http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7dQM3798iI

2 days left 

SUNGKU'S POV

For hours now, I just laid back on my car seat as I stared outside, not sure of the time or of my surroundings. All I knew was that Hoya was going to leave us and Bora was destined to have the same fate as him...

I sighed and sat up and drove to who knows where...but as I was noticing my surroundings i realized i was heading...home

Home...is where Soyu and my kids are but home is also where the infinite is 

I stopped by a nearby lake near my house as I wasn't ready to face them yet as I needed to let them know of Bora's condition and Hoya's sentence 

I got out of the car and sat down on a old wooden bench that was next to a sturdy tree to the left of me, I looked onwards to the blue dark lake as it glistened under the moonlight 

I inhaled the fresh natural air as each time I breathed, a tear dropped out of my red swollen eyes from the frequent sobs 

I got out my phone and started looking through the pictures I captured through this phone and in my memory 

I stopped at photo of Bora and Hoya hugging each other tightly as they looked at the camera with a bright smile...this photo was taken before he disappeared and I bawled looking at the happy couple on my phone that was no longer a couple in the present time 

I looked at the time on my phone and saw the time ticking...3...2...1....I counted down 

1 day left

It's now midnight and there is officially only 1 day left til the two are no longer physically here with us 

I hunched over as I rested my elbows on my knees, placing my hands on my forehead as a shape of a triangle and just let my tears fall to the floor

SOYU'S POV

It was already midnight and I was getting worried of Sungkyu's whereabouts

He would usually call and let me know if he needs to work late or if something important came up. This is the first time he hasn't called me, which worried me deepily. I may sound like a obsessive wife but I don't care where he is...I just need to know he's okay

I grabbed my phone and clicked 1 as he was number 1 on my speed dial and he didn't pick up. I sighed and ended the call

"Is everything okay?" L asked as he looked over at me as he played with his daughter as Dasom sat next to him smilng at her beautiful child 

"He's not answering his phone," 

"I'm sure he's fine unnie," Hyunyoung comforted 

"I hope so..." I whispered 

I sulked down on my couch as I just stared out into space only hearing the sounds of laughter of the rest of the gang playing in my house 

I looked at the clock on my wall as I could hear the ticking of every second

I stood up and grabbed my jacket

"You guys, I"m going to go look for him. Take care of my kids for me,"

"Sure will!" the 'adults' all answered 

I closed the door behind me before I could thank them and just started running around the neighborhood looking for him and as I was about to give up, I saw a familiar looking car in the distance. I ran to the car and checked inside to find it empty, I walked around the car and saw him with his head down

"Honey?" I called 

His head turned around slowly and smiled...bitterly?

I sat down next to him and looked straight into his eyes and smiled but once I did he avoided me 

"Honey," I called as I shocked by his behavior 

"What is it?" I asked starting to worry 

"It's nothing, I'm fine," he said as he smiled weakly 

"Come on tell me...What's bothering you so much?"

"It's nothing, really," he promised and yet at that moment a tear ran down his face

My eyes scrunched as I was unsure of what was going on in his mind

"Honey," I called out "What's wrong?" I asked again 

This time instead of saying nothing, he rested his head on my shoulders and closed his eyes as he just let his tears run continuously 

"O...Oppa," I called as I stared at him with surprise

His cries slowly started to sound louder and now he was wailing with his eyes closed 

I didn't say anything and only wrapped my arms around him as he still had his head resting on my shoulders 

I patted his back gently as he started to cry and soon enough I could feel tears on the verge of falling 

"Why...why.....why is God so cruel why?" he asked as he sobbed 

At that point, I broke...seeing this side of him...it was the first and hopefully it will be the last 

but what I worry about most is what he meant by asking why God was so cruel?

What exactly happened that he said that and is here, crying and sobbing?, I asked myself

Questions started to invade my head as I embraced him and the curiosity was getting me even more curious but I waited until he was ready to tell me 

10 minutes later his cries died down and he sat back up as he inhaled and exhaled deeply couple of times 

"Yeobo, what is it that your acting this way? Tell me what happened," I demanded 

He turned towards me and stared at me with eyes that were filled with so much pain and angst 

"Oppa..please tell me. The curiosity is killing me," I begged 

He sighed and looked down as he turned his body towards me and grabbed both my hands 

"Honey...," He called out 

"Umm....Hoya got his sentence and in a day..from today...he'll recieve the dea..." he couldn't finish his sentence as he bit his lips, trying to force himself not to cry but I already knew the words that he was trying to say 

My heart dropped as I knew the remaining 2 letters and I knew the word...but I really hoped that it wasn't the word I knew it was to be  

"Dea...death penalty?" I asked as my voice cracked as tears gently flowed down my face

He didn't...no he couldn't lift his head, so I lifted his chin using one hand and saw him...completely shatter right before my eyes 

His eyes..were now icy cold that cried hot tears...his hands...were now shaking uncontrollably as he held my hands...his expression.....was those of a dead man...those of a lifeless mummy

I gasped seeing the sudden change in him.....I sobbed as I saw him break right in front of me 

I leaned forward and entwined him in my arms tightly not wanting to let him go...because if I did...I was afraid he might do something to himself...

"Oppa...I'm so sorry...Oppa....wh..you..."I was at loss of words as I just cried and cried 

He grabbed my arms and released me from his grasp

"Oppa.."

"Honey...Bora.."

My eyes widened at her name as I realized I haven't seen her or contacted her for a while now 

"Bora?"

"Have you talked to her since she left the station?" he asked and I shook my head 

SUNGKYU'S POV

I looked at my dear wife who was completely clueless of the whereabouts of her dear sister and friend 

"Did something happen to her?" she asked worriedly, frowning, causing the tears that covered her eyes to now roll down her face

I hesitated whether I should tell or not but I didn't know what was best for her 

"Honey, what would you do if something happened to Bora?" I asked and right when I asked my question I saw her shoulders just drop and she stared at me with just worrisome and experated eyes 

I looked down again and exhaled deeply with my mouth open, causing tears to roll down more 

"Bora...she has..brain cancer. The day she left the station she fainted and my friend and collegue, Wooyoung, took her to the hospital and she was diagnosed with cancer but she's in the very last stage...she only has a day left..." the moment I finished my sentence, Soyu fell to the floor on her knees with her hands over as she screamed loudly but the sound was blocked by her hands 

"NO..NO...NO!!!" I heard her yell 

I kneeled down next to her and hugged her as I cried with her 

"Why?....Both of them..gone? WHY?" she asked 

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She yelled 

I sobbed and yelled with her as we both were broken, hurt, confused, angry beyond belief, destroyed.....so many more emotions that are so hard to explain

the pain in our hearts...were too big...

DASOM'S POV

I stared at the time and realized it was past midnight. All the kids were upstairs sleeping in the guest rooms and we were downstairs waiting for Sungkyu and Soyu

I was starting to get worried as Soyu unnie left a while ago

"Shouldn't we go and look for them?" i asked 

"Yeah..we should but who'll look after the kids?" Seungyeon asked 

"I can have UKiss and Boyfriend come," L said and got his phone and made the phone calls 

"OK we're good," he said and soon enough the boys came and we quickly instructed them of what they needed to do and left 

"where could they be though?" GNA unnie asked and at that moment we heard someone screram...a girl...Soyu unnie?

"It's coming from over there," Hyunyoung said as she pointed towards the lake only a few feet or yards away

We all ran towards a familiar looking car and walked around to find a...heartbreaking sight

Soyu unnie was kneeling on the floor crying as Sungkyu oppa was right next to her, hugging her tightly as he too cried 

"W..what's going on?" Sungjong asked as he started crying as he stared at the sobbing couple 

Sungkyu turned around in alarm and got up 

"You guys," he said smiling as he wiped his tears with his sleaves trying to hide his tear but his eyes and nose were red and he was still crying 

Unnie also got up but slower 

she wiped both her cheeks with the back of her hands and sniffled 

"What's going on?" Dongwoo asked again

"Umm...you guys...let's go home. I'll tell you guys at home," Sungkyu said trying to push us to go but I stood my ground 

"Oppa you're going to tell us here," I demanded 

"Dasom please," he pleaded 

"Oppa, do you not see yourself, you're crying  your eyes out and Soyu unnie just screamed, our kids our sleeping at home so tell us here,"

Soyu and Sungkyu looked at each other and Soyu nodded 

"Alright we'll talk but we really need to talk somewhere else, it's night time right now and everyone's sleeping," Sungkyu said 

"Then where do we go?" Sungyeol asked 

SUNGKYU'S POV 

"Go back to my house, get your cars and come to Hoya's house or..where we used to live. Soyu and I will meet you guys there," I instructed 

The crowd nodded and started walking back home

Soyu and I got in my car and I was driving to Hoya's house 

"How do you think they'll react?" I heard Soyu whisper

I looked at her and saw her staring out the window 

I answered ," Same way we did.." 

Aside from that, we drove to our destination in silence 

We got out of the car hesitantly and walked in front of the house and I tilted my head back and looked at the tall building that held my memories, pain and sorrow

Tears rolled down unconsiously and without effort. I grabbed Soyu's hand as my own two hands trembled. I guided her inside the house and saw the house covered in dust. 

We sat down on a couch as we sat side by side waiting for the others to come.

tick tock..tick tock..all we could hear was the endless sound from the noisy clock hanging on the wall. We stared at the wall in front of us and just waited and suddenly we heard cars in front of the house but we didn't flinch. 

They all ran through the door and sat in front of us

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0v_Xk--_eFc

"What is it? What is it that you and Oppa were crying so hard about?" Dasom asked as she knelt before us as she had her hands on Soyu's knees. Suddenly Soyu burst into tears and her head fell towards the floor and held Dasom's hands as she sobbed uncontrollably. I stared at my pitiful wife and patted her back as I too was crying. 

"U..Unnie.." dasom murmured in surprise 

All we could hear was the sound of her sobs and whimpering 

Gna ran up to Soyu and brought her head up 

"What is it Soyu? WHAT IS IT?!" Gna yelled in frusteration as she shook Soyu's shoulders back and forth wanting the answer to come out of her. 

"Stop! stop.." Woohyun said as he pulled Gna off of Soyu 

Gna fell on the floor, landing next to Dasom

I knew that  I had to tell them, so I inhaled and exhaled as tears after tears as I grieved 

"H...Hoya...he recieved his sentence..." and with that their attention was on me 

"Hyung..."All 5 of them called as they looked at me with desperate eyes 

"He...he..recieved the...d..."and I paused as I looked down at my lap as I cried 

"no..no...that's no possible...no.."Sungjong whispered and I looked up with my eyes filled with tears 

I nodded my heads and closed my eyes, not wanting to see the faces they made 

I heard sobs...loud..painful sobs 

"...and bora...bora..." I heard soyu whisper 

I opened my eyes once more and saw the room turn dead silent once again but their hearts screaming in pain. 

Soyu sniffled and wiped the tears off her face and started once again "Bora...bora...she's dying...." 

"That's not possible..why...why...bora u..unnie..she..how..wh..why?" Hyunyoung rambled 

"c..cancer,"

With that GNA ran upstairs and the rest of us just cried...weeped...sobbed 

We all broke down..we all did...

Suddenly L got up and threw a chair that hit Woohyun but he was ablt fast as he blocked it with his hands and the wooden chair broke.

Woohyun stood up with blood running down his hands 

"WOOHYUN!" Seungyeon yelled and ran towards him, worried of his condition

I'm fine," he said smiling in pain but his smile disappeared once he laid eyes on L

"What the f**k," Woohyun said in anger 

"Shut it," L said coldly 

"What?" Woohyun asked now furiously glaring at him and L just smirked and that just got Woohyun to run up to L and grab him by his collar. We ran up to the two trying to get Woohyun to release L but he only held on tighter and suddenly the room went silent as L laughed

"What the hell is wrong with this crazy bastard?" Woohyun asked to specifically no one 

"You're hands are bleeding.." L started

"what?" Woohyun asked in confusion 

"You're hands are bleeding..and you complain?" L asked in a sarcastic tone as his laughing manner turned into a cold and harsh one 

"what?" woohyun asked again and this time with more fierce 

"What? what? WHAT?! IS THAT ALL YOU CAN SAY?!!!!! I SAID YOUR F**KIN HAND IS BLEEDING AND YOU'RE COMPLAINING?!!!!! HOYA....THAT MOTHER F**KING BROTHER OF OURS IS GOING DIE SOON AND YOU'RE COMPLAINING ABOUT YOUR DAMN BLOODY HANDS?!!!"

"YOU !" Woohyun exclaimed as he threw a punch at L 

"You think i'm not upset that Hoya's going die? HUH?!" Woohyun asked as the anger in his eyes were washed away with tears 

"o..of course I am. hoya..that dumb ..h..we did the job together and HE'S the only one getting punished. I feel guilty enough.." he said and L, who's hands were raised in the air, balled in a fist..gently let his hands fell to his side and looked at the floor 

The two..who were aroused by angers only a few seconds ago, were silent with tears 

 

L suddenly fell to the floor, knees hitting the ground first, and his back crouched over as he had both his rough hands over his teary face as he sobbed loudly. Dasom knelt in front of him as she was crying along and just wrapped her arms around her crying husband. The room was filled with bloody cries.

For an hour, all you could hear were the cries of 12 heartbroken and exasperated friends grieving for 2 people that we love dearly.

After the cries have subsided, everyone just stared into space as our minds were blank with no thought. Suddenly Sungjong stood up and looked around, with a frown on his face

“What’s wrong?” I asked in a weak voice

“Where’s GNA?” he asked and he slowly made his way to the stairs and once he was there, he just stopped.

“What’s wrong?” I asked once again as I saw Sungjong’s eyes tear again.

“I..I hear GNA noona….screaming…crying….” he said feebly and walked up the stairs.

*Crash* *bang* *Slam*

Various kinds of noise was heard from upstairs and we all bolted up and ran up the stairs and found GNA on the floor with blood running down her forehead and hands as Sungjong was hugging her to calm her down. Around us were broken glass, knocked over drawer and a dead lamp lying helplessly on the floor. My eyes then looked at the bed that had paper scattered all over so that it covered the bed sheet.

“What is this?” Dasom asked as she walked up to the bed and picked up a piece of paper and started reading it silently and soon all of us gathered around and picked up a piece of paper and started reading it. Mine read

December 25, 2014 (A/N: remember that Bora and Hoya met four years later and Hoya left in 2012)

Dear Bora,

It’s been two years since I have seen you smile…the last time I’ve embraced you warmly…the last time I appeared in front of you. My dear Bora, another white Christmas has passed by where I wasn’t by your side. I’m so sorry. I am writing this letter for you but I do not have the courage to send it to you, its better that you would think I was dead…It’s better that way. But, there are so many times where I selfishly want to appear in front of you and make you stay by my side forever but I can’t knowing how much I have hurt you. Bora, by the time you read this, I will be dead. I have turned myself in, all the people I have murdered, and all the people Infinite murdered…I took full responsibility. I mailed the police station evidence and they are looking for me as of now but even though I am the one that revealed my dark past I can’t turn myself in just yet because I want to see you smile once and be happy before I go. So please smile so I can leave peacefully. I know I am a man that deserves the wrath of God but in return for confessing my sins...please smile just once. Smile my beautiful angel. I love you, goodbye.

LOVE,

HOYA

I smiled bitterly at the letter and soon found water dropping on the paper one by one and realized that the water were my tears. I looked around the room and saw another set of tears on everyone’s face. Oh how sick I am of crying, of feeling hurt but I can’t help it.

 

“He turned himself in,” I said and they looked at me in surprise.

“No, Hyung wouldn’t do that…would he?” Sungjong asked

I reread the letter and I occasionally paused as I needed to either clear my throat or because it hurt too much to say anything else.

 

“How could he just turn himself in like that? Is he stupid? HE DIDN’T IN DO IT BY HIMSELF!!” Sungyeol yelled and turned around and banged the wall in frustration and anger.

 

“H…he knew all along…he knew his death sentence before-hand…and never…told us?” Woohyun said completely shocked

 

Gna suddenly released herself from Sungjong’s grasp and handed me and envelope. I eyed her and looked down at the envelope in my hands and opened it slowly. In the envelope, I discovered a letter and a picture. I took both items out and looked at the letter and was surprised to see a group picture of all of us when we took a picture at the barbeque party…everyone was smiling so happily

“H…How did he get this picture?”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s9AmjWg7pKw

I turned the picture around as I thought I saw black writing on the back and I was right. In bold capital letters it read: MY FAMILY WHO I WILL NEVER FORGET. BE HAPPY. I WILL LOOK OVER YOU ALL WHILE IN HEAVEN OR HELL. MY DEARESTS I LOVE YOU.

I then opened the letter and saw that it was to us. I cleared my throat once more and started reading the long letter.

Dear family,

It’s me Hoya…I honestly don’t know what to say, the words are caught on the tip of my tongue. I guess I will start by saying I miss you guys. I miss laughing, smiling and sharing memories with you guys. My dearest family who I will forever love…be safe and be happy.

Firstly, to my dear brothers, who were by my side through thick and thin and our bond that was thicker than blood, we’ve been through a lot haven’t we? The moment the 7 of us met in TOP hyung’s house, we became family without even knowing each other’s names, hobbies, age. We were mere strangers, who by fate, were brought together. Though living life as an assassin was difficult and heartbreaking, we were able to overcome it by our brotherhood and love. If TOP hyung didn’t adopt us from the orphanage, would we still have the same bond? Would we still have gotten together like fate and live a normal life? A life without blood on our hands, a life without torment, a life without guilt…that was our dream wasn’t it? To live life like a regular human being…to go to school like the other kids our age, to date and love like the other kids, to go on trips with family and friends like the other kids our age but my real wish was to live life together as a family with the girls that have captured our eyes and hearts and create our own little fairytale. Is that too big of a dream? I guess so seeing that it is impossible to make the dream come true. You guys may not know this but I have been watching over you guys secretly, making sure you guys are okay and I’m glad to see you smile with your new families, the families you have built and made with your loved one. How I wish I could do the same. Was it stupid of me to hide? Was it stupid of me to turn myself in? I can confidently say those are two things that I regret right now but I now I can’t turn back time and even if I could, I wouldn’t. No matter how I strongly I pray and hope that everything would just go by and our pasts would be erased in the process and I would be able to stay with you guys...but my heart is not at ease. I can’t live without the burden, without the guilt, without pain. If I continued to stay in the world living happily…it would just not be fair to the hundreds of people we have killed over the years. I know that you guys are saying you guys did it with me but I am taking myself down. I am not going to drag you guys down with me; it’s better one man going down than 7. I’m sorry for leaving you guys so early, but I will see you in the next lifetime…if fate brings us brothers together again…I will see you soon.

My precious sisters who I will always care for and love. First, I would like to say thank you, thank you for loving my foolish brothers. Thank you for understanding them and still being able to embrace them with open arms, without you guys, I think all of us would  still be trapped in hell banging on the doors, wanting to get out. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for being able to forgive all the wrongs we have committed and still being able to embrace us, forgetting about the past. Thank you for making our soulless hearts melts and become human beings. We would have forever hid in the corner waiting for a change to happen and the freedom that we were silently crying out for was finally heard by the 7 of you angels. Looking back and thinking to say to you guys, I can only say thank you.  

I love you guys, stay safe and be happy eternally. In the next lifetime, i hope that all 14 of us would meet up again excluding the cruel and hurtful sins that linger onto us. Don't worry about me because I am happy...because bora is always treasured in my heart.

 

HOYA'S POV

I stared at the bright moon starting to disappear behind the horizon...there was only one day til I was hanged but I could not wait and just standby. The idea of sitting in a chair, in a room all by myself and my brothers being able to see me through a clear window that faced us together and them seeing me take my last breath. The idea was....painful and unnecessary, so I grabbed the knife that I was able to get from the outside world while I was still locked up in this jail cell and I placed the sharp end of the knife towards me neck but before I slit myself, I looked at the moon and smiled at the peaceful sky. The sky that held the heavens...the heaven that I was eager to run to. I then looked at a picture of Bora smiling angelically posted on the wall next to my bed and shed one tear. I looked at the ceiling and slowly closed my eyes..and I ran the knife towards my neck. I fell to the ground, dropping the knife at the same time, and grabbed my neck as I gasped for air. My eyes were slowly closing and I knew it was time to go. Goodbye world, goodbye brothers and sisters who i love dearly and goodby bora, the only girl i've ever loved in this lifetime. Yoon Bora I love you and promise me we will meet again...goodbye....

 

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hi guys its been so long since i have written and i am sooooo sorry. Junior year in high school is the busiest and hardest as of right now so i hope you forgive me as i need to place school as my first priority. I also lied because i tbelieve i said that this was the last chapter but it isn't there is one last chapter. originally this was supposed to be the last chapter but as you can see there is still much more to go so i didn't want to drag it on any longer because if a chapter is too long then it will only bore you and me so ill see you readers next chapter!!