 New messages,”

From : Kibeomi

‘I’m about to confess to Onyu hyung >//< but i’m so nervous!’

From : Kibeomi

‘Hyung~ Ottokhae? T,T ‘

From : Kibeomi

‘Wish me luck! <3’

From : Kibeomi

‘Hyung.. if he rejects me, you should treat me on my fave resto! T^T’

                Key.. is going to confess?

No, this is not the way i want him to know that Onew doesn’t love him.

What if when Onew rejects him, he told Key that he loves me?

                Key.. wants me to wish him luck?

Can i? I can. I should be. I’m a good brother. I should be wishing for his happiness.

Sigh. I’m such a hypocrite.

“Jonghyunnie hyung, is something wrong?” Taemin glanced at me

“That’s..nothing, Minnie. Really,” I faked a smile

“You sure? You didn’t seem like it’s nothing, hyung.” He gave me a concerned look

“I’m fine, Minnie, thanks.”

                “Hyung, if something went wrong, you know you’ll always have me.”

“I know, i’m lucky i have you, Minnie.” I smiled weakly and ruffled his hair

                Taemin looks like he’s going to say something but shutted his mouth instead,

“What, Minnie?”

“Huh?”

“Just now, you look like you’re going to say something.”

                “Ahni, i’m.. well, just stretching my lip.” He beamed.

“Okay, so, is it far? I mean, the snack stall.”

“Just a few more meters, i guess. I won’t be that far, Kajja.” Taemin offered me a smile and i followed him

XXX

Key’s POV

                I sent tons of text messages to Jonghyun hyung, but he answer none. I glanced over at Onew hyung, who is currently queuing in order to buy our tickets.

Hmm.. how is Taemin doing at the moment? Has he confess yet? Or.. not?

Well anyway, i shouldn’t be thinking about Taemin’s progress right now. I better be thinking about HOW should i say it.

‘Onew hyung, saranghae,’

Ugh. It’s too ordinary. Everyone could say it anytime and it won’t leave a big impact.

                “Key-ah”

“NE!” i unconsciously shouted, shocked from his sudden call

“Aigoo, i surprised you? Mian, ne? I don’t know you were dozing off.” Onew hyung beamed and gave me the tickets

“It’s the right movie, right? And what about the seat? The one that you requested were full so i took these instead,” Onew hyung smiled as he brought his face closer to mine, well, i know it’s because he wanted to explain the tickets i held.

                But in my sick imagination, my price is about to kiss me.

“Perfect,” I said. Both to answer his question and commented on his feature.

“Great, now let’s sit and wait for Taeminnie and Jjongie.” He dragged me to one of the chair

                We had a great conversation as always, but this time, it felt so awkward to me.

Maybe because i want to confess and well, everyone felt the nervousness, don’t they?

What if he doesn’t love me ?

What if he rejects me?

What if he’s not.. ah, no. He’s gay, i knew it.

“What are you thinking about, Key?”

“You,”

                “Mwo?” Onew hyung sounds surprised

Why?

Oh . I must’ve saying it out loud.

                “Yeah, You.. Y.O.U, Year Of Us, the.. uhm.. the movie we’re going to watch. Yeah, i think it’s very good and i’ve been.. umm.. well, guessing the scenes. Yeah,”

“Really? I thought we’re going to watch Stranger this time,” He knitted his brows and checked the tickets,

“Right. Stranger. Y.O.U is another movie. Umm.. i must’ve been thinking about it too much since i really wanted to see that movie.”  

                “Is that so? Well, then, we could exchange our stranger tickets to Y.O.U tickets,” Onew hyung smiled, but still, i can see that he’s puzzled.

“No, fine. Beside, the movie won’t come out until next month.”

                Oh god, Kibum. Why are you so stupid? I mentally slapped myself hard.

“Hey, it’s them,” I turned to Taemin and Jonghyun, quickly trying to change the topic

“Hyung! Are we late?”

“Nup, it hasn’t started. We still have.. umm.. a few minutes.” Onew hyung checked his watch an smiled

                “Great, i need to go to the restroom anyway, come on, Tae.” I stood up and dragged the small boy along with me

XXX

                “How is it?”

“How is how?” He avoided my eyes

“Oh, baby, you KNOW.”

“It didnt work. Jonghyun hyung seems like he’s been thinking about another things and i just.. well, i don’t confess.” Taemin pouted

                “Me too, I’m too scared.”

“That he won’t love you like the way you do?”

“Yeah,”

“Me too, Umma.” Taemin’s smile was sad and weak.

                “Ottokhae?”

“I don’t know. I guess... We’ll  just follow the flow. If he’s the one, that one day would come. Right, umma?”

“Yeah, right.”

XXX

Jonghyun’s POV

                I thought about Key’s word while waited for Kyu hyung to answer the phone

“I haven’t confess just yet, I’m too scared, hyung. I love him so much, i.. i can’t imagine how broken i will be if he rejects me.”

‘Key loved him so much..’ i sighed

                Kyu hyung answered the phone and talked hazily. Aish, i hate it when he’s all sleepy, but i had no one else but him,

I explained the whole detail, including my feeling and how complicated the situation is.

“Jjong,”

“Heum?”

“I don’t understand you, buddy. Really, you always said that you love Key, you want him to be happy and you want to be the best brother he could ever had.

                But you never stopped loving that Onew guy. You DO know that it’s a best way to hurt Key, right? So why don’t you just stop?”

I scoffed, “Yeah, i’ll just forget about him. It was easy anyway.” I commented sarcastically

“Okay, i know it might be really hard. I know that feeling well, but.. do you even try?”

I got silenced by his words

                “No. you don’t.  See? You don’t even try to make things better. You always said that you want Key to be happy, you want to stop loving Onew, but in reality? You’ve done none.”

“Hyung.. i..”

“Beside, that Onew guy might not love you in the way you do, buddy.”

His words stab me like a knife.

Right.

He might not love me.

“Anyway, i’m so tired. Call me back tomorrow or even better, don’t bother calling.”

Sigh. But anyway, despite that he could give the best advices, he’s really annoying.

Hello! Good day~♥

I thought about half of this while doing my biology quiz. keke~ >///<

and as soon as i submit my paper, i write these down :)well, in a hurry, because the next period started in a few minutes :3 

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