Jonhyun's POV 

You know, I've never loved any member from my group. Well , i mean i liked them but just as fellow members, sharing the same hardships and fun together. That was all. Not long ago , a couple was formed in our group. OnTae. It means.. Onew and Taemin are dating. I dont get it , how the oldest and youngest are dating but , nevermind, i congratulated them , wished them to be happy , never get mad at themselves and etc. 

I was happy for them at the beginning. But you know, fans started to suspect things , they even made the OnTae couple expose themselves. And thats how everything started. 

The fans started writing fanfictions about them,making macros with them , taking WAY too many pictures of them , saying that they are the best couple ever in kpop. 

And i was so like 'what the hell are you talking about?' 

I know i shouldnt be mad. But on one concert , i got way too mad. How can .. fans forget all about me , and focus only on the Ontae couple. So i did something. People call it mistake, i called it the same at first too , but then it became something so normal to me.. 

The only thing i did was, to come closer to Taemin while he was hugging Onew, to grab him and make him come closer to me and whisper something in his ear. 

All the fans went crazy about this. They were saying that in the group , there is a love triangle. Maybe. I dont know. I still dont love Taemin. But oh.. those sounds which he made that day.. were so alike with those which came from his room at late night. 

I couldnt sleep at all. Hearing Taemin's moans.. his screams.. how he called this perticular name.. Onew. At first , i hated it just because i couldnt sleep, but after the 'mistake' i hated it because he called Onew's name. Not mine. 

Was that.. what people call 'jealousy'? I dont know. But if thats what it is.. then im jealous. I want JongTae.. not OnTae.