When Kangin realized he fell in love with Leeteuk, he felt the urge to tell him. But it didn't come as he thought.

“One week ago, I tried the first time to confess.” the racoon started to explain his chingu Yesung. “So, what happened?” the turtle loving boy asked. “Na, you know...”

I really just wanted to speak out his true feelings. “... Leeteuk-hyung. I love you!” I said pretty nervous, I was even shaking. The leader of the band looked confused at me, was startled. //Maybe he doesn't like me at all...// I thought, but Leeteuk hugged me very tight. “... I love you too.” My heart started racing, I wanted to show my love with a kiss on his lips. I cupped Leeteuks face, but suddenly the leader spoke: “Like a brother.” That was when my heart broke into pieces... THE FIRST TIME.

Yesung bursted out in laughter. “So, what did you do?” he asked, after stopping laughing. “... Just... coped with it.” the racoon murmured. “... Did you try to confess again?” he asked. Kangin nodded.

It was pretty late, we were lying on our bed in our shared room. Leeteuk cuddeled up to me, so I wanted to try again, because I thought this is the perfect situation. “Leeteuk-hyung?” I voiced out. He just murmured: “yeah?” I smiled a little, my heart started racing again and I even blushed a bit. But this time I was more comfortable then before and I wasn't nervous. “I really fell in love with you, Teukie-hyung. You are my everything! Your smile is angelic, your face is so cute, especially when you're blushing, your eyes are the most beautiful I've ever seen.” But... then I heard a snoring sound and realized he had fallen asleep.

Yesung already started crying from laughing. “Hahaha, you really don't have luck.” The racoon pouted. “Yeah, I know...” Then the turtle freak looked up, started grinning. “I can see in your eyes, you tried again.” he said. “Uhm... I have to confess... yeah, I did try again.” Kangin murmured.

We were in the fitness studio, training together. I got the chance to see leader's handsome body. “Hyung~ you really do great! You are training so much these days~!” I said in a cheerful voice. Leeteuk was satisfied with this statement and stopped training. He looked at me. “Thanks, but I can say the same to you.” the leader voiced out. I smiled shyly and again... I tried to confess. “hyung... you know, I really think you're beautiful.” He intrupted me, said: “Yeah, everybody thinks that.” He grinned widely. I sighed, he really didn't want to understand. “I think you're like an angle.” I know, that was cheesy, but I hoped he would recognize my feelings. “Yeah, everybody thinks that!” He answered again and stood up. “Stop with these cheesy lines and let's go showering... We have schedules to do!” Leeteuk interuped me again, when I tried to speak. So that's how this try failed.

Kangin sighed. “Sometimes I start to believe he really doesn't want to understand...” the racoon said sadly. Jongwoon patted his back. “You know, our leader is just... stupid.” The older one said while grinning like an idiot. Kangin laughed a bit. “You know how to cheer me up!” Yesung smiled softly. “So... that was your last try, was it?” the lead singer asked couriously. The racoon shook his head. “WHAT?!” Kangin nodded. “Yep. You know... I really felt the urge to tell him!”

Even after all those fails, I believed that Leeteuk and I are meant to be together!

Leeteuk and I were going out, having dinner. We were alone, because all of you still had some schedules to finish. I decided to use this opportunity! “... What are you going to eat?” the leader asked me, he was still unsure what he should take. “Uhm... dunno...” I looked up. “But... I-I'm going to treat!” You know, I hate to pay- normally I would never do that... But for our angle leader I would do everything, even that!

He looked up, straight into my eyes. “Good joke!” he said while bursting out in laughter. “N-no! I really want to pay! You can take whatever you want!” I even said. My friend, I never let anyone take what they want when I'm paying... Could be too expensive... But for Leeteuk, I would always make an exception. Now he started crying from laughing. “Yeah, rite... You never do that to anyone!” the leader giggled. “Why do you want to do that for me? You never have any money left and you always let the others pay... And you want to treat me? Are you sick or something?” He asked laughing. I shook my head. “Because... I love you!” The leader patted my head, grinned widely. “I love you too, brother, but you don't have to.” Leeteuk-hyung said smiling, then decided what he wants to eat. “...H-hyung... I..” - “C'mon! It's always this way, it's okay... Just eat and spend our money on your girlfriend or something!” My heart really broke into pieces when he said that!

Yesung now patted the racoon's head. “See, I told you, he's an idiot!” the lead singer said grinning. Kangin sighed. “... I tried again.” Yesung looked straight into his eyes, he couldn't believe that his chingu was that presistent. “... You're an idiot too, do you know that?” the red haired guy said. “... No... I just want Leeteuk-hyung to understand my feelings!”

Do you remember this story? In highschool a guy confessed to me, giving me a super cool CD player. Leeteuk once said to me, that he thinks it's a nice way to confess.

I bought a new mp3 player, put it in a nice box and went to Leeteuk. I just said: “You remember? This... means something to me. You once said, it's nice.” I gave him the box. “Think about it.” Leeteuk stared at me, wondering. “What is this? You know, it's not my birthday or anything!” I just nodded, saying: “Open it!” He did what I said, opened it and saw the brand new mp3 player. “Wh-what?” He looked up. “B-but why?” I smiled. “Because...” But then he interupted me again. “Oh! It's April the 1^st!” Leeteuk said laughing. “That's not a real mp3 player and this is a joke! Ahhh! Good one!” He giggled and went away. “NOHO!”

Frustration could be seen in Kangin's face. Even telling those stories made him feel the pain again. “This stupid idiot!” the racoon now said. “Yep! Even I understood this confession!” Yesung said. Then Kangin said: “So... it's really not my fault, isn't it?” Yesung shook his head. “I tried again...” Yesung couldn't hold it anymore, started laughing. “You're really an idiot, give it up, already!” He shook his head violently. “I really love him!”

Leeteuk-hyung and I had an important schedule to do, but I started to get desperate and using every chance, even in an stupid situation like this: We were getting ready, the make-up artists just finished their jobs. So we had a few minutes alone. “Hyung... I really need to tell you something!” I said desperately. “Please, can't this wait? I really have to concentrate.” Leeteuk said, pretty annoyed. But I didn't stop, I couldn't. “Hyung... this is really important!” He just shook his head. “Please, wait...” I just sighed, and went away to the toilet. I didn't want to see him until our schedule has started...

I knew we were stressed, but I really was hurt. I mean, I can't be angry with him, but... yeah, you know, stupid feelings.

Yesung just shook his head. “Before an important schedule? You're more stupid than I thought!” The racoon pouted. “Shut up!” Yesung giggled a bit. “So? Did you try again?” Youngwoon nodded. “Yeah, yesterday was my last try.” he said.

We were shopping, going through the streets of Seoul. It was pretty crowded, there were also many couples. When I saw them, I had the feeling it was the right time to tell my cute Leeteuk-hyung my feelings.

“You know, he's not yours yet!”, Yesung interupted. “Just shut up, stupid idiot!”

Suddenly it started raining and we looked for a dry place. We found a little bench under a roof of a shop. We sat down, I sat beside MY Teuke (khekhekhe). I cupped his face and said with my softest voice: “... I love...” But then... It started thundering, the rain was getting heavier. I got scared and clinged on Leeteuk. The leader smiled. “Don't be scared... We're going home... Everything will be fine!” He my head, kissed my forehead. I fell in love with him again, I felt comfortable and my scares vanished.

… But I couldn't tell him my feelings again.

Youngwoon smiled softly at Yesung. “He is really precious to me, our leader... He cares for everyone and is so loving and warm-hearted. And... He is so great, I can't describe him with words...” the racoon said. Yesung grinned widely, pointed behind Kangin. He wondered, turned around and saw Jungsoo standging behind him.

“I think, it's my time to leave.” the lead singer said, turned around and left those two alone. Kangin stared at the leader with his mouth open. “... I love you too, Youngwoon.” the older one said with a soft smile and kissed him.