Title: Blue Tomorrow

Chapter 3:내멍든가슴이널 찾아오라고 소 리쳐 부른다 넌 어딨는거니?

Pairing: KangTeuk

Genre: Angst;Sad

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'' ... I know.. I really do.. Baby.. I miss you too...''  said a voice

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Y..youngwoon?

No..no.. It must be my imagination..

But nevertheless, I turned around.

 

My heart gave a jolt when I saw a figure behind the tree.

 

''Youngwoon..?'' I asked, unsure.

 

The figure stepped out from behind the tree.

 

Youngwoon!

Its really him!

Or is it?

 

Oh ! Dont tell me I am hallucinating!

Oh no!

 

I pinched my already bruised arm to make sure that is not my hallucination.

 

''Ah! ****! Pain!'' I cursed.

But its not where it supposed to hurt.. Hmm weird...

 

I stared at his face.

Afraid that the pain is just a part of my dream..

Maybe I fell off the bed or something like that...

 

''Wad happen! Baby! Are you hurt?!''

 

He face looked alarmed.

Ah! He is walking closer...

 

My heart pounded hard against my sore chest..

I felt something wet on my arms..

 

I sniffed and gave my arm a really hard pinch to make sure again.

 

I gasped in pain.

But not because of my arm...

 

I finally realized that the wetness is caused by my tears... It hurts..

The pain... Its coming from my chest..

 

''Stop! D..dont come any closer!'' I said.

Dont come closer... I dont want you to disappear..

 

He stopped in his tracks.

''B..baby..'' he started.

 

''No.. Dont call me that.. I cant.. '' I said as more tears flow out of my eyes.

 

''....''

He took a step forward.

 

''..Dont! I dont want you to disappear.. Urgh! This must be my imagination.. I am going crazy.. Damn it! '' I said.

 

''Huh?'' he looked confused..

 

''Aish! I never know my imagination is so vivid.. I could even remember how you look when you are confused.. Haha'' I laughed bitterly.

 

Great. I am even talking to myself.

My poor dongsaengs.. What are they gonna do when their leader turned mad..

 

Nonono! I cant turn mad.. I need to protect my members.. They cant have no leader!

 

I slapped myself '' Wake up! Park Jungsoo!!Wake up! You cant afford to turn crazy!! You need to take care of Wookie, Kyu ,Hae, Hyuk and the rest!! They need you even if he left you! WAKE UP!!'' giving a tight slap.

 

I could taste blood..

 

''NO!! STOP THAT!'' screamed 'my imagination', running towards me.

 

Very good. My imagination is really good!

Great. I am really insane!

Damn it! WAKE UP!! *SLAPPP*

 

Then I felt a pair of strong hands holding my hands trying to stop me from slapping myself.

 

''LET-GO-OF-ME!'' I screamed, tears splashing everywhere.

 

''NO!! JUNGSOO! I WILL NEVER!! I AM SORRY!! I..I SHOULD NOT HAVE LEFT WITHOUT A WORD!!'' he roared.

 

''WHY?! WHY DID YOU LEAVE IN THE FIRST PLACE!!'' I screamed.

 

''I..I..'' he stuttered.

 

''HUH?! HUH! '' I challenged, throwing punches at his chest.

 

''Get off me!!'' I sobbed, punching and pushing him away from me.

 

He hugged me and said '' I dont want to either! But..But I am leaving sooner or later.. It does not make any difference!''

 

''Why?! Why!'' I sobbed.

 

''Be.. Because.. I..I had sign up for my army service.. I will be gone for 2 years.. I..I..'' he said.

 

I stared at him in shock.

 

''B..baby?....'' He asked, surprised at my sudden pause.

 

''I am sorry.. I dont mean to make such decisions without your permission…But..'' he explained.

 

I continued staring at him incredulously.

 

A mixture of emotions exploded in me.

1. So this is why he left.. Not because he dont love me anymore... But! How could he do that without my permission!! And!! How dare he try to leave without telling me! And! Why must he leave?! Cant we spend the remaining days together?!

 

2. Its part of my hallucination. I had gone mad. Great.. How are my dongsaengs.. My sweet innocent.. Ok not so innocent.. Dongsaengs gonna cope.. And my family.. And our EverLastingFriends.. Our beloved fans...

 

I could not bear think anymore.

I took my head in my arms and sobbed.

 

''Baby! Are you alright?!'' he asked, sounding worried.

 

''Great! I had really gone mad! How are they gonna cope without me!!'' I wailed.

 

''M..mad?''

''Yah! Baby! You think these is all your imagination?! YAH!!'' he said angrily.

 

He forcefully grabbed my face and force me to look at him.

 

The same eyes.. Same nose.. Same mouth..

Wait.. He looked more.. Haggard.. then the last time I saw him..

 

''I am real.. Damn it!! Park Jungsoo!! Damn it!! Look at me!!'' he growled.

 

I was busy looking at his lips, while he talked.

 

Park Jungsoo...

Oh yeah.. Thats my name..

My eyes flicked back up.. To his eyes.

 

His eyes is burning with fire..

 

''Yah!! Park Jungsoo! Did you hear me?!'' he said, shaking me by my shoulders.

 

Oh! Right!

 

''Erm.. Yeah.. YOU DONT HAVE TO SHAKE ME LIKE THIS!!!'' I snapped.

 

Giddy.. Giddy.. Damn it Kim Youngwoon!

 

Wait.. I am feeling giddy..so..

''So.. I am not hallucinating?... I am not crazy?'' I said out loud.

 

''Urgh!! For god sake!! I am real!! Everything here is real!'' snapped Kangin irritated.

 

''But.. But...'' I said, still not able believe it.

 

He made an angry noise and then I felt a pair of lips crashing onto mine forcefully.

 

I pressed my lips and eyes tightly together while tears steadily streaming out from my eyes.

 

He did not give up.

But his kisses became softer and softer.. Then he stopped.

 

His forehead pressed against mine.

Then I heard a soft sob coming out from him.

 

I slowly open my eyes.

''Kangin? Are you alright??'' I said, in shock.

He is crying.

 

''Why.. Baby.. Why cant you believe this is real..'' he whispered.

 

''.....''

''I..''

 

I dont know..

But I could clearly feel my heart hurting even further when he said that.

 

I place my fingers softly against his quavering lips.

''... Cause.. Its too good to be true that you are here next to me... I thought.. I thought that you.. Had really left me.. For good.. I thought.. You.. You had stop loving me.. Because of my lousy leadership and that I am a lousy lover..'' I said.

 

''Kyung had left... Bummie is busy with his own schedules.. I cant... I cant bear to lose anymore of you.. Especially.. especially you..'' I said, looking into his soft eyes.

 

''Did I done anything wrong.. I mean.. Seriously.. Did I? I really need to know.. I am scared I am doing everything the wrong way.. Am I really so.. bad.. That everyone decides to leave...''

 

'' I -''

''Park Jungsoo. Look. You are the most perfect leader in the whole world. Its not only I said it. Hankyung hyung left its because of other reasons.. Not because of you. Its not your fault. *author: its stupid SME's fault!* its his decision.. Bummie.. Well he did not leave. He is just busy with his other schedules.'' He said, grabbing my hand.

 

''I.. I am not leaving because of that. Its my fault.. I should have tell you about my decision earlier.. And.. I should.. Have discuss with you first..''

 

I raised my eyebrows.

 

''Youngwoonie.. But still.. Why do you have to leave BEFORE you report for army?''

 

''...cause..''

''Cause.. 2 years is very long.. I dont want to make you wait for me pointlessly.. I dont want to make you waste your time on me.. As in..''

 

''Kim YoungWoon. Do you think if you left me like this, I would stop loving you?! Do you think its much better to just break off like this?! You-!!'' I screamed.

 

Urgh! This is ridicules! He thinks I will forget everything we did together?! He thinks that I will move on without him?!

 

''... But its 2 years we are talking about.. And..-''

 

''2 years.. 3 years.. 15 years or whatnot! I will wait! Even if its till death! I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU!!''

 

''But-''

 

''KIM YOUNGWOON, listen up. In my life, I would not love anyone else except for you. Even if you.. Stop loving me, I would still love you. No matter how long you are leaving, I would wait till the day we will be together again.''

 

''....''

 

''You! You better stop thinking of leaving me without an explanation and giving me these crap! Ok, I accept that you are going to army. But you do not have to disappear without a word before that! Just let me.. And the rest spend the remaining days with you before you officially going into the camp... and we will be waiting for you during the 2 short years.. I will be waiting..''

 

''Baby..'' he mumbled, tears shining on his face.

 

I felt more relieve after saying it out.

I smiled slightly and touch his cheeks.

 

''Jagiya...''

 I kissed his lips gently.

 

Then my phone rang.

 

''Yeobosaeyo?''

''Hyungg!! Where are you?! Pleasse come back home noww! You know, I am soooo worried!'' squeaked Ryeowook.

 

''Yah.. Wookie-ah, arraso arraso.. Calm down..'' I said.

 

Aish, kieopta wookie..

 

'' wahhh! Hyung...*sob* quick.. I am scared..*sob* ...''

 

''Why?! What happened?!''

 

''Ani.. I am worried.. Quick.. I am scared.. Please dont leave me alone.. Dont leave us..*sob*''

 

''Aigoo! I wont.. Dont cry!''

 

''What happen?'' asked Kangin

 

''..Hyung! Is that Kangin hyung?!''

 

''Yea.. ''

 

''*sobs even louder* Hyungggg!! Come back!! Dont leave us!!''

 

''Aish! Wookie! Calm down!!'' I said

 

''*sob* ....''

''Yah! What is the commo- Wookie?! Why are you crying! Are you hurt?!'' said someone in the background.

 

''Noo.. Nothing Yesungie.. I am not hurt.. I am just.. I just had a nightmare that Leeteuk hyung is going to leave us too..''

 

Aww.. Precious wookie..

 

''Aishh.. Baby Wookie.. Dont cry.. I wont leave my babies alone.. Arraso..'' I said.

 

Kangin took the phone from me.

''Hey.. Kangin here.. Wookie ah.. Dont cry umma and appa will be back soon.. Ah.. Yesung, take care of Wookie while we make our way back now.. Arraso?''

 

Kangin smiled and hang up the phone.

 

''Alright, baby, lets go back now.. Our children are worried..'' he said, standing up and lifting me up along.

 

''Arraso..'' I smiled.

 

Then we walked down the hill together.

Making our way back to our home.

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Author's note: Chapter 3 :D anyways, its not the end yet.. Mianhae.. Anyways, hope you enjoy this chapter :D comments are welcome :D