“I won’t do what you told me, I won’t do what you said. No, I will not gonna stop feeling, I’m not gonna forget it. I don’t wanna start over; I don’t wanna pretend that you are not my lover, that you’re only my friend…….I won’t…”

Yuri’s POV

            I questioned myself many times, what do I really like – a man like MinHo or a girl like Jessica? But everytime I try to figure out the answer to that, I always come up with the same result – Jessica. It’s always Jessica. For 4 years, it’s Jessica. Still, it’s Jessica. I love her femininity, her sweetness, her being so touchy – the way she rests her head upon my shoulder, or clings on my arm, or holds my hand. I love her cold stares – they’re so intense or even her blank stares. I love her frown – she’s still beautiful and her pout – that’s so cute. I love her voice, the way she talks, sings or even squeal, her laugh – so priceless and her body – my wonderland. I want to touch it just to know if she’s real. What am I thinking?!

            But all good things must come to an end. I just realized I’m no longer young like before who categorize this feeling as “crush” or “infatuation”. It hasn’t changed but It’s different now, it’s called love. My feeling is abnormal, I shouldn’t feel this way. And……Jessica and I are impossible, I knew it. Can you imagine a headline “Girls’ Generation’s Yuri and Jessica confirmed they’re dating!”? I bet it will leave the world shocked. Society won’t accept it. I don’t know if I can handle this.

            So I must stop this foolishness. I must eliminate this feeling towards her. I must move forward. I must like a man not BE like a man. I must put a distance between me and her. I must stop caring so much about her. I must divert my attention to other members. I must insist that she’s just a friend. I must feel numb. But how can I do that? .....my mind tells to do so… but my heart says no.

Jessi’s POV

            Am I weak or she’s just irresistible? How did I fall this way? ...for her? When I’m with her I just feel so safe and secure. She’s strong as a man. Is it weird to think that she is a man? She became my guard for four years, and I loved it that way. I love it when she caresses and comforts me, when she’s always available when I need her, when we’re always together and laugh together but now…..I feel like there’s a thin line between us. Everytime I try to push myself towards her it seems like she pulls herself away from me. (Thank God she doesn’t totally ignore me, if that happens then I’m gonna cry.) I don’t know what went wrong. Maybe she’s confused…or conscious of what people think (about us). I don’t mind and I don’t care about what other people think, the only thing I’m sure of is…she can run, she can hide but she can’t escape my love.

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(Author’s Note: Please don't expect too much from my writing, you're giving me pressure (*laughs) That's why I didn't take journalism.)