Seung Ri POV

How long has it been now? One month? No, longer than that. How long does he need? Is it that hard, to give a yes or no. You are sitting in your room, at the end of your bed doing nothing at all. Just thinking. Thinking about him. God your mind goes on and on and on and only about him. How his smile keeps running back and forth in your mind, wanting you to combine your smile to his. Each time your heart skips a beat each time you are close to his perfect form. His touches making the heat blow up in your face, and leaving you there with a tomato face. You couldn’t control your feelings. Each time you hear his angelic voice. Each time you see his lovely face. When he hugs you, pinch your cheeks, making small touches with you and sometimes even kissing you, but never on the lips. Whenever he does those things you feel yourself falling deeper. Just face it Lee Seung Hyun. You’ve fallen for him. Fallen too deep. You are in love with him. Lee Seung Hyun, you are in love with, Kwon Ji Yong.

One month before

You know this would never work. You are the maknae, and he is the leader. You two are a part of an already famous band call Big Bang. You guys are now claiming the whole way up to the top. That is the reason you can’t let this ruin your opportunity, cause if this somehow falls. You’re not going to be the only one falling. You can’t be selfish. But he can. He doesn’t see it and are making it all worse. Practically everyone knows, well at least the other hyungs know except him. Luckily they don’t question you, rather they encourage you. They want it to works. Saying that they can see that the leader likes you too, but you don’t believe them. “It is fanservice.” You say. It is just fanservice. There are no other intentions behind those actions. For a while you still act like nothing matter. You just let him do whatever he wants on and off camera. Then the problems start. Your heart is starting to debate against your mind saying,

“Come on and confess already or I’ll will break.” But your mind won’t let your heart win.

“No, you will break anyway. There is no way that he is going to say yes. Besides you know what will happen if you do, everything is going to be weird and it will affect everybody. I rather have you hurt than everybody else.” With that your heart took the defeat and everything was like before.

So you still drag on your life. Each and everyday you struggle with your feelings. Then one day you think. This is not going to work. Your heart is finally taking over your mind. Your mind and heart are now one. The only thing left is taking action. Now is time and you are hoping, that fate, god, time, universe and everything that are watching over you are on your side. It was 2 am. You know that everyone except him would be asleep. He is always up to do his magical work, worth thousands awards. You probably know his daily routine better than him. So here you are standing in front of his door at 2 am to finally get your answer. Who knows how long this has been on your heart and mind. You breathe and gather up all the courage you have in your body and knocks.

“Ji Yong-hyung, are you awake?” you whisper, loud enough for him to hear at the other side.

“Come in, maknae,” he whisper back and you walk in.