Gongchan seemingly loved everything about her. Her right eyelid that would change into a single eyelid from time to time when she didn't get enough sleep, her hair that she took FOREVER to grow and took dear care of, her cute button nose that he adored because natural noses on an idol were rare. Her floppy Korean, (she was a foreign idol, for all you international fans<3) the way she messed up her own introduction. The way she giggles and the way her cheeks would turn a slight tinge of pink when the staff laughed at her mistake. Her dorkiness, the way she would laugh for 5 minutes STRAIGHT at something nobody found funny. How she never put her image first. Her down-to-earth, bubbly,hilarious and adorable self on and off camera. The way she lit up a room with her presence, and how she amused her group members, which she regarded as sisters she never had. How she had a wide range of facial expressions that she she never failed to show. How she would be goofy. How she jumps around when she was happy. How she never cared how people would judge her. How she looked irresistably cute in nerd spectacles and big hair bows. How she was so lame and comical, and everyone adored her. The way she looked when she was embarrassed was so precious. The way she would cutely beg the stylists to give her something pretty but not prettier than the other members. How she could never do aegyo on purpose, but would overflow with it just being herself. The way she danced beautifully. How she would still look innocent when dancing something supposedly y and seductive. How she would put away all discomfort when she was on stage, even when she was feeling uncomfortable in a skimpy outfit. How she would go " Good job everyone! You worked hard!! Hwaiting!" After each rehearsal. How she would still be painfully polite with the PD who mixes up her group's songs with other artists. How she was an avid fangirl and proud of it.  How she would keep chanting the food she wanted to eat to her manager, and even her manager had to succumb to her cuteness. How older female idols treated her like their younger sister, and how older male idols couldn't help but be attracted to her. (This made him angry) How she could not do aegyo on purpose, but was overflowing with it being herself. How she would go sing and dance to other artists' songs.How she would be exceptionally crazy before performances, because she would be awfully nervous, and how she would be running around the waiting room with her phone and snacks in her hands. The way she looked so angelic when she prayed while waiting backstage, asking God for his guidance on stage. How she would eat again after performing and how she looked like a chipmunk when she stuffed her face with food. Her cheerfulness. How her texts would always have a cute emoticon, but never as cute as her. The way she would feed other idols, including him. ( Again, he felt slightly annoyed because he had seen her feeding a male idol once.) How she never flirted. How she would post their selcas together on Twitter and me2day with cute captions. The way she would excitedly receive presents from her fans. How her fan service was just, how could he emphasize enough, plain adorable. It was impossible to not fall for her. The way she would pose for any camera. Her animated-ness. How she liked to call him "Chan channie~~" It was amazing the way she made his heart flutter when she said "Channie Oppa" How she would always giggle when she denied dating rumors about them on variety shows. (She lied pretty well about this.) Her strength, when she moved to Korea alone at 14 and made it through training and Korean lessons. Yet she was soft hearted and cried easily. How she misses her parents so badly. How she could never be angry for long. How fame never changed her. How her seemingly black hair looked dark chocolate brown under light. How she made her unnie/group leader braid her hair into fishtail braids and french braids on casual days. Her tiny hips and her even tinier waist. Her stick thin legs and arms. Her tiny shoulders that made her look frail. He loved it all. How her eyes formed beautiful slight crescents when she smiled. How her left dimple was really obvious and her right one wasn't. The few freckles on the apple of her left cheek. Her chocolate brown eyes. Her tiny ears and cute earrings. Her short stature, and her complaints about her height. He had found it cute how petite she was. Her love for heels and clothes. Their common interest in fashion. Her slightly plump lips. Her milky, glowing translucent skin. Her seemingly rather flat chest, that he didn't mind. How she crinkled her nose often. How she could never refrain from laughing halfway through a prank.  Her thin, long neck. Her legs that were long for her body. He loved how they looked together. How their dates were sweet. How when he gave her birthday present with a confession letter, she avoided him and ignored his texts, but he eventually forcefully met her in the clothes room, and she hugged him when he said he was sorry he made their relationship awkward. (He thought she didn't like him the way her liked her)  He knew then that her had finally found 'the one'. How he was her first boyfriend. How she would keep smiling genuinely when she was alone with him. How her cheeks flushed and glowed red when he kisses her on the lips. How she would bury her face in his chest when he chuckled at her after that. How she loved hugging him. The way she fit into his strong arms perfectly. How she would keep grinning after he made her kiss him. How when the first time he kissed her forehead/cheek, she couldn't look at him without turning a bright tomato red. How they would go to a quiet cafe and just enjoy each other's presence. How she was really shy in front of B1A4 when she met them as his girlfriend for the first time. How she told him everything. How he knew when she was having her period, cause she would either be looking uncomfortble or reject a cold drink. How she told him EVERYTHING. And how he told her everything too. How they would text each other as long as they were awake. The hearts she sent to him. How "I miss you" never took over "I love you". How they would cuddle on the couch in his dorm when no one was around. He loved their 5-year . (She's younger, if you're wondering.) How they would keep giving each other secret glances whenever they met, and how hyper she would get when she knew they would see each other at a schedule. He loved their relationship. He loved her. But dating as an idol is never easy. Their relationship was kept top secret. They could never meet anywhere near as often as he wanted to. How they had to wear shades and hoodies in public. How she got bashed when rumors started spreading. How their CEO's were clueless, and meeting each other was like a crime. How she would interact with male idols during variety shows. He knows it is selfish, but he wanted her for himself. He hated the fact that they were both idols. He despised it. Nevertheless, there would be things he hated about her. How she was never confident about her looks and talent. She dissed herself. How she always put him before herself. How she felt that he was too good for her. How she never saw her beauty. How she was stubborn when he told her that she was beautiful. How she always said "If only I could be half as pretty/talented as her". He hated it. He tried many times to make her feel good about herself, but she never listened. He remembered small things. How he towered over her, and it was too easy to carry her. How she hated yam and would rather starve than even smell it. How she loved all berries and melons. How her eccentric habits would amuse him. How she would like it when he put his arms around her waist, and how she nuzzled her faced into his chest when she was sleepy. How she never watched a horror movie in her entire life. How she liked wearing big t-shirts. How she loved kids and babies. (He hopes to have some with her). How they would take goofy pictures together and set it as their phone wallpapers. How she loved the caramel ice blended at Coffee Bean. How his mood would become amazingly good when she was around. How cute she looked when she was jealous. How she would peck his cheek when he said she could appease his anger when HE was jealous by kissing him. How she would pout and blush when he told her that it was too weak a kiss. How he would lean in after that, and she would shy away. He would then pull her close for a tender loving kiss ( not a wet french kiss ). How she never thought dirty about him. He was angry at himself sometimes, when his manly hormones raged and he wanted to do 'it' with her. He knew she wasn't ready, and he was sure he would only do 'it' with her when she was finally lawfully his, as his wife, someday. How she liked tall guys. How she would always be excited about small things. How her gifts were so thoughtful. How she would intertwine their fingers together. How she looked on TV when she was doing a punishment on a show. How she always made him eat healthily because he had only one kidney. How she would tell him, "Channie, I think you grew taller. " How she would talk to him about woman problems. How she was hard working, and studied Korean whenever she could. How she love bubble wrap. (Who doesn't?) He remembered their first Valentines Day together, when they went shopping and bought couple shirts, bracelets, necklaces and rings. How she bought him a watch with her hard-earned money. How he gave her a pair of diamond earrings and she hugged him for so long. Her graduation day, when she couldn't stop crying when her parents surprised her. (He had seen this on TV). How she was anemic, yet she disrregarded her health and always suffered from fatigue after dance practices. How her parents left her in his care. On his 24th birthday, she went to his dorm at night with lots of food, a hand decorated cake, a handmade card, a sweater she had knitted and a pair of branded sneakers ber had mentioned on a variety show. 5 days after his brithday came hers.  How she cried on the phone with her family on her 19th birthday. She had spent her entire 19th birthday with him. ( They both had to literally beg for a day off) They spent it at her dorm. They made pancakes and a cake, had ap movie marathon and she was moved to tears when she saw that he had given her a new laptop.  She rewarded him with a long kiss that day. She cuddled with him that day, gazing at the night view of Seoul. He remembered how they were having a moment, with forheads against each other when they heard the door clicking open and they scrambled out of each others embrace, startled. Her manager came in, followed by her group members and even B1A4 came. They had presents and all of her favorite foos in their hands. It was past 12 and the 20th of August ( her birthday is the 19th. Not my birthday though, this is for a friend.) but they celebrated her birthday anyway. He remembered how she flushed pink when Baro called her "future sister-in-law". Then, his concert in Seoul. It was his third domestic concert tour, and he invited her group to come. Inviting her alone would be weird. She came dressed in a B1A4 shirt holding a large banner with the words "I LOVE B1A4". B1A4 took a group photo with her group, and posted it on me2day. Netizens took notice of how his arms were around her waist, and he felt delighted when some fans commented " Gongchan and (xxxxx) make a good couple" and " Gongchan and (xxxxx) should date!". Of course there were comments like " Channie oppa don't be with (xxxxx) you're mine!". Well, he was an idol afterall. He could write a whole book about her, about them. He really could. He loved her so dearly, she was his life. He knows that one day, he would be at the end of the aisle in a church, and she would be walking down in a gorgeous wedding dress, Outshining every lady in her present. Then, she would be lawfully his. Man and wife. He knows they will grow old and grey together, going to church services together (my friend is a Christian, and she badly wants Gongchan to be a Christian too. Sorry if you readers are not,ignore this part^^), travelling the world together.  Death won't do them part. They would be a couple etched in an eternal stone. He knows as long as he is aware of her existence, he'll love her as he loves himself. 
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