I know from the start that my life is completely ruined.

I have no hope for freedom…I know...

No future waiting for me outside…

My fate has been completely sealed…

I…will be forever trapped in this cruel place…

I will forever envy those who are outside…

I can only wonder what life I would be able to experience behind this fence…

I’m used to being belittled by others…

I am treated as a disgusting piece of junk... Not worthy of their eyes…

But I saw her…

She has this long, dark brown hair…

Thin kissable lips…

Fair nose…

Brown orbs that drowned me…

And a radiant smile…

She changed everything…

Ever since I saw her…

For once in my life…I felt alive…

My heart died a long time ago…

But somehow…in some way…

I felt it pounding…

Softly at first…then fast…

Like it would burst out of my ribcage anytime…

For the first time…

I learned how to smile…

I saw a lot of possibilities just by seeing her…

I can feel hope creeping up to my vein…

I…felt happy…

I didn’t know you can get happiness just by the sight of one person…

Watching her from a far…

It was a tiny happiness for tomorrow…

Between her and dirty me…

There’s a big difference…

I wanted to say…

“Come here and talk to me…”

She'll never know my agony…

I wrote a letter…

And folded it into a paper plane…

I am praying it will reach her through these barracks…

Fly away…fly away…

Ah…

The feeling of freedom…

To be able to get out of here…

Someday…

It’s a lie…

I know it’s impossible…

But…

Her existence…

Her existence made me believe that all lies can come true…

Days and months have passed…

I’m receiving letters from her everyday…

They are my happiness…

I treat each and every one of them as my treasures…

Every time I read them…

I feel like I’m there with her…

Every experience she has…

Every emotion she can’t let out…

She told them to me…

With that…

I figured out where I wanted to be…

It’s right beside her…

Every smile she gave me…

It’s my reason to live…

My very reason to wake up every morning and face the world…

She takes my pain away…

She makes me forget every sorrow I feel and replace it with nothing but happiness…

I can survive this place, in hopes that I can be able to get out of here and be with her…

She’s my happiness…

My hope…

My everything…

It’s funny how you can be one person to the world but the world to one person…

Suddenly…

She said she needed to go…

Go far far away from here…

Why?

Why?

That’s the question I’ve been asking myself ever since she told me that…

Goodbye…

When that word came out of …

My world came crashing down…

All hopes vanished…

I know…

I knew it all along…

She’s gonna leave…

I’ve always been thinking…

‘You’re gonna leave me…not now…but soon…soon…’

I was a fool…

I have been living in agony…

But never have I cried like today…

Her existence made me smile…

Even with any fate…

Seeing her…

I felt like I restored a bright future…

I can’t call her…

I can’t chase her…

I can’t get out of here…

I can’t do anything…

One day…

Jail guards took my treasures from me…

I was fuming…

To make matters worse…they tore all of it apart...

My anger was beyond my boundaries…

Without thinking of my actions…

I punched him…

My tears…

They continuously ran down my cheeks…

All of the things I’ve been keeping in my chest were released…

I can hear their laughter…

Finally…

My time has come…

They sent me to a dark chamber…

There I heard a lot of cries and wishes to be let out…

But me…

Me being without her…

I have no regrets in this world…

But there is one thing I’m screaming within my mind…

I have no more contradictions…

I want to live a little more…

I just want to see her one more time…

Aitai…

Aitai…

Aitai…

One more time…

One more time…

That will be my first and final wish to god…

‘Please hear my plea…’

I cried…

Smoke is starting to fill the room…

I feel every last piece of oxygen leaving me…

It’s burning my lungs…

But I didn’t mind…

It’s slowly and painfully killing me…

I didn’t care…

I can never have the days we spent together…

I remember those days like a flash of lightning…

Everything she gave me…

It was my only will to live…

In the weeds filled with darkness…

There was one flower blooming beautifully…

Even though I lived a different world from her…

I tried to reach her…

If this is the last moment of my pitiful life…

Please let me talk to her…

In this small room…

My scream was resounding vainly…

I saw a one part of the her letters…

I hugged it…

A small smile found its way to the corner of my lips…

If this is the last moment of my dull life…

There’s just one thing I want to know…

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Her name…

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The End

A/N: I have half the mind to post the sequel for this... but i kinda want to leave it as it is... what do you think?