a short story dedicated to sandaragon ^__^

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m sorry.

 

 

 

 

Will you forgive me for I have sin?

 

 

 

 

You’ll hate me, but…

 

 

 

 

This is our story.

 

 

 

 

So listen.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just this once, can you please not wake up?

 

 

 

 

These are my thoughts as I watched you sleep; because from this point, my day will begin again.

 

 

 

 

I’ll share a different love.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I don’t know what changed. Is it because that I got bored? There is no thrill; It doesn’t give me

excitement anymore; our love is like stagnant water, it goes nowhere.

 

 

 

I’m sorry.

 

 

 

I love you; but I love him too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I don’t know when I started feeling this way. Is it when we started to drift apart? Is it when we

barely see each other? I don’t know. I can’t remember.

 

 

 

He was just like my younger brother, a younger brother that I want to protect. We’ve been so close

ever since, you know that; so when we’re having problems, he had been my confidante.

 

 

 

Days passed, we started to grow closer together. I started feeling of wanting to be with him,

every day, and every night; to the point that I got jealous whenever his attention was not at me;

it should only be at me.

 

 

 

I was so confused. I can’t feel this way towards my brother. I tried and tried to fight it off.

This is just a mere infatuation, nothing more, but I failed. I realized that my love for him was

more than just a love for a brother. I love Seungri.

 

 

 

But guilt was eating me. You’ve been there for me ever since. How can I do this to you? To you

whom I love so much; so I decided to avoid him.

 

 

 

 

I thought that what happened was just a lapse of judgment; it will go away soon. Maybe I was just

lonely that time; maybe I just want some company. Maybe I’m just in the process of experimenting.

I’ll forget about him soon.

 

 

 

I really did try my best to avoid him. To forget him. I really did. Believe me. But he must have

noticed it. He started to bother me. He bothered and bothered me.

 

 

 

Do you remember that time when we were supposed to have dinner together? I told you that I still

have to record, didn’t I? I’m sorry, I lied. That time, he was able to confront me. He asked me

why I was avoiding him. I don't know if i should tell him the truth; when all of a sudden he told

me that he likes me. No. He loves me. I was so shocked I don’t know what to say. What should I

tell him? That I love him too? But it was wrong. What about you? 

 

 

 

But the more that I tried to deny it; the more it got clear to me.

 

 

 

Every night, after you fall asleep, I think and think and think. Am I going to be happy being with

you? Do I love you the way I love him? Was the problem in our relationship was me all the time? Is

it because it wasn’t the real me? The me that I have known before, will I be happy being that me?

 

 

 

Is it time for me to be true to myself? Will you be happy for me? I know that I’m being selfish

but I wanted you to be happy for me, because for once I’m accepting the real me.

 

 

 

I’m sorry.

 

 

 

 

I love you, but I love him more.

 

 

 

 

This time I’ll be true.

 

 

 

 

There is nothing wrong being me.

 

 

 

 

I am me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am Kwon Jiyong.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And this is my confession.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

inspired by Taeyang's After you fall asleep

 

 

 

 

My mom didn't allow me to go and see my other husband Donghae ( my first husband is Jiyong or Top or Deuk or Taeyang) nvm.

and Majo's husband Siwon :((

even if i told her that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity or maybe not  :/  but still....

it is the rain's fault

why is it still raining >:(((

hahahaha nevermind. i'm really weird. kekeke

 

 

sorry for the errors 

 

 

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